Ultimate Venting Thread 2

[mindyb85]

Army Im so sorry. Dhs can be such arses.sometimes. mine can be so wonderful one minute and then a total douche the next. Tonight he bluntly stated,"God, I hate sleeping in the same bed with you." I told him, "wow hun, you are so good at hurting my feelings sometimes." He didn't say anything.I'm already having a crap time because I'm supposedly 14dpo temp is still up and total bfn's. Solo frustrating. If they only knew how much the stupid shit they say sometimes affects us. I just want to cry but then dh will probably tell me to stop being a baby.

 

[xxshellsxx]

GGRrrrrrr My referral went to FS 6 weeks ago, was told when i rang for appointment, they would call me back within 6 weeks to give me an appointment ... if they didn't call ring back on 9th July to ring them again! Rang on the 9th, women said 'did they not send you out a pack?' ERM well obviously not if i'm ringing you! She put me through to FS nurse... no answer but had to leave a message on a dodgy answering machine with no clear 'after the beep' beep! No call back! So rang Tuesday... left another message after finding what i think is the beep! Still no phone call!! I'm getting pissed off now! Will try again this afternoon and see what happens! My local hospital FS is useless!!!

 

[xxshellsxx]

hahah she must have heard me moaning about FS service! Rang again and got through to FS nurse!

We've had a long chat on the phone, talked through all my previous results and she agreed they were great and although my BMI is high (i am trying to do something about it!) they are still willing to do a HSG once i've met with them and had my initial appointment and any tests i'm missing! Finally some good news for me can't do a laparoscopy because of my BMI. Also the do to a point recognise LPD and will check lining of womb during LP via ultrasound... finally feeling that something positive is happening!

 

[xxshellsxx]

EDIT: Sorry just realised this post violates our T&C of venting thread...

post removed so we don't get locked down again!

 

[Armywife84]

Thank you ladies, it's most appreciated!

DH/OHs are just thoughtless at times! If only we could conceive asexually.

Shell- Thank you, we certainly want to keep this thread!

---Rant---

-DH is having a better attitude towards me, partly because SIL won't be there. Thank goodness. Due to the fighting, we've barely got it on this month...there goes this month and what little chance I had. Next month will be a failed cycle as well, because he's away for training the whole week of ovulation.

-And I'm already at my 6 month after lap and dye.

 

[wannabeprego]

@Army, Your welcome hun!!! I am sorry that this cycle and the next are looking like they might be a bust!! Big hugs to you!!! Fingers crossed you get lucky and get a surprise BFP!!

I have made some progress and I have my surgery consult scheduled for 07/31/12. Unfortunatly my old female DR left the practice and I had to pick a male DR at the practice. I was disappointed because I liked my old dr, she as very nice and I was comfortable with her, I went through all of that awful infertility testing with her so I was comfortable with her. I am not very comfortable with a male DR doing the gyno type stuff, but I have limited options since I need an infertility specialist that participates in my health insurance plan. So right now I am trying to find a way to be okay with it, the DR's background is very impressive though and he is very experienced.

I am hoping to schedule my hysterscopy to remove my polyp from my uterus and the lap to unblock my possibly blocked second tube in September if i can. My infertility DR's office is very busy and is always booked out a month in advance for surgeries. I have been putting it off trying to make sure we had enough $$ to cover the out of pocket costs and we now have a little savings and i am working so i think we can afford it!! Plus my deductible has been met this year so i want to knock this out before next year!!

 

[Armywife84]

Wannabeprego- I'm glad you're able to move forward!

Rant (non-baby related)

I HATE Royal Mail! My parcel should've been here already, and I emailed Harrington & Squires (in London, anyone familiar with them?) to see if they sent it off. They said it was put in the post on June 25th. Although, they didn't bother emailing the status or telling me what class it was sent, or maybe even a tracking number.

I don't have time to be bothered with this; I just need my parcel I've already properly paid for!!

 

[vermeil]

Hello!

I`m new-ish to this section and boy do rants seem appealing now that we`re ttc again. I`ve read this whole thread with interest and head nodding

We`re only 9 months in but as I`m sure you know it feels like a lifetime...

so for a rant... so much to say I wouldn`t even know where to begin so I`ll just go with

AAAAAAAARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHUH.

There, feel a bit better.

 

[Armywife84]

Hello!

I`m new-ish to this section and boy do rants seem appealing now that we`re ttc again. I`ve read this whole thread with interest and head nodding

We`re only 9 months in but as I`m sure you know it feels like a lifetime...

so for a rant... so much to say I wouldn`t even know where to begin so I`ll just go with

AAAAAAAARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHUH.

There, feel a bit better.

Seeing as you're over 35, you unfortunately qualify as a LTTCer. Sorry to see you here, as no one wants to be here!

HOWEVER, you've chosen a fab thread...as we need a safe place to rant. We're secondary IF friendly. Plus we accept all sorts of bitching (baby or non baby related). Just let it out!

 

[wannabemummyb]

Vent from me: af is two weeks late, so tested this morning BFN. I am so stupid because i let myself have just a little glimmer of hope! Now i just have to play the waiting game to see if af turns up! My longest cycle has been about 120 days.... I'm on cd 50 something today... So whats the betting af makes an appearance at my wedding!

 

[babygames]

It's like she (AF) really knows how to ruffle our feathers!

 

[Armywife84]

RANTs:

-WTH am I bloated at 2 weeks? Must be all that water I'm drinking; just trying to stay hydrated.

-I also let my job know today that I need to cut down hours to focus on uni this fall (get my DH's gi bill sorted as well) and they give me this guilt trip!! Ugh, I should've just gave my notice and tell them to shove off!

 

[Armywife84]

Rant:

Co-worker brought in her 3 day old newborn. I tried to stay away, pretending I was saddled with work and she brought the infant over to me anyways. Of course, I had to fake smile and pretend I was thrilled for her. It was so uncomfortable for me. I just wanted to run and hide.

Truth is I am happy for her, it's just that I get really anxious and start to panic when I'm faced with a newborn. I keep thinking that should've been me by now, and I should be sharing new mum tips with her..but it's not.

 

[xxshellsxx]

Rant:

Co-worker brought in her 3 day old newborn. I tried to stay away, pretending I was saddled with work and she brought the infant over to me anyways. Of course, I had to fake smile and pretend I was thrilled for her. It was so uncomfortable for me. I just wanted to run and hide.

Truth is I am happy for her, it's just that I get really anxious and start to panic when I'm faced with a newborn. I keep thinking that should've been me by now, and I should be sharing new mum tips with her..but it's not.

I can relate to that I really struggle to be around newborns too x Was caught off guard today, went on a home visit for a new service user... petted the lovely big old english sheep dog, said hi to all the people on the way in... to see a 6 week old baby asleep on the living room floor on a blanket Made the right noises that your supposed to around newborns and got out as quickly as i could!

RANT TIME: I've technically been made redundant as of 31st August, but have applied and got a job within the restructured service. The WHOLE process has been a shambles since last NOVEMBER when it started... to be told today by the new manager our terms and conditions are not going to be what they were told because it doesn't suit her basically! When i met her last week i wasn't keen on her.... now i really don't like her! I'm fighting mine and my colleague's corner but i really don't think we're going to win! Might have to start looking around and give up a career i've worked bloody hard to get, because she's a control freak!

 

[smallstar]

Newly pregnant friend, who i have been smartly avoiding like the plague since she told me, decided yesterday to send me a photo of her 12week scan saying say hi to our baby!!!! I just replied saying congratulations! How lame am i or what!??!
I just felt physically sick when i saw the picture I HATE feeling like this towards her and despite how much i try and convince myself im ok with this im not Its so hard to be GENUINELY happy for her when inside i just feel resentful, angry and really sad.

Life SUCKS and i am quite frankly getting really pi**ed off that its not happening to me!!!!! Grrrrrr

Feeling MASSIVELY sorry for myself at the minute yuk
x

 

[Mrssykes]

Hi all! I was so excited to find this thread! I have read every single post intently while feeling like I could instantly be best friends with you all! Wish I had found it earlier in the month when I was in the midst of Provera hell and had an all out breakdown while on the freeway, yes I was driving and had to pull over, poor dh never saw it coming. Here I am 4 days after stopping provera and no period in sight, spotted every day while taking it and a few after an now nothing. I fear I missed my window to start clomid.

*Rant*

As if seeing bump pics and ultrasound scans on fb isn't enough, I can't stand to see one more huge conversation about which carseat is best, how long to keep your child backwards facing and which stroller makes your life easier. And it always happens on posts that don't start out that way. Somehow a picture of a new car turns into, "What brand carseat do you have?" and 90 posts to follow. And of course this is initiated after I have responded with something relative, silly me.

Ahh, much better!

 

[Hanawanabump]

Soooo happy to see this today!!!

Firstly..........

I have woke up in a terrible mood today, started last night when yet another pregnancy was announced, the worst kind...one night stand...and they complain about it...oh and she also is still smoking during the pregnancy because "why should she give up, its hard!"!!!

I'm sitting in work completely on the edge, hoping no one asks my if I'm ok because I might break down in tears!!

 

[BearsMummy]

Urgh, just had to change my age in my siggy to another year older, another year with no bfp.

 

[tamithomas]

I can or I should say I will be facing the same akwardness as of in 5 weeks. A friend of ours got pregnant by accident with her bf and she's only 18 and we live in a very small town therefore bumping into people is not uncommon. I dread having to see her LO. I'm getting emotional just thinking about it

 

[Armywife84]

Smallstar- I cannot understand why you need to say, "Hello!" to an ultrasound scan. How ridiculous! It sounds like she was trying to brag.

Welcome, MrsSykes!!

to everyone who needs them!

I'm sorry, but if it's not mine (or my LTTC mates) BFP, then I don't much care. Sounds downright bitchy, but it's the truth.

Rant:

Not much to bitch about today. We're traveling to DH's parents for the next 3 days. I'm not really excited to enter their home with grandchildren pictures plastered all over the wall. Plus, (and I do love my niece) my 2 year old niece is going to be there. It's just hard to be around her at times. I'm sure I'll manage and be back on here to vent about whatever rude comment (regarding IF) MIL came up with this time.