TTC after Methotrexate shot

[Renzalxx]

My sister was treated with mtx yesterday for an ectopic. How crazy is that?? Both of us in less than a year. We are special lol

Oh man, that is terrible news Presh... at least she has you for support. Give her a big squishy cuddle from me x

 

[Laubull]

I am sorry to vent girls but I have to get this off my chest.....

Been feeling really sensitive about others pregnancies recently, I know it's horrible to feel like that but just can't get over the overall feeling of being truly gutted

One of my DH friends has announced his wife is pregnant....fair enough you say HOWEVER they've only just met and got married, in fact they got married so she could move to the UK (she's from USA). To top all of this off they are living with his parents still!

I know I sound very spiteful saying all of that but it just feels so unfair when we've been married for almost 2 years, together for almost 11 and are so ready for babies and yet it wasn't meant to be. Would have been 12 weeks today

Sorry again girls for the selfish me me post but had to get if off my chest and as lovely as DH is he doesn't always understand.

I hope everyone else is ok, sending lucky baby dust too all. X

 

[Laubull]

I am sorry to vent girls but I have to get this off my chest.....

Been feeling really sensitive about others pregnancies recently, I know it's horrible to feel like that but just can't get over the overall feeling of being truly gutted

One of my DH friends has announced his wife is pregnant....fair enough you say HOWEVER they've only just met and got married, in fact they got married so she could move to the UK (she's from USA). To top all of this off they are living with his parents still!

I know I sound very spiteful saying all of that but it just feels so unfair when we've been married for almost 2 years, together for almost 11 and are so ready for babies and yet it wasn't meant to be. Would have been 12 weeks today

Sorry again girls for the selfish me me post but had to get if off my chest and as lovely as DH is he doesn't always understand.

I hope everyone else is ok, sending lucky baby dust too all. X

 

[GrkGrl]

I know how you feel Lau-
It is rough. I am genuinely happy for my friends/co-workers who get pregnant, but it definitely stings a little as they talk about it and I have to smile and nod. I really haven't even told anyone about my "situation" so nobody even knows that I am sensitive to this stuff. I just keep trying to count my blessings instead of my shortfalls. And I find that helps.

Renz/Presh - if you are checking, can you let me know exactly when you got pregnant again after the shot? Like was it 3 months after the shot, etc. Just trying to get a frame of reference. I am really hoping for BFPs for you two. Your stories (everyone's stories) are really inspiring to me.

My ectopic "aborted" itself which is what caused all the pain for me. My tube didn't rupture, it was spitting the embryo out. They gave me the choice to do lap surgery or the metho to get the rest of it out of there. I chose metho b/c the doc said she would likely take my tube if she did the laproscopy. I never really understood that. How did she know she would need to take my tube? But it has left me wondering if my tube is really messed up. For those of you who have gone to get a HSG, why did you wait until you were TTC. Couldn't I go sooner? If something is wrong, I think I would want to tack it onto this "wait period" that I am already going through.

 

[Gwenylovey]

I had the HSG done and think I had to wait until my numbers hit 0. I was out of the country for three weeks and then had to have a consultation with an RE before scheduling it. After that, there is only a narrow period of time to get it done as it must be after you stop bleeding from af but before ovulation. I ended up getting it done in February and got a my BFP with this pregnancy a couple of weeks later. A good reason to wait till right before ttc is that some studies show that the three months after the procedure you are more likely to get pg. Good luck!!

 

[Mrs.Stinski]

So Ive been in horrid pain for several days now so I went to the Dr on Friday, tube hasnt ruptured but there is a pool of fluid still. Went back yesterday for follow up u/s, fluid pool still there and also my numbers stopped going down. Had to go back this morning for a second round of the methotrexate. Been sick as a dog all day....uugghh, just ready for this to be over!!!

 

[GrkGrl]

Sorry about your pain Mrs. Stinski - are your numbers dropping? That pool of blood is what made the pain so bad for me as well. It isn't fun.

Gwen- thanks for thee response. when are you due? I love hearing about BFPs. I have been less than 0 for 2 weeks now, but only a little over 1 month since MTX. I have a feeling I will wait to get it done until June when I can actually try again. I just didn't know if it mattered or not.

 

[Gwenylovey]

I'm due November 9th!

 

[kmp]

Sorry about your pain Mrs. Stinski - are your numbers dropping? That pool of blood is what made the pain so bad for me as well. It isn't fun.

Gwen- thanks for thee response. when are you due? I love hearing about BFPs. I have been less than 0 for 2 weeks now, but only a little over 1 month since MTX. I have a feeling I will wait to get it done until June when I can actually try again. I just didn't know if it mattered or not.

Hey GrkGrl, sorry for responded without being introduced. I was in this thread back in Nov-Dec and had a very lengthy mtx experience. I just wanted to respond because you sound just how I did. I wanted to get that HSG out of the way asap. I had to wait till my numbers went to 0 (which took from Nov 22 till end of Jan) then have at least one full cycle. The reason I was told is if you get HSG too close to ectopic your tube may not have repaired itself yet and may appear blocked when it isn't. It needs time to fully clear and swelling to go down to see if there is a blockage. Also there is a significant risk of infection. You will probably have to call your dr. when af arrives the month you are getting it and as said earlier you have to get it after af and before ovulation because they are very concerned about possible pregnancy. My hsg went well no blockage and am actually having another in May. Hope this helps, will gladly answer any other questions. Believe me I know how hard the wait is, but as others say after the pregnancy is resolved and the physical pain is gone the time does go by faster. Take care

 

[Renzalxx]

I know how you feel Lau-
It is rough. I am genuinely happy for my friends/co-workers who get pregnant, but it definitely stings a little as they talk about it and I have to smile and nod. I really haven't even told anyone about my "situation" so nobody even knows that I am sensitive to this stuff. I just keep trying to count my blessings instead of my shortfalls. And I find that helps.

Renz/Presh - if you are checking, can you let me know exactly when you got pregnant again after the shot? Like was it 3 months after the shot, etc. Just trying to get a frame of reference. I am really hoping for BFPs for you two. Your stories (everyone's stories) are really inspiring to me.

My ectopic "aborted" itself which is what caused all the pain for me. My tube didn't rupture, it was spitting the embryo out. They gave me the choice to do lap surgery or the metho to get the rest of it out of there. I chose metho b/c the doc said she would likely take my tube if she did the laproscopy. I never really understood that. How did she know she would need to take my tube? But it has left me wondering if my tube is really messed up. For those of you who have gone to get a HSG, why did you wait until you were TTC. Couldn't I go sooner? If something is wrong, I think I would want to tack it onto this "wait period" that I am already going through.

Hi GrkGirl...
I had my first shot (spread out into four needles over 8 days) on 29 June 2011. My numbers reached zero on 8 August 2011. I then got my first bfp on 12 November 2011. I was also vigilant in taking my folate and prenatals so think it was just a little too early....
Hope that helps x

 

[GrkGrl]

kmp - thank you so much for that info. that is exactly what I was looking for. Do you mind if I ask about your ectopic? what happened? I assume it didn't rupture, but did you have any pain? how did they find it?
I bled on and off from bfp, and then finally, i ended up in the ER due to pain. i probably wouldn't have gone in but I knew my numbers were not rising appropriately and there was a risk of ectopic. The pain was not because of a rupture, it was b/c my tube spit it out and the blood was pooling in my uterus. I just don't know if that damaged my tube. My numbers were still low at the time this happened. I think there were like 2,300 or something (but I was 8 weeks at that point). I am hopeful that my tube is healing. Did you say you were due in May? Congrats!

Renz - I'm so sorry for your loss. I was planning on waiting 3 months from when I started taking the prenatals, but now I may space it out longer. I don't know. It's all so confusing! Thanks for your reply though.

 

[resque07]

Hey update been feeling really good for about a week still get a feeling in side but its not pain. i did have a glob of bloody cm yesterday and some light pink when i wiped but nothing since. i have a week filled with acne bitchiness. cramps like af and omg the craving for xhocolate....

 

[PreshFest]

I know how you feel Lau-
It is rough. I am genuinely happy for my friends/co-workers who get pregnant, but it definitely stings a little as they talk about it and I have to smile and nod. I really haven't even told anyone about my "situation" so nobody even knows that I am sensitive to this stuff. I just keep trying to count my blessings instead of my shortfalls. And I find that helps.

Renz/Presh - if you are checking, can you let me know exactly when you got pregnant again after the shot? Like was it 3 months after the shot, etc. Just trying to get a frame of reference. I am really hoping for BFPs for you two. Your stories (everyone's stories) are really inspiring to me.

My ectopic "aborted" itself which is what caused all the pain for me. My tube didn't rupture, it was spitting the embryo out. They gave me the choice to do lap surgery or the metho to get the rest of it out of there. I chose metho b/c the doc said she would likely take my tube if she did the laproscopy. I never really understood that. How did she know she would need to take my tube? But it has left me wondering if my tube is really messed up. For those of you who have gone to get a HSG, why did you wait until you were TTC. Couldn't I go sooner? If something is wrong, I think I would want to tack it onto this "wait period" that I am already going through.

I got my mtx shot on July 25th. Got my bfp on Nov. 16th. I was also taking pretatals and an insane amt of folic acid once my levels reached zero. Baby made it 7 weeks and I had a d&c at 12 wks. So I got pregnant almost exactly 3 months after the shot.

 

[baby_maybe]

Evening all :wave:

Had my bloods done again today (6 weeks since mtx now) and my numbers went from 568 last week to 358 this week, so yet again still going in the right direction, just incredibly slowly!! The doc says I still have to go every week to get the bloods done and it will be that way until the hcg is 'undetectable'. I do wonder now whether I should have gone ahead with the second shot, ugh I don't know really I think i'm just feeling like they would be much lower by now if i had??

Anyway I hope everyone is doing ok and those waiting for numbers to go down get there soon

 

[Renzalxx]

Hey, that is a great loss for one week... you are almost there hun, keep positive - youll be reaching zero in no time xx

 

[kmp]

Evening all :wave:

Had my bloods done again today (6 weeks since mtx now) and my numbers went from 568 last week to 358 this week, so yet again still going in the right direction, just incredibly slowly!! The doc says I still have to go every week to get the bloods done and it will be that way until the hcg is 'undetectable'. I do wonder now whether I should have gone ahead with the second shot, ugh I don't know really I think i'm just feeling like they would be much lower by now if i had??

Anyway I hope everyone is doing ok and those waiting for numbers to go down get there soon

Hey babymaybe, I know how hard it is waiting for numbers to go down, but I had two shots and it still took forever so don't second guess yourself. Hang in there Just a warning to save some disappointment, numbers seem to go down slower the closer you get to zero. At first I was going down significantly (like by 1000), but at the end I got very frustrated when it seemed to take forever just to go from 100 to zero. Everyone is different, but just try not to get too frustrated (easier said than done I know). Hang in there.

 

[kmp]

kmp - thank you so much for that info. that is exactly what I was looking for. Do you mind if I ask about your ectopic? what happened? I assume it didn't rupture, but did you have any pain? how did they find it?
I bled on and off from bfp, and then finally, i ended up in the ER due to pain. i probably wouldn't have gone in but I knew my numbers were not rising appropriately and there was a risk of ectopic. The pain was not because of a rupture, it was b/c my tube spit it out and the blood was pooling in my uterus. I just don't know if that damaged my tube. My numbers were still low at the time this happened. I think there were like 2,300 or something (but I was 8 weeks at that point). I am hopeful that my tube is healing. Did you say you were due in May? Congrats!

I got my bfp at 14 dpo. I already had an appt set up before I got bfp with a high risk dr cause of my previous mc. So when I went in due to a late ovulation they dated my at 6 wks and did a transvaginal u/s and they could not find anything, but my uterus was very large and thought they saw a septate. They thought it may just be too early so scheduled for a week later. The following week the drew blood and did another u/s and again saw nothing so had me get bloods 48 hours later. My numbers rose but did not double so they assumed it was an ectopic and had me come in right away for the shot. I did not bleed or anything and got my blood drawn two more times and by then they went to like 5200 so a week after the first shot I went in for another. If finally started working and numbers dropped in half for several weeks, but the whole thing lasted from a bfp on nov 7, dr appt nov 14, dr appt nov 21, mtx nov 22, mtx nov 29, and blood finally negative Jan 30. My hsg was in feb and tubes were fine, but had surgery in march to remove a septate and large fibroid which could have contributed to ectopic.
I am sure your tube is fine, but an Hsg will be reassuring. I am not pregnant yet, but can finally try again in may. I have a post-op hsg in early may and expect a green light then. Sorry for the lengthy response.

 

[patiently]

Hi everyone sorry for my absence I don't even know where to start I am just going to give a quick update and will post in more detail later. I had bloods taken and my hcg went from 958 to 114 I was happy and thought all was ok. Then I had the worst pain I have ever felt in my life. Was taken to hospital and after a scan saw my tube has ruptured. Within the hour I had surgery to remove it. I just feel numb. Such a huge drop in number but the scan showed the same size pregnancy sac. The dr said that the mtx works on the placenta but the pregnancy sac should shrink and eventually be reabsorbed but mine didn't. I think my levels would've gone down in a week or two instead I'm in hospital with one tube. Words can't even express how I'm feeling. Now how are we going to have our baby its going to take us forever to conceive with one tube! I can't even cry because my stomach is too sore. I know I said a quick update and its now an essay but I'm just writing on my phone so will be able to comment properly when I get in.

 

[Laubull]

Oh Patiently I am so sorry, sending you big hugs

I don't know much about removal of tubes but I am sure I've read somewhere that it doesn't half your chances of conceiving because the other side will make up for the loss. I am sure there are some other girls on here who can provide you with some advice.

For now just make sure you recover from the op and look after yourself. Easier said than done when your mind will be working at a million miles an hour, but keep faith for the future.

Hugs x

 

[Renzalxx]

Hi everyone sorry for my absence I don't even know where to start I am just going to give a quick update and will post in more detail later. I had bloods taken and my hcg went from 958 to 145 I was happy and thought all was ok. Then I had the worst pain I have ever felt in my life. Was taken to hospital and after a scan saw my tube has ruptured. Within the hour I had surgery to remove it. I just feel numb. Such a huge drop in number but the scan showed the same size pregnancy sac. The dr said that the mtx works on the placenta but the pregnancy sac should shrink and eventually be reabsorbed but mine didn't. I think my levels would've gone down in a week or two instead I'm in hospital with one tube. Words can't even express how I'm feeling. Now how are we going to have our baby its going to take us forever to conceive with one tube! I can't even cry because my stomach is too sore. I know I said a quick update and its now an essay but I'm just writing on my phone so will be able to comment properly when I get in.

Oh hunny, that is just awful news..you can vent as much as you like. Im so sorry to hear what a terrible time you are having... sending you big squishy Renzal cuddle on the breeze xxx