Feck, AF has not shown up. She has to come today. Come on already!
I hate this. Now, I want to test but I know it will be negative. There's no way I'm one of those women who get lucky after their lap. I have shitty luck!
Any news, Army? I've been thinking about you a lot...I so hope this is it for you.
My rants:
Another fb post about how a woman who is barely out of her first trimester is so huge and her belly "doubled in size over night" followed by a big UGH. Really, ugh?! You should be so friggin happy that you have that belly. What the hell did you think was going to happen to your belly when you got pregnant? Are you that ignorant that you thought nothing would happen (and yes...this is the same girl that said she wants her "skinny b*tch body back") Stop complaining and be thankful for your wonderful blessing!!!!!
We had a breakfast this morning for a woman who found out the sex of her baby yesterday. I walked into work today hearing her yelling out to everyone that she saw, "its a girl!" I know she is excited and has every right to be, but this has been a really hard week for me and it isn't how I needed my Friday to be.
My best friend, who was a leap year baby, committed suicide 2 years ago. His birthday really hit me hard this year, I guess because of the hype of leap year and knowing he would have "actually" had a birthday this year. I was able to stop him from committing suicide when he was 16 and still have so much guilt for not being able to help him 10ish years later. I know it's not my fault, but I have really bad phone anxiety and am really bad about keeping up with my friends. If only I wasn't so afraid to pick up the phone and call someone everyone once in a while, it might make a world of difference.
My students have been awful lately and I have been so snappy and short with them...they are only 6! I feel like a crappy teacher. Not to mention I am having one of those funks where I feel like a crappy wife, sister, daughter, friend, person, etc... Get me out of this funk!!!
Going to my parents' house this weekend to help them renovate their kitchen. I really don't want to be surrounded by family right now. I love my nephews and neice, but just don't have the emotional stability to be around them right now. Not to mention my family is going to be asking me all about my IUI and how I feel, etc. (I had it last Tuesday, so I won't know anything for a few more days but I doubt I am preggo. I don't have any symptoms except for crazy acne, which I know is just stress
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Sorry...like I said, it has been a really rough week