TTC after Methotrexate shot

[Nlinn99]

Just wondering if I can join you ladies? My story is so similar my husband and I are living in a village in Alaska (for jobs) and had a m/c in early sept with a d&c. We then jumped on the ttc wagon and got a bfp on valentines day. I told mysel not to get excited and started spotting that weekend.luckily we had flown to anchorage and had access to medical care bc they told me it was suspected ectopic. I received my sophist on 2/20 and am only down to ~300 it's so hard bc where I live folks get pregnant just looking at each other.....feeling isolated and alone this forum really helps.... Tanks for all the great success stories Natasha

Sorry to hear about your MC and ectopic What were your HCG levels at when you got your shot?

My first HCG was 462 on 2/18, then went up to 630 2 days later on 2/20 (MTX shot) day 4 up to 956. I had to get my 7 day draw at the Native Hospital where I work. It was 392. I was very happy, then back to
Anchorage for a F/U ultrasound and HCG. My numbers at that lab was 850...(Super freak out) then my FS from Anchorage had me get them drawn at the Native Hospital again and they were 302. I guess they can vary from lab to lab? He said since there was a 20% drop from the same lab I will not need another shot at this time....I feel like a ticking time bomb It's so weird because my follow up u/s was clear they could no longer see the "Mass" but I have been bleeding for 16 days (sorry TMI) anyone else with this? Thanks for the reply I am anxious to have some support Labs again on Tuesday.....

 

[allforthegirl]

I bleed for 9 days. What you are feeling is normal. I felt like a train wreck. Didn't know who I was really. Like I was living in someone elses body for awhile. My first AF came tonight, so only two more to go!!

 

[Rachel613]

Nlinn99 - I bled for a month! Got my BFP and started spotting on 2/7. I didn't get my mtx shot until 2/25 and was bleeding SO much then, my numbers still weren't going down so they gave me another shot on 3/4, again SO much bleeding! I just stopped bleeding two days ago and my cramping has also finally stopped. It's a very long drawn out process, but it sounds like you caught it very early so I'm sure everything will be fine in the end!!!! This waiting is the hardest part!!!

 

[allforthegirl]

It is CD2 now for me. I am surprised I am not bleeding more heavily. Also the cramps are nothing. I have had months on a normal cycle that were worse than this. I am glad though. It has even lighten up a bit. I normally only bleed for 5 days spot for two. This cycle I am going to start using opk maybe around day8 or 9 cause sometimes I O around CD10. Anyone know if I am supposed to do those with FMU? Or does it matter?

 

[karebear76]

I had 3-4 weeks of bleeding/spotting.. In a few days am expecting my 2nd AF after the shot.

It's been 5 weeks since my 2nd methotrexate shot and I feel like my hormones are still settling... I had a major skin breakout which was not fun. It's starting to get somewhat better now at least... It's crazy what messed up hormones/harsh drugs can do to your system!


allforthegirl- what's FMU?

 

[allforthegirl]

FMU is first morning urination. It is a term used lots over in the TWW threads.

 

[karebear76]

FMU is first morning urination. It is a term used lots over in the TWW threads.

Oh okay, gotchya! I'm not sure about that that- I guess it would probably be more accurate, like it is with pregnancy tests. I am going to start using OPK's this next cycle too.

Are you still feeling any soreness/aching on your ectopic side?

 

[pdxmom]

It is CD2 now for me. I am surprised I am not bleeding more heavily. Also the cramps are nothing. I have had months on a normal cycle that were worse than this. I am glad though. It has even lighten up a bit. I normally only bleed for 5 days spot for two. This cycle I am going to start using opk maybe around day8 or 9 cause sometimes I O around CD10. Anyone know if I am supposed to do those with FMU? Or does it matter?

Hi,the are some tests tht require u to test with fmu like the cler blue digital tests with the smileys but the cheaper ones like the ic's don't work best with fmu...girls will most test with 10am,6pm or 10pm urine..bcos they r cheaper strips u won't really mind testing so many times a day...

 

[allforthegirl]

FMU is first morning urination. It is a term used lots over in the TWW threads.

Oh okay, gotchya! I'm not sure about that that- I guess it would probably be more accurate, like it is with pregnancy tests. I am going to start using OPK's this next cycle too.

Are you still feeling any soreness/aching on your ectopic side?

No I am not. Just having mild AF cramps. Very weird for me.

It is CD2 now for me. I am surprised I am not bleeding more heavily. Also the cramps are nothing. I have had months on a normal cycle that were worse than this. I am glad though. It has even lighten up a bit. I normally only bleed for 5 days spot for two. This cycle I am going to start using opk maybe around day8 or 9 cause sometimes I O around CD10. Anyone know if I am supposed to do those with FMU? Or does it matter?

Hi,the are some tests tht require u to test with fmu like the cler blue digital tests with the smileys but the cheaper ones like the ic's don't work best with fmu...girls will most test with 10am,6pm or 10pm urine..bcos they r cheaper strips u won't really mind testing so many times a day...

I bought the ic's. I was think I should test twice a day just to be more accurate and I can with so many lol. Thanks for the info.

 

[Nlinn99]

Hi Girls! Thanks for all the great replies...I thought the bleeding was tapering off yesterday, however this morning it seemed to have picked back up. I am getting my HCG tomorrow and hoping for some good numbers. I really do not want another MTX shot. I agree with all of you that this seems to drag on...I was thinking about it this weekend and I too agree that I feel like I am not in my own body. The in-laws are flying in on Wednesday and that will be nice, but I am not sure I am ready to face the family yet....

About the OPK's I found a great website called peeonastick.com and it was super helpful for me. I tried the Clear Blue Fertility monitor the same month that I had this ectopic and I never did peak only had "high" days, but from my research this is common. Thanks again for all the great messages and I will update tomorrow, hopefully with good news

 

[allforthegirl]

Hi Girls! Thanks for all the great replies...I thought the bleeding was tapering off yesterday, however this morning it seemed to have picked back up. I am getting my HCG tomorrow and hoping for some good numbers. I really do not want another MTX shot. I agree with all of you that this seems to drag on...I was thinking about it this weekend and I too agree that I feel like I am not in my own body. The in-laws are flying in on Wednesday and that will be nice, but I am not sure I am ready to face the family yet....

About the OPK's I found a great website called peeonastick.com and it was super helpful for me. I tried the Clear Blue Fertility monitor the same month that I had this ectopic and I never did peak only had "high" days, but from my research this is common. Thanks again for all the great messages and I will update tomorrow, hopefully with good news

Thanks I will check that site out. I am keeping my FX for you on your levels. But I can understand not being able to face anyone yet. Just take it a day at a time. Before you know it it will be gone and so will be the bubble.

 

[pdxmom]

hey girls i know ive been mia for a while..but was just busy with everyday stuff...and im glad i was as i didnt get much time to think of the bad things happenin in life
how have u girls been...caught up on some stuff u girls wrote and i c every1 is just playing the waiting game...aahhh well..gud things to look forward to girls...
AFM-went for a nice deep tissue massage today...feelsss soooo gud...wud defenitely recommend it to all the chicas...hoping tht the massage with help is gud cirulation and help flush out my system...i feel so weird tht all of u talk abt how many days u bled and here i am...my numbers almost at 0 and no sign of any bleeding...dono if i shud b worried or not

 

[allforthegirl]

hey girls i know ive been mia for a while..but was just busy with everyday stuff...and im glad i was as i didnt get much time to think of the bad things happenin in life
how have u girls been...caught up on some stuff u girls wrote and i c every1 is just playing the waiting game...aahhh well..gud things to look forward to girls...
AFM-went for a nice deep tissue massage today...feelsss soooo gud...wud defenitely recommend it to all the chicas...hoping tht the massage with help is gud cirulation and help flush out my system...i feel so weird tht all of u talk abt how many days u bled and here i am...my numbers almost at 0 and no sign of any bleeding...dono if i shud b worried or not

If your Dr isn't worried neither should you. I have too read that some just don't bleed. You may be one of those ladies that has a crazy heavy one at the end of your first cycle. Who knows. I am sure everything is fine though.

 

[Rachel613]

Hey Ladies! Hope you guys are having a good, or at least tolerable, week! PDX, so agree with you...I've been busy the past two days and it was great to not think about anything!

I do have to vent a little....I went to a wedding 3 days ago and had a full on melt down, had to leave. (At orthodox Jewish weddings men and women sit seperate) So I was sitting at the newly married/younger women table, and I'm not joking, EVERYONE either had a baby on their lap or was pregnant, meanwhile I am sitting their going through an ectopic pregnancy while they all talk about how amazing breast feeding is. It was horrible!!!! But I kept it together because most of them had been married for quite a bit longer than me, so I remained rational. THEN a girl I know, whose wedding I went to 6 MONTHS ago walks into the room and is hugely full on pregnant, probably 6 months pregnant. I felt like my husband and I were just at her wedding. I grabbed my husband before I started to cry and we left.....I felt bad being a little bit selfish leaving, but i had to get out of there!!! It just didn't feel fair!! I feel like I am the only person in my community/group of friends that is not getting pregnant right away. Everyone else gets freakin pregnant on their honeymoon for crying out loud! NO more weddings for me for a while!!!

On a positive note...I had another ultrasound/blood work this morning and my ultrasound showed that the ectopic is teeny tiny, barely able to see it in the ultrasound. And I am really optimistic that my blood work results this afternoon will be much lower!!

How is everyone else?

 

[allforthegirl]

Gosh Rachel I am sorry that you went through that. I can completely understand!!
I would have sat there and had a glass of wine then got sick all over the table because of the mtx. You made the right decision for you!!

Congrats though that the ectopic is fading away nicely!! Great news!!

I am suffering from a seized neck. I can hardly move it. Really sucks!! I had to drive my kids to school today and was having huge troubles shoulder checking. I would go to a massage therapist today, but my LO was is quite sick, so I won't be able to pass him off on Grandpa today. So I guess I will just get DH to try and work some of it out when he gets home.

Other than that I am doing well. I am starting to feel like things will work out. I finally feel that my DH is full in to TTC. I am looking for another job to help DH feel better about paying some more debt off before babe comes.

 

[pdxmom]

oh rachel...im sorry u had to go thro that hun...i totally understand u reacting the way u did..
allforthegirl...take care of your neck hun...i had a stiff neck last mth and it still hasnt gone away totally...although the massage yday really helped....
AFM-im such an idiot to have sat and seen a baby story on tv today...i like tht show alot but havent been watching for obvious reasons...and today while i watched i realised tht if i hadnt lost my first pregnancy last yr in july i would have been due this past weekend and wud have had my baby with me today but instead here i am 9 mths later with not only no baby but another lost pregnancy
feel like poop...

 

[Nlinn99]

Rachel, I am so sorry that you are going through this...I feel for all of us. I too had a m/c and then this. I'm sending you a big hug from Alaska and hope that we all find peace. I too have had those feelings since my first m/c in Sept. I feel like screaming sometimes. My good friend asked me to watch her son this weekend who is 1 and I am like okay (putting on a smile) but thinking does she not realize that this is still raw for me? I am focusing on things I can control (control freak is my middle name) like losing the 20lbs I put on in Pharmacy School and my DH and I seem closer than ever so that is good. I know it seems not likely now, but time will heal you and it will get easier. I am saying a prayer for ya!!!

AFM- I had my HCG today my friend works in OB so she stalked my chart and my number today was 83 so I am happy. I am still bleeding and I looked back on my fertility charting and it is my scheduled AF time (if I wasn't going through this) so not sure but the bleeding did pick back up. The nurse will call me and I am going to ask her about it. I too had a massage yesterday and the therapist did hot stones with castor oil around my abdomen. Was very soothing maybe will help?

I am sending all of you love and positive thoughts. Thanks again this group has helped me a ton!!! Natasha

 

[allforthegirl]

pdxmom, and Nlinn99, please don't stress too much about it, though I do understand. I just want you to know that just because the physical part may be gone your spirit baby is still there waiting to have a healthy PG to be born to you. Just know that maybe this spirit is meant to be a boy in this life time and it happened to that you had a female growing instead, that babe will say uhhuh no way! Or this spirit says no I am meant to be born healthy in this life time, it will make it so. We are all blessed with these beautiful little spirits because we are karmically connected to them in some way. Some come to us with knowing whether they will be a girl or boy, some just go with what comes up. Yet just because we lose our PG DOES NOT mean that they have left us. They are still with us, they are just waiting for the right moment, the right body, there could many universal reasons.

I has a strange thought before I knew for sure I had lost (I kinda new before that something wasn't right). When I started having this something isn't right feeling, "that it was a boy and it was supposed to be a girl" thought came to me. I was very confused by the thought at first. Wasn't sure where it came from, cause I was supposed to be PG. Then a week later I started to bleed. It wasn't until I read the spirit babies book that it then made sense. I had tons of people out of no where telling me I was having a girl or when you going to have your girl. Synchronistic is huge in the spiritual realm, means a divine message from above, means you either listen or use free will and walk away!! So if I was to have a girl and I got PG with a boy then would make sense to me why that weird thought came to me. It was her way (spirit baby) of letting me know what happened.

I hope you all can take comfort in my story, cause your spirit babies want you to know they are still there!!

 

[LeahMSta]

I love the community we have here. I don't often post but I always read the posts. I hate that your heart was hurt Rachel. I understand that hurt. My little sister, who is one of my favorite people on the planet, conceived the exact same day we did. We unfortunately know that for a fact because our insemination was on the same day as an anniversary with her husband. I struggle with our loss not allowing me to be close to her as result. I skyped with her and her husband at the gender ultrasound and promptly had a meltdown. I think that what allforthegirl said is beautiful and true. Thank you ladies for making me feel less alone and less selfish.

 

[chig]

Hi Gweny
All good here thanks for your message... three weeks to go!, been a long slog since 2010so very excited indeed.
Hoping your travelling well sweets - You certainly deserve your little forever bear too and looking forward to hearing your good news on here soon x

Hi Renzalxx!!! It has been so long since I have been on the message board. You are definitely getting close to the finish line now. Wishing you an easy delivery to a healthy baby! We have all been through so much together and sharing our stories and glad to know that there can be a happy ending!

Good luck to all the ladies that have had to go through an ectopic pregnancy recently. Just know that there is hope for all of us after MTX.