hey guys. thanks so much for your warm welcomes. i havent replied before now as my story is soooooooooooooooo long and i thought id share.
so here goes...............
i had my son Josh at 27 weeks when I was only 16 years old. he passed away the day after he was born.
i had my son Jacob at 25 weeks three years later and he also died the day after he was born. i had had an emergency c section as Jacob was breech and I had placenta previa and was hemorrhaging.
i have a condition which makes me quite ill on occasion and thats why i cant carry children.
within four months i was pregnant with my daughter Xander and had to have a stitch in my cervix and a very high risk pregnancy. but she was born at 38 weeks normally and is now a very annoying and normal 16 year old.
then 7 years later i got a little surprise in the form of my son Theon, now 9. Another stitch and high risk pregnancy and another 38 week gestation. i found out both the kids have my condition too and decided i couldnt go through with another pregnancy. I was in a very unhealthy relationship and to be honest i have never been a broody person or that baby minded. I love my kids( all four of them) to the ends of the earth but no more for me. so i got my tubes clipped.
then i end up with my current partner who i have know for years but just thought we were friends. and WOW, i have never felt this way. about him or about wanting to have someones child. so after much discussion and visits to various drs we are going to get me un-clipped! im sure we are mad but we are going to do it anyway. we had booked to have the reversal done on the 30th march but we did some sums yesterday and im calling today to see if we can re book for the end of jan instead. super scared and super excited. so thats us.
hope you guys are well. x