TTC after Methotrexate shot

[allforthegirl]

PDX I am so so so glad that you feel it worked for you!! If you are not going to start on here then you are more than welcome to follow mine. I feel we have come so far together, I would hate for it to stop here.

 

[saveme]

Hi ladies...its been a while since ive posted here...wanted to update u girls tht u got my bfp yday...althought i am extremely happy and grateful to c those lines but im sooo sooo nervous thinking of the past 2 ectopic experiences....u ladies have been such a support for me during my wait to try after the mtx shot...im keeping a positive mind thth this indeed is my forever baby...

Yayyy Congrats pdx!!! I hope all goes well...
I just had my 2nd ectopic so your giving me some hope

 

[mommy2K]

I am brand new to this thread and have been reading many pages of posts and for the first time in a long time I feel that I am not alone!! On August 30th I went in for an early ultrasound at 6w 6d after finding out that I was pregnant totally unexpectedly after going through IVF 7 years ago and ended up in my beautiful daughter being brought into this world. I could tell immediately that something was not right during the ultrasound as the US tech was not saying a word. A few minutes later my GP entered the room and informed us that our pregnancy was ectopic. I was devistated. How could I go from being so excited to so hurt with one sentence??? I ended up having 2 MTX shots a week apart and then last week being rushed by ambulance for emergency surgery to remove my right tube as the shots did not work for me.

I have not gotten any word as to when we can TTC again. I am assuming it is a 2 cycle wait?? I feel excited to try again and then in the next breath not sure I could handle another loss. How do you move past the fears and look toward the future? Sorry for the long post.

 

[jules79]

Hi mommy2k, sorry for your loss, its a terrible feeling not knowing the future. I'm still ttc after an ectopic last sept. I started ttc this jan after 3 cycles wanted time to heal etc. It seems that there have been some successes on this thread which gives hope.
It can feel quite lonely this journey but hopefully you can get some support on this thread. I hope you feel better soon.

 

[ladyluck8181]

Well ladies things aren't looking great, my levels went from 118 at 16dpo, to 188 at 17dpo. It's only a 60% rise bang on my tests were exactly 48 hours apart to the minute.

The midwife was trying to be all positive but honestly in my heart I know It's just not going to be ( I've got to go into EPAU on Friday for a scan to check for free fluid and another beta doing so now it's just wait and see.

Absolutely devastated doesn't even cut it, I can't even begin to fathom how to handle going through all this again.

 

[allforthegirl]

Gosh lovely, could this just be because it was a month too early and the egg wasn't strong enough? It will happen the way it is supposed to be love it will I promise you!!

 

[summer2011]

16 to 17 dpo should only be 24 hrs. I believe hcg should double every 2-3 days early on. Praying for you and your bean hun

 

[allforthegirl]

Good point summer..... 60% increase for 24hrs actually sounds really good!!

 

[ladyluck8181]

Sorry that was a typo it was 15dpo & 17dpo. 60% rise in 48hrs in the absolute lowest they are 'happy' with. I just can't allow myself to be so optimistic.

 

[jammers77]

mommy2k, I'm sorry to hear of your loss, hon. Since you had the shots, you'll need to talk to your dr. about what s/he recommends. I had 2 shots as well (but no surgery), and had to wait two whole cycles. I ended up waiting several months just to be on the safe side.

ladyluck8181, I'm with the others--a 60% increase in 24 hours sounds good to me. Try to stay calm, hon.

Edit: saw your correction.

Sorry that was a typo it was 15dpo & 17dpo. 60% rise in 48hrs in the absolute lowest they are 'happy' with. I just can't allow myself to be so optimistic.

I understand your lack of optimism. After loss, it's hard to think positively. (((HUGS))) to you

 

[ladyluck8181]

It really wasn't 24 hours, I had one done Monday and one on Wednesday lol but thank you xx

 

[summer2011]

sorry hun. still don't give up yet!! i've done alot of research on hcgs and although non doubling numbers can be concerning, they don't always end badly. you fell pg so quickly, i'm sure if this is not your month, your time will come very soon. xoxox.

 

[ladyluck8181]

Hey I went to EPAU today, it's like seeing old friends now lol, they were asking how kids were and had we enjoyed our holiday lol!

Anyway long and short of it is........ I refused anymore betas, I feel it has brought unwarranted worry, I have no bleeding or pain so had I never had the beta done I would not be worrying about my pregnancy. I have done so much homework I feel like I could be a Obs myself and a 60% rise is not the end of the world, obviously it is not the most ideal but there is still a glimmer of hope.

She did a scan but could not see anything other than a thick lining, which of course is to be completely expected at such an early stage in pregnancy. She has booked me in to come up as planned on the 7th Oct to see if we can see more, at the moment it is just to check a pregnancy is in the correct place, she also checked my ovaries, tubes and areas where free fluid would gather, she could see nothing that would raise any alarms but again this cannot be ruled out yet.

I asked about the conceiving 2 months post mtx, she explained to me that once your levels have hit zero and you have started your FA again the risks are minimal so having now had 2 health professionals tell me that I am starting to relax. She did say that if I miscarried now it would not be implicated by the mtx, the 3 month wait is more to allow your body to heal due to possible scarring in a tube caused by an ectopic that could lead on to cause another ectopic.

All I can do now is sit wait and pray like my life depends on it.

 

[allforthegirl]

Good for you for stopping the hCG testing. It will help tons to relive the stress. I was glad that my Dr didn't do that and just waited for the u/s to tell us if it was in the right place.

I am very proud of you for taking such an amazingly positive approach to this!!

 

[ladyluck8181]

Thanks hun, I think even my DH is in shock that I am being so 'what will be will be' about it, I am usually so highly strung out in early pregnancy.

My pregnancy in July I was so chilled out and almost arrogant about that it would just end in a baby and look what happened so you can't win either way so what is the point in making myself sick with worry at a stage when it could go either way

 

[pdxmom]

SO glad you're being able to relax abit hun...all the best for everything to go off perfectly....reading your calm state of mind helps me keep calm tooo...i have my first scan on the 9th to c if my lo is in the right place...trying to keep myself destressed and not obsess...lets c how tht turns out

 

[ladyluck8181]

We will be fine, we cannot predict nor influence the future so at best we can stop each other from going completely barmy

 

[Red Rose]

ladyluck, that is a very wise and brave decision

Reading back, I honestly think a 60% rise is fine. I'm no medical expert, but I still think you have every chance and having these HcG tests are torturing. I haven't had any done at all this time round so am completely oblivious. Was given a scan at 6 weeks and there was a buba with a heartbeat.

I conceived 3 months after the MTX. My hospital advised me to death that anything under 6 months is very unadvised. I got MANY second opinions and all pretty much said waiting for 1/2 full cycles is advised, but often the drug leaves your body within days and will pose no harm to any subsequent pregnancies. The concern is the folate deficiency, so advised to take folic acid as soon as my levels reached 0. I went back to the hospital and they admitted in that short period of time, they had changed their guidelines by cutting that time in half! All that stress worrying I was going to get shouted at... I was ready for my defence (i.e. my second opinions) lol!

Take care. I'll keep my fingers crossed for the 7th for you x

 

[jules79]

Good luck ladyluck i hope all goes well with you.

 

[ladyluck8181]

Thank you, you really are all so sweet xx