Fluter, I am sorry about your friend. Things can happen so fast.
I am ready for this to be done. My husband told me last night that I should just pretend like we are going on vacation since there is nothing I can do to change the outcome of what will be. I am not doing too bad at that this morning. Of course I am obsessing stupidly about ovulating despite the meds, but I figure that's just natural fear. Even if I did, I would just have to wait a little longer to try again.
We leave for our appt at 4 am. I have quite a bit of last minute things to finish up. I gotta pack all my meds, our clothes, get my son and brother some stuff for while we are gone.. I thought this day was gonna take forever, but here it is already.. I really believe that we are going to succeed this time. Not sure why I feel that way. As it is getting closer I am tempted to ask for three embryos, but I know that is because of my fear of failure because I don't want three.. I wish I felt as nonchalant as the hubby acts. If he is nervous he sure hides it well as I want to cry and pray until it's over.
I have one more dosage of Gonal F tonight and then my ultrasound tomorrow to check follicle size. I believe I will have to trigger tomorrow evening. Yesterday my ovaries hurt pretty good and my lower belly feels heavy and full and walking seems to make me a little short-of-breath. I figure that's normal though. Since I don't have any idea how many follicles are there, I am in the dark really. I have to say that I don't like that part.. I can't imagine that the stims have not done their job and I figure that my eggs are ready just by the way I feel. I just am praying the Lupron doesn't fail me and it holds off the release--but whatever I guess. I don't really have any plans for after the retrieval. I got our hotel room until Saturday. I am supposed to work next Monday night, I gave away my shift on Tuesday and Wednesday and I still have my Thursday the 17th shift even though I won't be working it. I know that the IVF itself is a piece of cake even though I have bruises on my belly and it's so tender from all the shots. The thing that makes me cringe about all of this emotional struggle is the testing and the weeks afterward. The IVF is easy compared to the tww I have coming up.
I am glad that my husband will be able to be there for more days this time. He won't be there for the transfer though, but I will not be coming home until the next day unless I can get someone else to drive and my son doesn't have enough practice yet to drive in horrid Jersey.
All I know is that here I am on the eve of another try and I am grateful to God that I get to be here. May He give us a bigger family.
Brandy, the last ivf I had the trigger shot and it stayed in my system for 14 days I believe... I know it was a horrible long time. I guess I could test it out but it might take a bit..
I think I will buy about 7 tests and start testing on Friday the 18th. I figure my transfer will be around the 15th if I get to go 5 days.
Also Fluter, the doc says he does mainly 5 day transfers unless he and the Embryologist decides that a 3 day would be better for the eggs that might not make it to 5 days. I am praying to be able to do a 5 day this time.
yesterday was 2yrs since my dad was killed. .. being pregnant and dealing with all i am makes me very bitter and depressed. I deactivated my fb and have been staying to myself. Part of me wants to be selfish and cut KJ and his family off completely. I have learned real fast they only care about the baby and could care less about me. My mom had eye surgery again and things haven't gone how she hoped even though its only a week out. She has been really depressed and its hard to be strong when i have no one to be strong for me. I just really dont know how to handle things right now and that makes me feel even worse 
