Babyseal - you should totally start looking at some of your old, recent or any photos you've taken and see what you find.
I just didn't want to be nosey, kwim. But, i thought i remembered you saying that you were on your own now. It sounds like your doing great, atleast in your post, so i'm guessing it was the right decision and your happy... Men just suck sometimes! I love OH but, there are times i really miss the old days of living on my own.... ahhhhhh, memories..... Lol.