Erin, im absolutely gutted for you
If this isnt going to work for you, how you are feeling today is not how you may be feeling when youve had some time to process your current position. I know this is something you have thought and thought and talked about, but your feelings will develop as you find out more answers - right now you have to get through the shock and grief and then you can start to consider your position with your donor.
im praying for a miracle for you petal xxx