TTC after loss - over 40 - any takers? Our lucky thread - 9 rainbows and 1 BFP

[Soanxious]

Odd thing.. just went for a wee.... not had over the top CM not BD for 6 days but just wiped and got a blob of clear/white jelly as in a blob of bouncy jelly any CM analysers out there?

 

[tillyttc]

I refuse to test today iam 6dpo and need to get a grip lol gonna throw myself into housework I have no symptoms apart from abit crampy and feel uncomfortable down there like af so gonna count myself out so I dont drive myslf any crazier than I already have done ! Af due in 8 days and cant carry on torturing myself so will test in 9 days if she doesn't show her pathetic ugly head lol. Xx

 

[Oasis717]

I wish I hadn't wasted that test yest! As last month 10 dpo and a dip to 97.6. Af in a couple of days I think xx

 

[tillyttc]

Its pants !

 

[Oasis717]

I know! Proper fed up you've got every chance though Tilly don't give up yet, at least with two proper cycles charted I now have something to compare with as last year I got pregnant the first month I charted. In 2012 I got pregnant the second month ttc, lost my lo at 12 weeks, a month later fell again after a month ttc and lost at 11 weeks. Then fell with Brooklyn 2013 the second month ttc. That was the second month ttc so as I envisaged with being another year older now it's not going to be that first or second month and it's going to take a lot longer I think. I have to say I was lucky when younger to fall with the kids very quickly. Now I think it may take sometime but as disappointing as it is at least Brooklyn is getting older all the time making it easier. Trying to stay positive that it will happen just not yet xxxx

 

[tillyttc]

My first took 2 year hes now 18 and going off to uni boohoo! Was worried it would take as long for the 2nd so started trying when eldest one was 10 months caught the first month we tried lol typical hes now 16 and my third a little girl is 8 took about 9 months lost one in 2007 soul destroying and totally gave up then decided to try again in 2010 and sod all got to the point where I thought it wasn't ment to be and forgot all about babies then fell pregnant in jan and its made me adamant that I want another now feel like god is testing me lol I bit cruel me thinks but there are reasons for every thing so I believe. Xx

 

[tillyttc]

Feel bloated and achy today sure af is coming early and have got spots breaking out all in my hairline odd ! But spots all the same . Xx

 

[Oasis717]

I know it's truly heartbreaking suffering a loss/losses it changes how you look at everything! I've got a couple of spots and I only ever get spots before af. God knows why I've been cramping since 7dpo though. Strange. Keeping my fingers crossed for you xxxxx

 

[Soanxious]

Morning everyone... still early days in ourTWW.. I tested and got I have no symptoms so I would honestly say im out ... so just concentrating on eating better.. plus im going to have a nice glass or 2 of merlot at the weekend with a nice spag bol.. Mmmmm

Becks I was the same...when I was pregnant I only had to look at them and I fell pregnant.. and now im struggling.. I so wish I had met my OH many years before I did, maddening thing is.. we both lived a mile from each other and were both single over 7 yrs too... now why couldn't I of met him that 7 yrs previously

Tilly bloating is a good sign? well for me it is I NTNP in our 1st year and nothing and then the 2nd year I was shocked as I felt ill so done a hpt and I had a BFP.. we were shocked but we were soooo excited... as I had never had a mc before it never even entered my head.. we had been talking baby names etc and were so excited.. and woosh... out of nowhere I got terrible pains and it was happening.. my 1st mc.. after that I just really wanted one.. and following another 2 here we still are trying.. it's hard for all of us isn't it so glad for places like this though as you don't feel so alone..and only so much my OH can take of me talking babies non stop.

 

[tillyttc]

Hubs and I talked yesterday about when he should come home to try again ! Thats all iam talking to him about lol except him started going on about if your pregbant I would like to be home for the scan I had to stop him and tell him we cant think that far ahead and lets jyst concentrate on the baby making side of things ! Iam better off preparing myself for a fall than planning for happiness ! Need to protect myself ti many disappointments . Xx

 

[Soanxious]

I know how you feel tilly, when I got my BFP Jan and Feb I didn't want to think past the next day.

 

[tillyttc]

Omg if its not tied down feel the need to pee on it cat and dog gone into hiding lol . Xx

 

[Soanxious]

??????

 

[crysshae]

Tilly - Lol - I hope you're actually only talking about HPTs.

Becks - Sorry about the temp drop.

Tanya - Stinking BFNs!

I know what y'all mean. I could fall pregnant if DH just looked at me sideways back when. Well, for that matter apparently I still can. They just aren't sticking. I never had a problem before, even at 35. Now 4 and 5 years later - Ugh!

 

[tillyttc]

Lmao yes dont worry the pets are safe lol. Xx

 

[Oasis717]

Tanya I wish id met dh before I did too but then again he would of been too young lol. But such is life. Being adopted and not having any blood links to anyone he's always wanted a large family. With the childhood I had I feel the same and always dreamed of a large, happy family of my own. I wish I wasn't the age I was just because of ttc not for any other reason, I almost feel like I'm letting him down in that sense, particularly as we lost two lo's. Of course that's just my own feelings and not dh in anyway but for that reason alone I just wish I had more time. Spotted after bd today do af def on her way xxxx

 

[garfie]

Aw ladies BIG sounds like all your cycles have syncronised - sorry for the BFNs (still time so don't give up)

Regina - How cute did Sean look in his little outfit - wow he is growing so fast

Tilly - Leave the animals alone go and attack the dandelions instead

Becks - Don't we all wish things could have been different - I love my boys to pieces but being able to give hubby one of his own - well I'm sure I don't need to explain how many have you got with DH - just Brooklyn?

Josie - How are you feeling today hun - I am so pleased the Dr is re doing your bloods - lets hope for some lower numbers this time

AFM - I had another acu session last night and she seemed quite surprised with my temps (as so am I ) she said I may have already Od or alternatively my yin is trying to peak and has false heat around it (hence the temperatures) her cure? shove more needles in me OUCHIE! - well this morning my temp is still up - so now I have no clue once again

to the other ladies



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[Soanxious]

Crystal..Yeah well I got pregnant Oct jan and feb.. my body must of needed a break this time.. wish mine would stick too

I know what you mean Becks about the large family due to our own upbringing, I always wanted to be like Ma boswell and have all my kids around the table when they were grown etc... I would of had more but my marriage ended 14 yrs ago and I was single until I met my OH and my OH was single 7 years before I met him.. but it just wasn't meant to be for us to meet back then Ohhhhhh now Im really concentrating on your DH age... lol I knew he was younger but only just realised when I counted... and there was me thinking I had a toyboy.. haha!! I once had a b/f that was 11 yrs younger than me, he was very immature so it never lasted long, and I find older men are just "too old" for me... as I still feel 18 inside. I told my OH that 1 more would be amazing... but honestly??? if I could have 2 more I would be soooooo happy... have two similar ages as my son is 15 october and it would be a big age gap.

What have people read about pineapple when ttc? I am thinking of buying LOTS of the stuff at weekend shop. and I am going to eat it daily... I have appt with my consultant on 10th april.. she scares me... she is not very nice and I have a feeling she will just grunt and tell me I am too old and shouldn't be thinking about more children... my OH is taking time off work to come with me but im not sure if he is needed for the 1st appt.

 

[Soanxious]

Becks you sure its not implantation? I normally have that, in fact I would say that was one of my symptoms every pregnancy.. but I have not this time...

Fi I giggled when you said.. her cure? shove more needles in me OUCHIE! sounds like your a voodoo doll...but for all the Good reasons

 

[crysshae]

Yuck Becks. On to the next cycle and 4 times a day!

Tanya - I guess that's where I'm lucky. My DH is older, but he's still 18 at heart. Good luck with your consultant. Can you not switch to another one if you don't like this one?

Fi - I hope she helps you get it all worked out and that your chart becomes more apparent soon.