TTC after Methotrexate shot

[Hpyns4life]

Happigail it took me awhile to get out of the dumps Take things slowly and remember that feeling poopy is all part of the grieving process. You're feelings are legitimate and it takes some time to process them before coming out on the other side. I can guarantee that you will feel better though You'll find peace and happiness soon, hun.

 

[runningmom]

hpyns- I wish the best for you this month and all the baby dust I can toss. I understand you wanting to go as natural as possible. It will be best for you and baby in the long run. Keep your positive thoughts and it will happen.

Jparr- I know your anxiety, but your time is coming. I'm praying much peace and relaxation your way.

I am so glad I'm not the only one still struggling to get out of the dumps. I know I need to just relax and nuture my body, but feel a lot of pressure to move on. Does anyone else hate having to put on a smile and keep going around others but wanting to cry indside? Tomorrow will be 3 weeks for me Happigail and I know exactly how you feel.

Hugs to all!

 

[Renzalxx]

Aw HappiGail, know exactly how pooey you feel. Its been 9 days since my last mtx shot and I have a new side effect everyday... finally feel like things are moving on and it makes me sad but you just need to keep on keeping on knowing there is a bunch of people out there thinking of you xx Sending you big cuddle on the breeze from the land of OZ x

 

[Michelle78]

It took me about 2 months before I really started to feel like myself again. Physically, I never really had much difficulty, but mentally it took a while to feel good again. It was important for me to realize that it was OK to be upset and let it out when it got to be too much. I'm one of those people that keeps my emotions to myself, so that was a big step for me. It does get better though, I promise. Once I started to feel better, I looked at some of my posts from shortly after the m/c, and I was able to see how far I had come. There will be a time when you will look back and realize how far you have come too.

 

[happigail]

Thank you everyone so much for the endless support, I don't actually know where I'd be without you guys.

I hope more than anything to reach the point where I look back and realise I feel better.

The worst part right now is anxiety attacks

 

[Renzalxx]

HappiGail you poor luv, I have suffered from terrible panic attacks since I was a teenager although I refused to go on medication for it as wanted to do things natuarally. Since my late 20s they have mellowed out alot which is great although I still get them from time to time when I am run down or really stressed out. If I start to feel weird I will sip on a really strong Peppermint Tea which is a calmative and it always helps me to chill out. Hopefully might work for you too? Let me know how you go xxxx A nice drop of red wine doesnt hurt either heh heh

 

[JPARR01]

Thinking of ya happi!

 

[Hpyns4life]

Happigail hun. It took me 6 months to get over the loss of my tube. I could talk about it in public about 2 months after and pretended that I was okay, but it really wasn't until I started ttc again that I felt the heavy veil come off. Everyone takes it at their own pace and I hope things go better for you than they did for me since you're ectopic was mostly likely a stand alone issue and you'll be fine ttc again. Grieve in your own way hun

 

[epump]

happigail, hang in there. It really does take some time. I was pretty down for awhile after my ectopic. I started seeing a psychologist that specializes in women's health/pregnancy-related issues which has really helped a lot. Be kind to yourself; it will take time.

hypns, I have my fingers crossed for you this cycle!

Michelle, how are you doing? Are you symptom-spotting yet? I'm trying to avoid it but it's so hard! I'm 4dpo today, temp is up high, and my boobs (well, really my nipples) are sore. I'm trying not to compare anything to my previous pregnancies, because, well, those didn't work out so well. Tomorrow night (5dpo) I start the progesterone suppositories.

 

[Michelle78]

epump, I am 6 dpiui, amd I have a whole lot of nothing going on! With my pregnancy in February, I did not start to notice anything until about 10 dpiui, so I am trying not to read too much into every little ache and pain I might have. My only real symptoms last time were sore boobs, which were really noticeable to me because I have never experienced them before, and random shooting pains in my lower abdomen that would come and go with no rhyme or reason. I started my progesterone suppositories the day after the IUI, and I hate them!! They don't cause any discomfort or side effects, I just hate having to wear a pantyliner because of the discharge (I know TMI!). I am going to test next Friday, and I know this week is just going to drag! I know what you mean about not comparing symptoms to my earlier pregnancy. The sore boobs won't freak me out since I know that's completely normal, but the shooting pains will if I get them again because I will probably be afraid that it is a sign of a not healthy pregnancy. I wish that we could get the innocence of pregnancy back!

Hpyns, where are you at with this cycle?

 

[Hpyns4life]

I'm 11dpo and AF normally arrives 13dpo. I haven't gone this bonkers in the tww for over a year! I also compare symptoms to my ectopic, no IB this time (last time it didn't happen till 11dpo though), and I didn't have any symptoms except hunger till I was 5 weeks last time. I have a few symptoms both ways and I am trying my hardest to put it out of my mind. I keep obsessively checking for brown cm (sign of impending AF) and over analyzing my cravings for food and nausea in the morning I almost started crying because DH put my "dry clean only" pants through the wash. I think I'll cave in and test tomorrow just so I don't go absolutely crazy. FX'd for you Michelle!!! And you too epump!!!

 

[Renzalxx]

Hi Ladies
Well I just experienced the worst weekend ever. The bleeding and cramps were what I can only describe as a mini labour. So very painful and nasty....Thank goodness I have a wonderful husband who looked after me and calmed me down. Although he wanted to rush me to the ER I am glad we stuck it out. Had my HCG tested this morning and it has gone down from 4600 to 243 !!!OH HAPPY DAYS!!! So glad there was a happy ending to it all. Hope things are all looking great in your areas too and your hearts are warm and smiles are bright xxx

I have all my fingers and toes crossed for you too Michelle78 xxxxxx

 

[sarbear4266]

I was given MTX shot in February and then had an HSG procedure done in April. He said my right tube (left one gone from ectopic) was fine and he said in May we can start again. Still trying Body just might have to get back to normal.

 

[epump]

Hi Ladies
Well I just experienced the worst weekend ever. The bleeding and cramps were what I can only describe as a mini labour. So very painful and nasty....Thank goodness I have a wonderful husband who looked after me and calmed me down. Although he wanted to rush me to the ER I am glad we stuck it out. Had my HCG tested this morning and it has gone down from 4600 to 243 !!!OH HAPPY DAYS!!! So glad there was a happy ending to it all. Hope things are all looking great in your areas too and your hearts are warm and smiles are bright xxx

I have all my fingers and toes crossed for you too Michelle78 xxxxxx

I'm so sorry Renzalxx. That sounds exactly like my experience. I've never been in actual labor before but my cramps/contractions felt what I imagine labor to feel like - strong cramps coming every 2-3 minutes in waves. I even remember dozing in between the contractions. Ugh, so painful. BUT, so glad your HcG came down! At least all that bleeding/cramping was just things moving in the right direction! Happy thoughts to you.

Michelle, I am 7dpo and planning on testing on Saturday which will be 12dpo (if I don't cave sooner). I'm really really trying to ignore symptoms (b/c I'm feeling stuff in both directions: pregnant and not pregnant). It's maddening!

Hypno, let us know how testing went!

Sara, sorry you are joining our thread as well! Fingers crossed for you!
xoxo

 

[LittleBird]

Ooh, good luck, epump! I really hope that it happens for you this cycle!

 

[epump]

Thanks, LittleBird! How are you doing? I see you are 3dpo today - fingers crossed for you as well!! Was this another Clomid/IUI cycle for you?? xxoo

 

[LittleBird]

No, I was traveling so we did unmedicated -- but I tried Soy Iso this cycle for the first time. Clomid gave me hostile CM so I'm hoping that Soy does better for me.

 

[Hpyns4life]

Hey ladies, hope all is going well for you. I'm hearing some great things: temps down, eagerly waiting for testing, positive attitudes

I tested on 12dpo and started AF on 13dpo. I'm out this cycle But DH and are going to start calling fert clinics to see who does mini IVF and how soon we can get in.

 

[epump]

Oh yuck, Hypns. Sorry you are out this cycle. I hope you and DH get hooked up with a great clinic and get what you are looking for. I'm sure you will be back in the game soon!

 

[JPARR01]

Oh that stinks Hpyn. I hope that you and dh find a great clinic!

Fingers crossed for you epump and little!!!!!! Let's get those BFP's!!!!

I am currently on CD10!