Ultimate Venting Thread

[wonderstars]

Bah, somedays I wish I could be more positive (my husband says I'm too negative) but it is really really really hard to do!

We did everything right this cycle just because we knew if any cycle would be it, it would be the one with clear tubes! If things don't go my way the next month or two I am just going to break down, I feel it coming near. It breaks my heart that I can't even join my girlfriends for a get together next week because they're all pregnant or have babies! These are my closest friends in the world and I still can't muster enough positive energy to put up with baby talk.

That's my sob story for tonight. Sorry but I just had to write it out somewhere.

 

[zanDark]

*rage*

so I tested on TWO internet cheapies last night and got a faint positive...EVEN posted pics in the pregnancy test section and had people tell me I wasn't seeing things...they saw a line too!! OF COURSE today when I tested on a brand name hpt and two more internet cheapies all I got was stark frigging white! I have never ever ever seen even a faint hint of pink on my ICs (except the one time I had a trigger shot and was testing to make sure it was out of my system)

why the hell does life have to be so cruel? why the hell would two IC's give a false positive????? I need a break! I'm going to take the next cycle off to chill out and stop thinking about babies and drink lots of wine.

I'm so mad at myself for letting my guard down and getting my hopes up!

*sigh* I feel better lol

 

[zanDark]

AAAARRRRGGGGHHHHHHHH at people being upset that they didn't conceive their 5th child on the 2nd try!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

 

[wonderstars]

zanDark, that would drive me up the wall. It's insensitive of me and I apologize in advance but for those on their 4th and 5th child complaining about having problems conceiving, I just have no empathy. It's mean and I do feel badly but seriously now.



Venting today about myself.

That stupid Salpingogram has given me false hope and I've fallen into thinking there's a chance I could be pregnant this cycle. Ugh, I've gone so long without thinking about a TWW but here I am again.

Just because a tube was blocked doesn't mean it's going to happen. I can't get that through my head. With my pre-AF spotting I can't even wait until NYE to test cause my body will tell me a few days before.

Why do I do this to myself?! I was doing well for soooo long in not symptom watching.

 

[PoasCrazy]

Af came today ! On Christmas ! On the day I was supposed to O ! Screw YOU Santa!

 

[NavyWife84]

zanDark, that would drive me up the wall. It's insensitive of me and I apologize in advance but for those on their 4th and 5th child complaining about having problems conceiving, I just have no empathy. It's mean and I do feel badly but seriously now.



Venting today about myself.

That stupid Salpingogram has given me false hope and I've fallen into thinking there's a chance I could be pregnant this cycle. Ugh, I've gone so long without thinking about a TWW but here I am again.

Just because a tube was blocked doesn't mean it's going to happen. I can't get that through my head. With my pre-AF spotting I can't even wait until NYE to test cause my body will tell me a few days before.

Why do I do this to myself?! I was doing well for soooo long in not symptom watching.

I am right there with you...I know I cant be preggo this cycle because I ovulated on the side that is blocked and the hsg didn't unblocked it. Buuut I still have hope and know I am still going to be a wreck when af comes around new years.

 

[EllieGoulet]

So sad that I'm a week from a year of trying. Maybe ovulated 3 times in the last 12 months, and to top it off, DH has no interest in me whatsoever (sexy interest) because he's too stressed. Which, you know, makes it hard. Well, harder

 

[CanadianMaple]

I'm seeing pregnancy announcements like crazy too. Since we found out that DH doesn't have any sperm, it seems like everyone who didn't want another baby is now pregnant. Yay.

 

[wonderstars]

8DPO and tiny amount of spotting.

$^()*%#)(*@

Why did I do this to myself. I am devastated. I am a chronic spotter, which my Gyne doesn't seem concerned about, but now I wonder.

 

[Lizzy444]

Crinone (progesterone cream-stuff), a prescription, has kept me from early spotting for 3-4 cycles. I wonder if it'd work for you.

 

[wonderstars]

Yeah, I think I'm going to have to push the issue a little more. My progesterone levels are great 7DPO but I still think they drastically drop after that point. I'm making an appt in the New Year and asking for a referral to a Fertility Specialist so I can start IUI, I think that's our best shot. There doesn't seem to be any indication that I should require IVF but one never knows.

Thanks for the info.

 

[Armywife84]

*WARNING after holiday venting*

1. My DH's lovely aunt made the comment, "Holidays are so much fun when you have LOs." Thanks a fecking lot Aunt Lena for reminding just how much I hate family gatherings because they're full of fertile people and their children!!

2. Non stop talk about baby Ava (fecking redundant name) who is due in Jan. Don't care and will scream if I hear about it one more time.

3. MIL just going on and on about my other SIL's toddler. It's evident she's ur fav grandchild, now stop talking about her 24-7.

4. Pics of my twin niece and nephew shoved in my face, plus a family photo. I can't stand my SIL, so why the hell would I want to look at photos of them?

5. Looking at the ornament of the grandchildren on the tree and a photo of all 3 of them. Thinking to myself next year they'll have to take a new photo because there will be a new baby added. Feeling sad that I don't have a baby to add to that photo.

Is this shitty year over yet?

 

[wonderstars]

Armywife, how utterly insensitive, wow. The shitty year is almost over, and no more holidays to have to spend with family. Hope the New Year treats us better.

Seriously, you need to post a video of you make the announcement to your family? Ugh. More on and off spotting, I'm going to go with my cervix is swollen from the invasive procedure so that's why I'm not pregnant this cycle. Blah. I really wish I hadn't waited the full year to begin all the testing, it's just been way too much waiting. I could have been referred to the FS already and ready to begin Clomid+IUI.

 

[wonderstars]

Someone seriously needs to knock some sense into me. I wandered into the TWW forum. Aaaahhhh. I am so angry with myself. I know not to do this.

 

[Armywife84]

6. BIL makes the comment he would text annoying pregnant SIL to tell her 2yr old twins birthday wishes but he doesn't know if she can text back. Seriously the beeyatch isn't paralyzed from the neck down, she's 8 months pregnant! I can't stand it when people treat pregnancy like it's some sort of disability!!

7. SIL sent a Christmas card to DH's parent's home when she has our home address. Of course it contains photos of the twins and a family picture. No apology note though. Whenever we get home it will make it's way to the bottom of a junk drawer of where I don't have to ever look at them again.

Wonderstars- Meh, even if I got "infetile" tattooed on my forehead the insensitive comments would just keep coming. Even when I bother to correct them, something even more rude comes out of their mouth. Such a losing battle.

Don't beat yourself up over it. I'm just now getting a lap and dye because I was trying to accept infertility. That and my gyno was hardly thorough. It happens, you have to give yourself time to digest the raw info before you move on to other treatments.

 

[Calasen]

so tempted to move to canada to get help after one year we are now 15 months TTC and our doctors wont help until at least 2 years. Despite me having PCOS and Endometriosis

 

[wonderstars]

so tempted to move to canada to get help after one year we are now 15 months TTC and our doctors wont help until at least 2 years. Despite me having PCOS and Endometriosis

That sucks. I haven't reviewed if the NICE guidelines relate to this but do they have indications about when you can have intervention?

 

[wonderstars]

I really should just start a TTC blog for all my ranting, lol. Today's rant.

How is it that the infertile nurse in the clinic (me) has to manage all the pregnant women?! Seriously. This isn't even intentional, I just happen to be managing them for the last 2 years.

And seriously, maybe the holidays are making me a witch but trying for 2 months is NOT LTTC!!!!!!!! It's quite insensitive to come into a forum where everyone is already down about having to go through yet another holiday season without a baby and have someone come in after 2 months.

I'm sorry but that's just the way I feel today.

 

[Calasen]

so tempted to move to canada to get help after one year we are now 15 months TTC and our doctors wont help until at least 2 years. Despite me having PCOS and Endometriosis

That sucks. I haven't reviewed if the NICE guidelines relate to this but do they have indications about when you can have intervention?

24 months of trying unsuccessfully they say yet all the stuff online and in the leaflets and guidelines say 1 year

 

[LaurenTCanada]

so tempted to move to canada to get help after one year we are now 15 months TTC and our doctors wont help until at least 2 years. Despite me having PCOS and Endometriosis

That sucks. I haven't reviewed if the NICE guidelines relate to this but do they have indications about when you can have intervention?

24 months of trying unsuccessfully they say yet all the stuff online and in the leaflets and guidelines say 1 year

That is stupid. I hadn't even started trying yet and the OB/GYN at the hospital diagnosed me with PCOS and immediately referred me to the FS. Seriously.. it took me one month to start receiving help. I am very grateful for the health care I receive.