TTC after a fullterm stillbirth

[thumpette]

I'm probably going to test on Friday but it'll still be too early probably then. I'll test again on Monday before the run if no AF before. Good luck wildflower! Are your cycles normally regular?

 

[wildflower79]

I caved early! Do you think that line looks alright? I've heard bad things about the blue dye tests. It did come up within 2 seconds. I'll get some digi's when I get chance to go to sainsburys.

 

[thumpette]

Ahhhh! That looks like a very clear line to me! So so happy for you! Xxx

 

[thumpette]

Wildflower I'm waiting hard on the digital test! Get thee to sainsburies! 😘

 

[charlie15]

Looks like a BFP to me! Congratulations Wildflower. Hope you're not feeling too freaked out. Xxx

 

[wildflower79]

Thanks ladies! I made it to Sainsburys. Just got 2-3 on the cb digi! I was so scared it was going to say not pregnant or just come up 1-2. I'll test again in a few days and hopefully it might have gone up to 3+.

I'm not too freaked out at the moment, but not really thinking too far ahead. Just going to take a day at a time, because that's all I can deal with for now.

Fingers crossed for you testing on Fri thumpette x

How are things with you charlie? x

 

[charlie15]

One day at a time is a good way to be. The best way yey for 2-3 on digi!!

I am good. CD 13 today so should be Oing tomorrow. We are going for it this month for the first month TTC, yikes!

 

[thumpette]

Amazing Wildflower! All anyone can do is one day at a time. I took a notion and tested this evening. Negative but way too early, on an old internet cheapie not even using fmu!
Will let ye know how Friday goes.
Wildflower- you've made my day!

 

[thumpette]

Feeling a bit pmt-y today. Slight achey back and general body aches. I feel like I'm out already

 

[SanJan]

That's awesome news Wildflower

So happy for you

 

[wildflower79]

Wishing you lots of luck charlie x

Aww, I really hope it's not af on her way thumpette x

Thanks sanjan x

 

[thumpette]

Took a first response test this morning. BFN 😟 today is 11 dpo so potentially still too early but I think if I'm honest with myself now I know I'm out. I want another baby so badly. This is so unfair

 

[wildflower79]

It is so unfair thumpette It's so difficult getting your hopes up each month, just to have them all taken away from you again. I really hope your rainbow isn't too far away x

 

[thumpette]

Thanks wildflower! AF arrived today. Gutted but sure what can you do. Hope you and bean are doing good xxx

 

[wildflower79]

Sorry about af arriving x

I woke up in the night with pretty bad stomach ache. Sent me into a right panic! I managed to get an appointment with a dr at a&e this morning, but he didn't really do much. Basically said there wasn't much you can do this early and just wait and see what happens. He said the stomach ache might not be anything to do with the pregnancy. I've not been so bad this afternoon, but its started up again after eating my dinner. I don't know, maybe I've just eaten something dodgy, but can't help worrying it's all going wrong. Haven't had any bleeding up to now, which I suppose is a good sign. I might ring the midwife in the morning if its still hurting, see what she says.

I think its tomorrow you said you were running your 10k? Hope all goes well for you.

 

[charlie15]

Sorry that AF has arrived Thumpette let this month be your rainbow baby

Wildflower, I have had some awful cramps with all pregnancies, including my daughter, hopefully it's just the baby settling in. But I can totally imagine how every twinge is going to worry you. I do think pregnancy after what any of us have gone through will be at all easy. Hugs and keep us posted xx

 

[Natnee]

Congratulations wildflower!!

I'm just sooooo cross. Was supposed to be seeing a consultant tomorrow. OH rang to check where we were going at the hospital to be told they want to put the appointment back a week, because my notes hadn't yet been got from the archives. The consultant wants to read through them first. Well they've had a couple of weeks from when the appointment was made and I can understand she wants to read them, BUT I don't know what a blind bit of difference that will make to my current circumstances as I could tell her in one breath what my history is. 'little girl born no complications and now 5 years old, little girl stillborn with no complications throughout pregnancy and no results from tests as to why she died, no previous history of mc until now….' Can't see how any of my past has any reference to me now.

Just so pissed off, they've had 2 weeks to sort this out. Everythings just been put back a week now. Still waiting for af to come after mc, and we haven't bd so no chance of me being pregnant yet. Just hoped might be somewhere into getting some answers if there are any.

OH has emailed the specialist at the local private hospital to see what he can suggest. If the NHS can't even get my notes available what faith do I have in them doing tests etc.

 

[wildflower79]

Nat, that's so annoying. How hard can it be to find some notes!! I would have presumed all notes would be on computer these days?? Really hope they get their act together soon and hopefully you'll get some better help from the private hospital x

Thanks charlie. I'm still getting some painful stomach pains, but not as bad as they were that night. I'm not even sure if it's baby related or maybe some ibs type pain.

I went to see a nice doctor at my surgery yesterday and she helped me feel a bit better. I'd really let the anxiety get the better of me and was feeling really panicky all the time. She's referred me to a mental health support worker, so hopefully that might help with the anxiety issues a bit. She's put me in for an early scan, but she said it's about a 6 week wait, so won't really be early by the time it comes through! I'm debating whether to book a private one for around 7 weeks. I'm still so scared I won't even get that far though. Nausea has been worse last day or two - I'm hoping that's a good sign. Got my booking in app with midwife on thurs.

 

[charlie15]

Oh Nat sorry you have been messed around! I hope some way or another you get what you need xx

Wildflower, I can imagine how much anxiety you are having. I think I would be the same. If you think an early scan would help you, then I would have a private one. Myself I am not a fan of early scans, but that's me! I know plenty of ladies who get them for a variety of reasons.

Hope baby is getting comfy in there x

 

[thumpette]

Nat I was just coming on to see how your appointment went- that is a joke that they've put you off! Grrr. I hope it at least happens next week.

Wildflower, hope the pains arent anything to worry about- come on sticky bean.

Im cd7 again- mad how it rolls around! Did a mini marathon on Monday in aid of Feileacain who are the Irish stillbirth and neonatal death charity. Was all very emotional because 8 people (including my sister) initially promised they'd do it with me in Max's name and every one of them dropped out for one reason or another- some without even telling me.

Anyway I did it with one of the girls from my support group and also my best friend (who hadnt thought i wanted her to do it at first) and it was lovely to remember Max and wear a tshirt with his name. Had really bad AF cramps and was bleeding quite heavily but managed to jog the whole 10k so very proud of myself!