TTC after loss - over 40 - any takers? Our lucky thread - 9 rainbows and 1 BFP

[josie1234]

Hi all, how are you all

Fiona - glad that you are still trying, don't you wish that we could just not bother with opk/temperature monitoring etc and live in hope that it will just happen without any stress or thinking about it. Good luck hun xx

AFM - still no news. I woke up at 3.45 am and couldn't get back to sleep so took temp so will prob have to disregard it. Still BFN's. Can't believe how long this cycle is, I stopped taking B6 tablets ages ago, probably half way in cycle. No symptoms or anything, been crampy for few days now but no sign of AF yet. I do HPT each morning but no signs of anything. This is ridiculous. I spoke to doctors yesterday and they said to wait another 2 weeks before going to see them. Getting worried that something is wrong, if AF comes then at least that will mean I can start again with hopefully a shorter cycle (but not too short).

 

[josie1234]

Glad things are looking better for Brooklyn, Becks. Bless him. It is good that he is liking his medicine. Hope that the nipples are getting better, it will take a bit of time but if you can express then at least that's something.

 

[josie1234]

Morning how is everyone today?

Well I am now cd 44 and ff has now put me ov cd 41. Wish AF would come

 

[Left wonderin]

Jo how frustrating for you !!! Have you ever had a cycle as long as this . I see on your chart that your Opk was negative on cd41 ..... Hang n there hope you get some answers soon !

 

[Creative]

Morning how is everyone today?

Well I am now cd 44 and ff has now put me ov cd 41. Wish AF would come

Hoping AF pays a visit soon. How frustrating for you!

 

[garfie]

Josie - Grrrrr I hate it when it does that - hope you get some answers soon.

AFM - I had a little cry this morning (just as hubby was going out to work) he came and cuddled me - he said he thinks we are getting to old to have another baby and my eldest will be 13 next year. He wishes it could have been different but it obviously isn't meant to be. He doesn't care what anyone else thinks (family, friends etc) he is happy with our life a baby would have been a bonus but now it's time to stop and for us to all try and move on.

Quite a speech from him really - so I cried some more and said well if that's how you feel you best make an appointment (I haven't told him it takes weeks to get one)

So I am hoping in the meantime our miracle happens - but with my cycles getting longer and my AF getting shorter/lighter I don't think it will happen

Last ditch attempt this month Im buying a saliva test kit - I seem to have exhausted every other gadget going

Wish me luck time is running out



X

 

[josie1234]

Thanks ladies, yes it is getting me down. Never thought I would wish AF here. I know, I don't think I ov on CD 41.

Fiona - sorry that you are upset hun, hope you are ok, big hugs xxx I do hope that you get your sticky bean before then. Shame you can't get away for a few days to relax. FX for you and sending PMA your way. xxxx

 

[Creative]

Josie - Grrrrr I hate it when it does that - hope you get some answers soon.

AFM - I had a little cry this morning (just as hubby was going out to work) he came and cuddled me - he said he thinks we are getting to old to have another baby and my eldest will be 13 next year. He wishes it could have been different but it obviously isn't meant to be. He doesn't care what anyone else thinks (family, friends etc) he is happy with our life a baby would have been a bonus but now it's time to stop and for us to all try and move on.

Quite a speech from him really - so I cried some more and said well if that's how you feel you best make an appointment (I haven't told him it takes weeks to get one)

So I am hoping in the meantime our miracle happens - but with my cycles getting longer and my AF getting shorter/lighter I don't think it will happen

Last ditch attempt this month Im buying a saliva test kit - I seem to have exhausted every other gadget going

Wish me luck time is running out



X

Tell him my oldest is 22! My youngest is 14!

 

[dancareoi]

Jo, so fustrating for you.

Fiona. Big hugs, it's a difficult decision. My DH will now be having snip but I don't want him to.

He saw doc 24th sept and had clinic appointment a couple of weeks ago and has his snip booked in for 20th nov!

My oldest will be 12 in 2 weeks.

 

[Oasis717]

Fi I'm sorry you are so upset I really hope a miracle happens for you before then xxxxx
I had my last mw home visit this morning which has left me happy and sad, Brooklyn is doing fabulous, he's put on weight in just these few days and us now 9lb from 8 12. She was v pleased with his belly button and said its healing v well so antibiotics have done their job. She said he's pink, happy, alert and doing v well. But unfortunately we had to take the decision for me to stop trying to bf. the trauma to my nipples is v bad and even the breast pump was far too painful. In light of how much pain I'm in and how much bleeding there is every time I try she advises I stop. She tried to tell me I've done everything I could and gave him two whole days of colostrum etc but inside I'm really devastated. I know I should just accept it and move forward as she said but it's so hard. It's failed for the 3rd time and I can't help feeling it's my fault. I loved the closeness of bf and knowing I was doing everything I could to give him the best. Maybe it's my hormones but I just feel so v sad about it xxxxx

 

[dancareoi]

Fi I'm sorry you are so upset I really hope a miracle happens for you before then xxxxx
I had my last mw home visit this morning which has left me happy and sad, Brooklyn is doing fabulous, he's put on weight in just these few days and us now 9lb from 8 12. She was v pleased with his belly button and said its healing v well so antibiotics have done their job. She said he's pink, happy, alert and doing v well. But unfortunately we had to take the decision for me to stop trying to bf. the trauma to my nipples is v bad and even the breast pump was far too painful. In light of how much pain I'm in and how much bleeding there is every time I try she advises I stop. She tried to tell me I've done everything I could and gave him two whole days of colostrum etc but inside I'm really devastated. I know I should just accept it and move forward as she said but it's so hard. It's failed for the 3rd time and I can't help feeling it's my fault. I loved the closeness of bf and knowing I was doing everything I could to give him the best. Maybe it's my hormones but I just feel so v sad about it xxxxx

I can understand why you feel like you do and at the moment your hormones are making everything seem that much worse

You have done your best with the bf but its no good for you or Brooklyn if its causing you so much pain. You can still have nice cuddles with him and now he is being bottle fed Adam gets to be more involved too.

Afm had GTT test at hosp this morning for diabetes. Will get results on 4th November.

Caitlin slept from 11pm last night until 6.00am this morning! She is still very snuffly.

 

[Creative]

but inside I'm really devastated. I know I should just accept it and move forward as she said but it's so hard. It's failed for the 3rd time and I can't help feeling it's my fault. I loved the closeness of bf and knowing I was doing everything I could to give him the best. Maybe it's my hormones but I just feel so v sad about it xxxxx

i understand that, but there comes a time when you need to make hard decisions to be a better mum. Being in pain was not going to help you bond. Hope they heal quickly and that you start to feel peace about your choice! 2 days is better than none and it was a sacrifice you made.

 

[Oasis717]

God the hormones def are bad I cried my eyes out at those replies, thank you, don't know what I'd do without you ladies, no matter what you always make me feel better xxxx

 

[crysshae]

I'm so sorry, Becks. I wonder what causes that to happen. You have done everything you can do. I hope you don't beat yourself up too much over it.

Fiona - I hope you get your miracle soon!

As for ages, our oldest child I gave birth to is 21. Youngest is 4. My husband's oldest is 32.

Lisa - It's wonderful she's sleeping so well. I hope she gets over her cold soon.

 

[josie1234]

You have done so well Becks, try not to beat yourself up, you have given him a good start hun and the most important thing is yours and his health. He has a mum who loves him so much and that's what counts. Hope the hormones settle soon xx

Lisa - that's great, she is a little star. Hope her snuffles go soon xx

Creative - you are so right x

Still no news

 

[garfie]

Josie - Just a thought are you still doing lots of classes and exercising or have you cut that back - sometimes that can interfere with our monthlies - hope you get an answer soon or better still a BFP



X

 

[Left wonderin]

Awh Becks that sounds so hard I'm sure its a mixture of hormones and the fact that you wanted to BF . Brooklyn is such a dote and I loveeee his hat ! Can I ask where you got it from ?

 

[Left wonderin]

Garfie hugs for you too . Is OH really determind about stopping ? Does he really have his mind made up,or is he just upset seeng you trying ? Maybe he is trying to save you what he sees as pain ? Make sure your 100% with the decision too after all your one half of the relationship xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
In the mean time I'm keeping absolutly everything crossed for you for this cycle .

Jo I'm baffled !! Can only imagine how frustrated you are ? Did the doctor say anything but wait 2 weeks ?? I'm hoping you hav e answers soon Hun xxxxxxxx

 

[josie1234]

Fiona - this is probably the least classes I have done. I took loads over August due to people going on holiday so I covered a lot then but they have gone back down now. I have also done less because I have had things on at weekends, so I haven't done my classes on a weekend for about 3 weeks so I can't see how it is that. Also with being on holiday I've missed a few too. I just don't know. I didn't actually speak to the doctor, it was the receptionist. Hopefully I will have an answer soon.

 

[Oasis717]

Thanks ladies, feeling a little better tonight, really trying not to dwell and concentrate on how happy he is, he's trying to smile we've had a few half ones he's literally slept almost round the clock last two days I've had to wait for feeds for cuddles! He wouldn't go in his basket at all but does all the time now. His hat is cute dh bought from Ebay as you can personalise them xxxxx