Thanks for the encouragement Ladies! Lately I just feel like I am struggling to be hopeful. With the news about this insurance I just feel so defeated. I get stressed and angry and my heart hurts most of the time. I think about the situation I find myself in and it seems hopeless even though I know in my heart it isn't. My husband has been researching jobs all night. He is going to try to switch phone companies to a state that mandates fertility coverage even though there are always little clauses to every insurance. His current insurance covers NOTHING. I didn't get the information today but I am gonna call the insurance company tomorrow to ask straight out so as there is no doubt anymore. It is blah! I am trying to be patient and I have decided to keep the job for sure temporarily until we decide for definite what we will be doing. If my hubby is looking for a job in a different state, we will be saving for baby first and land second.. So many what ifs.... You are right, Fluter. I want to give up a lot somedays but I know I won't ever. Probably not even when I am technically too old. I will still be trying if I have not succeeded. I will never quit, but dang if it ain't hard sometimes.. Cupcake, you are right. We only can give up or keep on trying and like you, I want a family with my husband more than any desire I might ever have to quit.
Hope your cycle is successful, Key!
Jen, I am sincerely glad you are pregnant. I can honestly say that only some people that are pregnant really bother me in an angry way... Most pregnancies only affect me in a sad, 'I wish that was me' way.. It's normal for us girls still waiting to feel jealousy, but there is (imo) a healthy jealousy and an unhealthy one.. I have only healthy jealousy for your new pregnancy and a thousand prayers for you and baby..
The bestie and I are discussing our contingency plans.. God-willing, I will know more tomorrow.