I considered driving, but it only cost 362 dollars for a round-trip plane ticket and there was no way I was gonna get by with paying that little driving from Pennsylvania.
I guess I can call and ask about the meds, but it's such a hassle. I have decided to take all my medical records with me. I was definitely considering not doing it, but I realized that if I wanted a full chance, I had to be fully honest with myself and the doctor. I decided not to hide my fertility history that way he can read and see what the other doctor's recommended and go from there. I have felt better since I decided. I have only been on the birth control for three days now and I have felt some pretty yucky side-effects. I stay hot. At night I am as hot as Hades itself. I get little wonky headaches throughout the day. They make me nervous, so I stay more active than I normally am. They make my personality more snappy than usual. I have only 18 more days of the nasty things.. I think sometimes I am glad that I no longer have any tubes cause I don't have to worry about birth control after IVF. I turned 37 this year though so I sometimes feel my age for sure. I have been keeping a daily journal. The hubby is so nervous about the trip. He says he isn't half as nervous about the success as he is me being there by myself for so long. Personally, I am excited about the trip cause it brings rest, rest, rest.. I am nervous about the doctor, but not at all nervous about the results as we have decided to keep going with this doctor until we succeed. IVF is such a gamble. I suppose it's a matter of how much you're willing to gamble on your future. I would be grateful to have twins so I would not be tempted to try IVF again, that's for sure.. The hubby definitely wants two babies. I would be content with one. I don't talk to anyone about it but you guys... My Mom is definitely against me having babies at 'my advanced age'. and the hubby's family is still riding his exes crack, so they will never be a part of our kid's future--- which makes me a bit sad cause people are so silly, I think. Whatcha gonna do though but keep walking forward?? I am excited about the future we are building cause I have definitely worked and worked to be here. I also am somewhat selfishly glad that me and the hubby and my son get to reap the rewards of our sacrifices. A baby/babies is a great joy..
I have rambled on and on again. I think I show my nervousness with talk. I never talk so much until I get nervous.
How's that blood pressure doing now, LLawson?
I would love to tell everyone about a pregnancy and shout it from the rooftops, but after that fiasco last October when I was sure there were no tubes to have another tubal, I got side-shot and I don't want that to happen again in my future. I decided to wait until after we know what we are having and the first trimester is over before we say anything to anyone. I want to have the Harmony test too.
Hope all of you are well!
I will try to stop in once a week or so. I am thinking about everyone! Praying. Especially for you, Navy!