I'm doing my polypectomy surgery tomorrow, which I will pay from my meager savings. I know I could battle it out with my insurance company or my ex-husband's but it could take weeks if not months. I feel so tired already, I have already lost a husband because of my infertility (yup, I lost him because of this! he would have been a great dad and I'm really the loser in this. Thanks to this polyp..)
Anyway, I don't know if he's ever coming back but I decided to just remove this nasty thing ASAP because TBH, I'm so angry with it, and I'm so angry with myself for TTC blindly for almost 3 years without looking at the possibility that I have fertility issues. I spent hundreds of dollars on acupuncture and alternative treatments when this could have easily been spotted by a simple pelvic exam. It was my fault, I dug my own grave.
My friends told me to stop blaming myself because my husband should have manned up and stuck with me throughout this, but our circumstances are extremely unique, being interracial and different cultures, and also the lack of support from his family. I mean, we always have great sex and that's something that sustained our relationship, but when we started TTC, at first it became more amazing, but soon, it turned to frustrations. The spontaneity was replaced with O-2, O-1, O and my hips on the wall. We avoided oral sex (because saliva kills sperm), no woman-on-top (because we don't want sperm to be going against gravity), and everything else... Plus everytime I get AF, I become so cranky towards him.
sorry, long, long rant!!!