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[CanadianMoose]

Canadian I hope your faint line is the real deal! We haven't had anything to squint at on this thread for a while so do post your next test!

I always find it easier to be hopeful for others than it is to hope for myself.

I bought some 10 miu sure predict tests from amazon so maybe I will test early, like 10 or 11 dpo so that I will know if I can drink New Year's Eve.

Aye I'm thinking the same, I will be testing the next few days and if I see ANYTHING, I'm gonna test with the last FRER I have on the 24th. I'll try and see if I can sneak a test in tonight, trying to surprise the hubby. Oddly I feel very calm about all of this, I'm not as stressed or crazed. I keep thinking that I'm more than likely not, but willing to calmly test and be proven wrong.

Now that they nausea has finally backed off I'm gonna go stuff my fat face so flipping hungry.

 

[Myshelsong]

Agreed, it is way easier to be hopeful about others when it feels impossible for me. I'm probably won't test unless af is late, I am expecting her on the 28-29. But good news if she does come that just means we are moving forward with FET ... which is terrifying and hopeful at the same time. 😀

A squinted sounds promising! I am hoping for you hun. ❤️ Sending lots of love and positive thoughts your way. Unfortunately the early term losses are so hard to pinpoint the cause. It could be so many thing or nothing at all ... a lining issue, clotting issue or sperm issue with DNA fragmentation. Have you guys gone to a specialist yet?

 

[CanadianMoose]

Not yet as I just had my 3rd in October, and you need 3 MCs to qualify as "needing help." Also, I'm under Immigration process right now (American marrying a Canadian living in Canada) so i don't have the healthcare coverage atm right now.

Also, I took a few pictures of the test for you, but it's not really seeable because like I said, I messed up by wiping a bit of water over it while it was showing up. (D'OH!)

 

[Myshelsong]

Oh that's annoying, for both no health care yet and the test wipe. Ugh. Take one in the morning and let us see.

I didn't know that about the three... I was told by both my doctors in Ontario and Alberta (where we were for three years) that as long as you have been trying for one year they will start the tests for you. But I am sure the multiple miscarriages will push some of the tests further along, or they will give you different tests in te beginning. Our first tests were all done in Alberta, they found nothing after one year, then we were On a wait list for the fertility clinic in Edmonton for 18 months. We ended up moving to Ontario while we were still waiting and thankfully got in to our current clinic within three months. From there we did more testing and IUI's and then the IVF after the fragmentation issue was found.
Sorry for the rant ... no idea where that came from.

 

[CanadianMoose]

Oh that's annoying, for both no health care yet and the test wipe. Ugh. Take one in the morning and let us see.

I didn't know that about the three... I was told by both my doctors in Ontario and Alberta (where we were for three years) that as long as you have been trying for one year they will start the tests for you. But I am sure the multiple miscarriages will push some of the tests further along, or they will give you different tests in te beginning. Our first tests were all done in Alberta, they found nothing after one year, then we were On a wait list for the fertility clinic in Edmonton for 18 months. We ended up moving to Ontario while we were still waiting and thankfully got in to our current clinic within three months. From there we did more testing and IUI's and then the IVF after the fragmentation issue was found.
Sorry for the rant ... no idea where that came from.

I know where, the frustration of someone saying "your not having problems enough to get the help you need so you can have your baby now." It's how I'm sorta feeling right now when I tell hubby I want to get checked out and he goes "yeah yeah eventually." Drives me crazy! sometimes his lack of drive to do certain things really ticks me off, but then again i guess what he lack in motivation I make up for by doing it myself. Only with this healthcare thing right now I can't do it myself hence why I've been driven crazy and annoyed with him as of late.

 

[CanadianMoose]

I'll post the pics, but you really can't see anything... maybe if you inverted or such but oh well.

 

[StillPraying]

I can see something canadian. When did you say AF is due?

 

[CanadianMoose]

I can see something canadian. When did you say AF is due?

The 26th at the lastest, maybe earlier if I O'ed earlier.
Tested at 3:30 am and nothing, just stark white. i think it was a 4 hour hold or around there but it doesn't matter. I know now it's the prenatals that are causing the symptoms and the nausea, delayed as it is. now 10-12 DPO so I'm calling it Friday if I still get the stark white.

*update at 6:50 felt nausea and ran to the bathroom, threw up in the sink...for getting a BFN I'm sure showing pregnancy signs. gonna Look into my prenatals and see if other women complained that it gave them hardcore signs but no BFP.

 

[WishnandHopn]

I can see something on the 2nd one Canadian. Maybe skip a day of prenatal and see if you feel better. Or take it with food if you've been taking it on an empty stomach (or vice versa). I am not a normally puker so that would be making me really hopeful right now if I were you...

Rant away Myshel, that's what we're here for!

Still, how are you doing these days? Nice to hear from you

 

[Myshelsong]

If you are having issues with the prenatal try to make sure you are eating lots with them like at lunch time or dinner time. Not before bed. I found I needed to eat with mine or I would get horribly ill. I actually started getting emotionally upset taking the prenatal after my loss so I just bought some folate and am taking that instead. Doctor said it is fine for the "pre"pregnancy since that is really all they are concerned about. It also does not hurt my tummy one bit.

I think I saw something on the second one as well. But not sure. Fingers crossed!!

Speaking of being sick my entire family has the flu... not sure if I want to go over there for Christmas now, I really don't want to be sick and end up missing my 3day appointment for the FET transfer because I caught something.

 

[StillPraying]

Myshel oh no sorry your family is sick! My girls just got over being sick.

Wish thanks I'm okay but the closer we get to February the more I dread it (Lukes due date) and i swear every day another person i know announces theyre pregnant.
Thought we werent going to try but Apparently NTNP Cuz dh never pulls out. Lol

 

[CanadianMoose]

Thanks everyone, gonna still test everyonce in a while with the cheapies but I think I'll use the last FRER Saturday morning before we head to SIL's house so I can have my cocktails in peace without worrying. I talked with hubby about the random symptoms and the throwing up (which I never throw up...like ever) and he said "you don't even know if this is your month you ovulate why are you stressing out so much about it? There's no guarantee even if we BDed on the good days."

What he said kinda hurt and felt like a low blow, and I'm starting to feel like I can never talk to him about this. That I'm not going to get support from him on this and that I just want to stop trying cause he's not as enthusiastic about it as I am obviously. So I feel like we aren't on the same page, and I don't want to try and have a kid if he's not coming from the same place as I.

Honestly, it just feels like every time we pass a cycle and AF shows it's like he breathes a sigh of relief and he feels like he can bust as much as he wants and feels like there's no consequence for it. I don't know maybe I'm just overthinking things and seeing something where there is nothing...

*edit and took another test with more concentrated urine and BFN so yeah don't take nature's bounty complete prenatal with omega. They will convince your body your pregnant, showing all the symptoms like nausea when your actually NOT pregnant. 9-11 DPO calling it not pregnant still will do a FRER on Saturday but for now I'm out ladies. Good luck with your cycle and hope you have better luck than me.

 

[WishnandHopn]

Still yeah it's so tough, especially this time of year. We should be dressing our growing bumps in ugly maternity sweaters by now! Who knows, maybe a failed DH pullout will have a happy ending for you!

Canadian, that's crazy that your prenatal made you that sick. You're not out till the witch shows, good luck with testing on Sat. I think that even the husbands that are really into it could never come close to understanding what is going on in the female mind while ttc! They just don't get it. It could just be he doesn't like to see you get your hopes up too high only to be disappointed again. It's hard on them too, but more so because they hate to see us so crazy/anxious/obsessed/sad.

 

[darlingqueen]

Hi ladies sorry it's been a couple days. I've been at my mom's house baking... Like, 19 batches of cookies for the holidays for the whole family!
Hehe so I have a conundrum here. I took provera for 6 days and just started my period. More spotting really... But I still have 4 more days until I finish my course. Do I still take the last 4 or not since I got my period? Usually you aren't supposed to start until after the course! So I'm confused lol

 

[StillPraying]

Darling I'd make a call to your drs office about the provera

wish that's exactly it *sigh* just trying stay cheerful for my girls

Canadian why does bfn at 9-11dpo make you out? I'm sorry your DH hurt your feelings, they really can be unintentionally insensitive to how much this means to us. Men don't quite understand it at all.

 

[WishnandHopn]

Wow Darling that's a lot of cookies! I always thought you were supposed to get AF a couple days after stopping provera? Still's right, I'd call the doc to find out if you should finish it or stop.

I'm officially in the tww. 1 dpo. Just wrapping up my last day of work before holidays and going to *try* to forget what dpo I am and enjoy the next week of festivities. I will test New Year's Eve!

 

[CanadianMoose]

Darling I'd make a call to your drs office about the provera

wish that's exactly it *sigh* just trying stay cheerful for my girls

Canadian why does bfn at 9-11dpo make you out? I'm sorry your DH hurt your feelings, they really can be unintentionally insensitive to how much this means to us. Men don't quite understand it at all.

Because my body is acting like AF is just around the corner this weekend or so and I've had negative tests each time. It's ok I'll just have to take a little break and rest up with alcohol, and look forward to hopefully a better year.

 

[Myshelsong]

Darling - I would keep taking them and call the doctor just to make sure.
Holy moly that is a lot of cookies! Hope they all turned out right!

In the middle of my tww, af should be here on the 28. I am crazy emotional today with Christmas coming up and waiting to see if we have to do the FET in January I am so anxious. I think I have been crying on and off all day.

 

[WishnandHopn]

Hugs Myshel...I can imagine with the FET on the horizon your tww is even harder and more emotional than usual. Think of it this way: whatever happens, a month from now you'll either be pregnant or pregnant until proven otherwise!

 

[Myshelsong]

I know! I keep thinking about that which is why I think I am so emotional lately.

It is great too see so much good news already with these ivfers. Hoping we continue on with this great trend.