TTCAL waiting (not so patiently) for our rainbows

[yazzy]

Tasha I can totally understand your worries, I don't think anything anyone says helps alleviate the fear but wishing you all the best over the next few weeks.

 

[Tasha]

Thank you both. I'm glad you didn't try to say everything will be okay, I hear it a lot, obviously I and everyone else hopes it will but we don't know.

I do Kelly, not gender but just wanting to create happy memories.

How many dpo Kelly? Yazzy when are you next seen?

How's everyone else?

 

[babytots]

Yazzy so pleased your scan went well and the hospital are doing an investigation into the way you was treated. Let us know what they say once it's over and you get a letter.

Kelly yay for ov got my fingers tightly crossed for you.

Thanks Sunshine I wouldn't know who the md is nor where to send the letter to. But I shall try and find out. PALS have been really good wth me in the past so I'm hopeful they can sort it. Good luck in your 2ww I have my fingers crossed for you and I hope the green tinged cm is a good sign for you.

Tasha sending you a big hug. I'm having wobbles too so we can hold hands together and get through these next few weeks.

Afm been ill with a cold and suffering with insomnia so not been on here in a while. Sickness is just about gone now only feel icky when I don't eat for a while. Think I've started feeling baby move but not sure if it was all in my head as I haven't felt anything in the past 2 days. Hate having an anterior placenta as it just makes me worry. Baby's heart beat is nice and strong though. Have my private scan next weekend (just need to book it) looking forward to it but feeling extremely nervous incase they say something is wrong with baby. It was at a private scan that we found out about Jessica so that's always at the forefront at my mind as well as the problems these antibodies can cause. It's so hard to focus on baby being healthy with that having over me x

 

[yazzy]

Tasha I need to make my booking in appointment for after 8 weeks but otherwise I don't need to be seen until my 12 week scan. I have however been told to phone anytime that I want a reassurance scan and they'll get me in which is lovely. I just don't know whether to have an extra one or not? I get so anxious before a scan, they just scare me! Maybe I'll book a scan for 9 or 10 weeks?!

Babytots good luck for your private scan, I think once you have received bad news in the past at certain scans that fear never goes.

Never again do we have the naviety of bouncing into a scan room excited.

 

[Beckzter]

Yazzy you are so right. Even at my mw appointments so far I've been nervous, quiet and down in the dumps and the mw is all jolly and yaye about everything. And at each scan once I've explained that I've had a mc I get 'oh I'm sorry' but it doesn't sound that sincere if you know what I mean. Had a fall out with my OH too today. I've booked another private scan for when I'm 16 weeks for reassurance, when I told him he was all like, 'oh why have you done that. How stupid' I explained my anxiety to him which to be honest I don't display it in front of people so he didn't really know that im still so nervous but he was still being an ass about it. I was so upset and refused to speak to him for a while. After a while he apologised and said he was excited about the scan. Now I'm feeling quite mellow again after picking up a fab trace on the doppler tonight, 161 bpm.

Tasha, I think you are an amazing woman. I secretly stalk your journal and I am honestly in awe of you and your strength in the quest for your rainbow baby after everything you've been through, if it was me I would have given up a long time ago. I think I would be worried if you never had any wobbles.

Sorry to hear you've been feeling rough babytots.

Hmm it's such a toughie Yazzy re the scan, I really enjoyed my private scan but it didn't make my anxiety any easier as I knew I wasn't still out of the woods so wondered if I'd been better not having one and being in the 'what you don't know can't harm you camp'.

Whoop for positive opk Kelly, really hope we are seeing another BFP in a couple of weeks.

Ooo sunshine thinking lots of good vibes for you

 

[babytots]

Thanks Yazzy you are right we never get that naivety back and I know until baby is in my arms I will always worry glad you have open access to get another scan if needed. I would book one hun I get nervous too but I always have it in the back of my mind that if I had another loss I would rather know sooner rather then wait til my 12 week scan. My 2nd angel had I not have pushed my doctor to get me a scan at 9 weeks I would have been non the wiser that babies heart had stopped. That always plays on my mind so I take whatever scans I can get before 12 weeks.

Beckster it's so hard to feel excited isn't it. Friends are all excited for me but I just can't feel it yet and if it's a girl like I think it is I'm going to find it even harder to believe that I will hold another daughter in my arms.

Sorry that your OH was like that about your scan hun. My DH always complains when I book private scans because they are expensive but it's money well spent if it means we get that reassurance that all is well. Thankfully this time round he isn't bothered as he knows how anxious I am. X

 

[Tasha]

Fingers crossed yazzy.

babytots. It is tough but hopefully next weekend will reassure you a bit. I'm glad you're feeling a bit better. I hope you get strong kicks soon

Yazzy, scans are so bloody scary but so is the unknown, I would probably book one if I was you.

Beck, I'm sorry your partner was an ass. I don't think men can truly get it you know? I'm glad you have a scan regardless. Thank you so much, that's really kind of you.

Sunshine, kelly and anyone else in the two week wait, any symptoms? When are you testing?

Afm- two sleeps until my private scan, I'm nervous too.

 

[Kellya009]

Charting is so exciting! I'm just getting to the good part where my temp rises . Lol who'do have thought taking temperatures could be so exciting . Think I o'd on the 30th (no crosshairs yet) so I'll start testing on the 11th I think.

On one hand I'd like to wait as long as possible to test, but the midwives fill up so fast here. If I don't call ASAP I will have to go the mat clinic at the hospital where I was with my first pregnancy and that wasn't a good experience. Different Dr every week.

 

[babytots]

Hope your private scan goes well Tasha.

Kelly I love charting its always nice to see how your cycle is going with how high/low your temps are. Got my fingers crossed for you hun.

Ok so rant alert coming from me I'm so upset.

I had it all planned in my head that on Sunday we would go for a private scan and surprise the children. its the only weekend we will have together for the next month due to DH's shift pattern. So I rang to book my private scan today to find my local scanning centre only scan on Thursdays. Ok I thought will email a few other companies that are out of town and see if they are willing to book me in despite me being a day short of 16 weeks one refused the other was willing but told me if the sex couldn't be determined then they wouldn't offer a re-scan so basically would be a waste of money. So thought I'll try and book one for Mon/Tue after school and neither have appointments available.

Its killing me keeping this a secret from the children and although I could sit them down and tell them I wanted them to be able to see it for themselves and find out what we are having together.

We planned to tell family after the scan too.

A friend said to book a scan in my hubbys name and put my dates forward so that I can book in for Sunday but a) I'd feel a fraud and b) I'm worried that if baby isn't measuring 16 weeks they will refuse to scan.

DH hasn't been to any of my scans yet and will probably not be able to attend my anomaly scan so this was the only chance of him seeing baby til I have a 4d scan and I don't want my children to miss it either. But it will be a case of one or the other.

I know in the grand scheme of things its not the be all and end all but for me finding out the gender and being able to share that with my children would make it more real to me. I'm yet to feel any proper movement and just feel that bond is missing (although I love baby dearly). Plus it was at this stage that things started to go wrong with Jessica and I'm desperate to be able to see baby again.

Sorry for ranting ladies I just feel so down in the dumps about it all. x

 

[Tasha]

Kelly, I've never temped because I don't sleep enough but glad you like it.

BT that is so crap. I would do what the friend said because you all need this especially you given the gestation you're at. Babies measure a day off here or there, they still will do it plus who's to say baby isn't measuring ahead a little and then it would be right any way x

 

[babytots]

I really don't know if it was closer to home I'd risk it but we would have to pay for travel to get there. I'm going to contact the original company I planned to book with as they have a space Sunday at another centre. I was planning on booking a 4d scan with them which allows gender confirmation so I suppose even if we don't find out the sex at least we all get to see baby together.

Either that or wait til the Thursday and see if Jason can get half a day off work so we can go after school. x

 

[yazzy]

Babytots I understand your dilemma, I have no idea which is the best option but go with your heart!

Tasha good luck for your scan, please update us once you've been

I think you are all right in regards to me getting another scan...part of me would like to bury my head in the sand but the other part would like to know all is ok.

I think I will get my booking in appointment made for next week and then look to book a scan in week 9.

Kelly I have no idea on temping as I never sleep all night so have never temped! But excited for you so keep us updated...we need another bfp on this thread

 

[Beckzter]

Aww babytots that's carp. I'm sure even you are measuring just under 16 weeks at the scan you can still have a look at the baby's bits and see if it's obvious or not. I was considering a gender scan but our private place doesn't do IT till 18 weeks and Im too impatient to wait that long so just gone for assurance scan. I don't want to find out the gender now but wouldn't mind a little peek myself whilst the scan is happening

 

[sil]

Babytots, that stinks We actually are doing our gender scan next Tuesday at 15+6, so it's awful that they won't allow you the same. Good luck with whatever decision you make; I'm sure it will be special for you and the kids either way

Kelly I never temped either so I can't be very useful in the department, I only used opks, but I'm glad it's working out well for you! If we ever do decide to have another baby after this one (which I don't think is super likely, but is possible), I think I might give temping a try

Yazzy I'd book the extra scan! I love any chance I get to see baby, even though it is always scary at the back of my head. So far I've only seen baby twice (8 weeks, 12 weeks, and soon to be 16 weeks for gender scan) and I'm counting down the days.

Tasha, how are you feeling hun?

Beck, I can't believe you are 13 weeks already! How are you doing? Are you having a bit more energy now? I find myself having more energy during the day but I am still crashing hard by 8/9 PM

 

[Tasha]

Bt did you figure anything out?

I'm glad you are coming to a decision you are happy with yazzy.

When's your assurance scan beck?

A week until your gender scan sil

How are you sunshine, kelly and everyone else?

My scan went well baby is about 11cm not including legs. Kept rubbing its nose


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[babytots]

Thanks ladies. Finally sorted something out. Booked a scan for Wednesday when i'll be 16+2 going to go on my own and then on The thursday build up babies crib and add the bedding I have bought with a blue/pink teddy inside holding the dvd from the scan and a note from baby. The boys probably won't understand but I think the girls will Then at 18 weeks when DH is off work book a £50 scan at my local centre after school so they can all see baby.

Not how I orginally planned it out but I can't wait to see the girls expressions.

Awww not long to wait sil its crazy how fast our pregnancies are going now.

So happy your scan went well Tasha. I sooooo can't wait to "meet" all our rainbows come July.

Yazzy its easy to bury your head in the sand isn't it. At first I felt the same and didn't want any early scans but I know I would just worry so I ended up going. I'm sure all will be fine when you go again.

Beckzter I don't blame you for booking in a reassurance scan One scanning centre said they would do it but if babies sex couldn't be determined they wouldn't offer for me to come back to re-try so I'm going when I know I am over 16 weeks so that it won't be a complete waste of money if baby has its legs crossed or isn't in a great position.

How are all the ttcal ladies doing? Anyone in the 2ww tested yet? Anyone due to ov? x

 

[comotion89]

Still lurking follwing you ladies progress still waiting for either af,bfp, world peace lol

 

[Camichelle]

Hey ladies! Took some more time away to lick my wounds I guess.... I can't believe how far a long some of you are! So exciting! So happy for you! There's no way I could catch up and comment on everything but I did catch up on reading. Beautiful scans and lots of good vibes!
I can't remember when I last posted.... Results of my hsg didn't show anything out of the norm. Met with a genetic specialist today but not sure if I want to pursue that route because even if something is found, there's nothing to do but keep trying. So I think that's what I'm going to do! Should O early next week and it'll be first attempt since my November loss so I'm anxious but excited to get back to TTC. It's a new year and so I'm optimistic this will be my year!

and fx'd for those TTC and in 2ww!

 

[babytots]

Hi Commotion thinking of you hope to see you with a bfp soon.

Hugs Camichelle. I'm glad the hsg came back clear and I really hope this cycle is your lucky one. x

 

[TTC 84]

Hey ladies , babytots glad you've worked something out can't believe how fast the weeks have gone by I'm what I think is 12dpo today but got a bfn this morning , I think I def o'd though , and have had a few symptoms but I'm not counting on it , so hopefully af turns up soon I'm so impatient , tomorrow is 4 weeks since d&c feels like a lifetime . Fingers x for all us ladies that we get bfps soon xx.