TTC after loss - over 40 - any takers? Our lucky thread - 9 rainbows and 1 BFP

[Left wonderin]

How adorable oh must be over the moon xxx

 

[Serenjay]

Lol he is not normally the thoughtful kind.. lol.. well not that thoughtful so I was well shocked..

 

[Oasis717]

Hi ladies, just wanted to come back and say hi, I know you know I got a bfp, it was at 10dpo, on a 25miu test, my tests showed good progression over a week, I'm still reserved and not getting ahead of myself just yet, I know that until I have a scan I really won't know despite the tests so I'm just waiting really, am 5 weeks tomorrow. This time was totally different, I had o bleeding and implantation bleeding which is a first for me. The last loss hit me really hard so I hope you understand I needed to go. But I have missed you all. Crystal I wanted to congratulate you on your lo, so gorgeous, you must be over the moon! Xxxxxxx
In case anyone wanted to see my tests this is my thread.
https://babyandbump.momtastic.com/t...ve-test-11dpo-but-no-symptoms-worried-19.html

 

[Serenjay]

I am ever so happy for you Becks and you are right..these tests are nothing like the last few you have had... this is why I stopped testing with this one.. it was so strong I had not had that on my other losses.. somehow I just knew this one was strong... yes you will still dread going for that wee... but you will also know that every pregnancy is different and this one is so much stronger than the last.. I caught for this one straight after my last loss in December.. so like you its a shock its so strong..

I have an excellent feeling about this pregnancy for you Becks.. xxx

 

[Oasis717]

Thank you, the test I did today makes me think its maybe time I stopped testing too, its only a cheap Asda 25miu (they'd run out of the strips I've been using) I still have no idea if all is OK but only time will tell. I can't get excited or attached, I've had it taken away too many times! I didn't feel Ill til 6 weeks with Brooklyn and then it was more food aversions than sickness. I've stopped thinking I'll see blood every trip to the loo now but I'm not sure if the pregnancy is OK or not, but I can't help but hope. Xxxxx

 

[Serenjay]

Becks your not going to beat that test!!!!!

That is PERFECT!!!! thats exactly how a strong pregnancy test looks :woohoo: !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thats better than my strong test that I stopped on..

I too had VERY painful boobs on this one.. and aversions didnt start till around 6 weeks then vomiting then the HG around week 8 and im vomiting non stop...last thursday I didnt feel as ill and I panicked.. insane or what..so we had a scan..all was well and I got home and vomitied!!!! and its not stopped again.. and I still worry... so that wont go away for us... Im so so so so happy.. what will be your due date? xx

 

[Oasis717]

Thank you, I'm sorry you've been so ill I haven't read much of the thread as it was a bit too painful but I know you've been v ill, its hard isn't it cause you'd take anything to have a healthy pregnancy but being so ill isn't nice of course. I think I will stop testing, last time the test wasn't that strong at nearly 6 weeks and they took days to progress, I know it doesn't mean all is OK, i'm still prepared for the worst but a little, tiny hope is creeping in. I'm so pleased your scan was so good, I'm pretty scared to have one, I'll ring epu next Tues at 6 weeks to ask for one, hope they give me one, due date ATM is 16th Nov but that could change as I had no AF after the last loss before the bfp, I lost a decidual cast with the last loss and I'm wondering if that helped clear everything, I've never passed anything like that had to ring epu about it. Xxxxx

 

[Serenjay]

Yes very poorly.. my wages go down to half price this week and no more job after may. so this illness has cost me my job too.. I have not been able to enjoy my pregnancy not only worrying but feeling so ill. Im not at all ungrateful but would of just preferred normal morning sickness and a day or 2 off work.. I loved working through pregnancy as it goes faster, less time to stress and more money to spend.. but this is the way this pregnancy is going so I just have to go along for the ride. Just wish sickness would stop soon lol. It just comes from nowhere!

When I went for my 1st scan I was shaking, vomiting, and felt like my guts were going to fall out.. then they said there's the HB.. I was in shock.. I didnt want to get attached. then the other scans got better and better and I have still taken a step back, so much so OH said.. you ok? do you want this baby? I said of course I do why? he said because you just seem to of taken a step back. I said I had to for my sanity.. then when I saw baby dancing about I burst into tears.. and vomited in scan room.. I was sobbing for a full 15 mins.. the woman had to sit me down.. it was a massive shock. Think thats when it hit me. Then im thinking has it really hit me.. but I have my next scan on 26th I will be 12+6 and I am so scared!! I think I will be ok once that one is done.

They should give you a scan..gives you peace of mind, if they don't is there someone near you private? I got a place near me called peekaboobaby penarth and they do early scans for £40 we had 2.. first was £40 2nd was £33 with photos. We had the first one done as I was so paranoid and I wanted a photo in case that is all I ever had of this one.. as my EPAU dont do photos. It is so worth it for peace of mind.

I found those sports bra's good for major sore boobies.. xx

 

[Left wonderin]

Welcome back home Becks we missed you xxx
And just look what you brought back with you A BFP !! Yipeeeeeeeeeeeee so happy for you . And for me as you all give me so much hope

T I was the same with my 8 week scan . Sobbed so much so they had to ask me to stop so they could do it !!!

 

[Serenjay]

Blubbering wrecks arnt we

Yes it gives so much hope to everyone..when I would see pregnant women after losses I would hope I got there 1 day. x

 

[Serenjay]

Girls.. I done a bad thing and bought a doppler.. well anyways for 2 days I tried.. heard nothing, I was about to give up when I found it 2 inches above pubic bone to the left.. 157 bpm and it was so lovely.. took a video and sent it to my girls saying.. here is your little brother or sisters HB so cute!

 

[Oasis717]

Aw thanks Regina its nice to be back xxxx congrats on hearing the HB T xx

 

[Serenjay]

my hair is a mess.. roots so bad...ends so split.. not had it done in months will try and pop to hairdresser later see if they can rescue me. Having our hair done helps us also doesn't it. I will just need to be near the toilet though lol.

 

[Oasis717]

I had mine done just before I found out! Only reason I tested again this month was 10dpo and no spotting for the second cycle. Was standing in the bathroom squinting at the test not believing I could see a line although that worries me cause no symptoms at all before finding out, sigh, that's only happened with my losses. But..... Got to try and be positive at least until I know different as the I bleeding and implantation bleeding was new this time so I guess anything is possible. Seems like so far away and I need to know so bad. Hate this wait xx

 

[Serenjay]

I never had implantation bleeding.. and worse symptom I had was sore breasts... sickness came around 6 weeks. Dont worry this is a strong one xx

Have you rang EPAU?

 

[Oasis717]

Gunna ring nx Tues at 6 weeks. Swear my boobs aren't so sore today. Arrgghh this is a nightmare xx

 

[Serenjay]

Aww.. I was the same.. constantly worrying.. just try to block out negative and focus on positive.. its a stronger test. I had to focus on positivity as the negativity was driving me insane.. I was also in work constantly touching my boobs. Are bodies get used to hormones then we get another rush... hence symptoms come and go xx

No appts today so im at salon at 9.30am. I rang work and said as long as I can stop vomiting in day time if I have slim fast and toast I should be back in work Thursday.. hope so I need the money.

 

[Oasis717]

Yeah its a nightmare that's for sure and nothing to do except wait xx

 

[dancareoi]

Welcome back Becks - big hugs xx

 

[Oasis717]

Thanks Lisa, have missed you all xxx took my last test today, I don't know why I needed to see it darker than the control, prob cause at 5 weeks with Brooklyn it was so that's it now, no more tests! Gunna miss them lol xxx