Hey Ladies! I hope everyone is doing well. I hope your IUI's go well, LLawson and Navy!! It has been wayy too long since there was some good news on this forum. I haven't seen Faith or CJ on here in ages. If you ladies check this forum, I want to tell you that I am thinking about you guys!
I finished setting up my IVF for January. I have to say that I don't really care much about the nurses, I actually would have to say that I thoroughly dislike them, but the doctor is awesome. He is nice and friendly and courteous, but his staff suck! I am sucking up the way I feel personally though in hopes that they are a better clinic than they are as human beings. It is supposed to be a good clinic. I just want to do this and get it over with. I know that sounds horrible but I am beginning to become stressed out. They require a million visits, (the next one is to drive 300 miles just to sign some paperwork...) It is not well-done as a professional business, but in this life sometimes you have to do what you can afford and this is our only option. I can afford to do this procedure where I can't afford a full IVF cycle. Ever.. It is difficult to deal with the rude nurses sometimes though. I just want to do this procedure and have our baby. It seems so simple in my head. I wish the execution was as easy as my mind makes it. I have to find a place to do one day of monitoring on cd 2, get a thousand tests done this week, my hubby's SA done on the 18th. Luckily we are 30 minutes away from our drop off clinic and can get the sample at home so that takes off an ounce of stress.. I have not stopped doing anything that I normally do as I don't want to stress my body or my mind.. I don't smoke or drink anyway, but I do like my coffee... a lot. I will be going for acupuncture for the week of my transfer if our insurance covers it. I also have stopped visiting Facebook as there is too much stress on there for me and I am cutting back in every area I can. I am so relieved that my college semester ends this week too. I do need somewhere that I don't feel stressed though so here I am... Ranting and raving. Again. Gosh, I am really ready for this stage to be complete. If by chance this doesn't work, (and in no way do I believe it will fail) (positive thinking), I will be trying once more this year and then waiting until next year..maybe.
This is such a hard, difficult, life-changing journey. I wish we didn't do this to ourselves. Oh the things I wish I had known. I swear if I have a little girl, I will teach her from birth to make sure she cherishes her fertility.. So many things I wish I could change. I pray God gives me another chance.
Sorry for the ranting. I am just scared and nervous as my time approaches. I found out today that I will take 2 Clomid each day for 5 days, Gonal-F on day 6 and I think she said day 9?? Not sure about a trigger? I am assuming I will do that too and then the retrieval. Trying to decide now about whether my hubby should fly or drive for the sperm donation. I am to call her back on the 23rd and set the dates in stone as long as the tests are ok.. I know I should've slacked down on drinking the coffee, but I figured it would be more stressful on my body to stop receiving something than it was to just keep doing it as my body is used to things being a certain way. Shock can't be good for my body along with the stress. I know I wrote another book.. Dang stress! Gonna go finish crocheting my daughter's Christmas blanket and I guess finish setting up my last minute issues.
Please say a prayer for my IVF. I know the chances of it working the first time is slim, but God is a God of miracles..
I am keeping up with everyone!