Ultimate Venting Thread

[Armywife84]

Well had the ultrasound yesterday and the doctor's office just called to leave a voicemail stating that everything looked pretty normal, BUT there were follicles on both ovaries. So I'm waiting on them to call me back.

I don't have any of the symptoms of PCOS besides adult acne!! I have regular periods, the blood tests I had in '10 confirmed I ovulated..I've gotten positive ovulation tests (not every time, but just figured my ovulation window was short), and have plenty of CM. Just don't understand .

Now, I'm really upset because our chances of conceiving naturally are pretty much non-existent with my apparent PCOS and his not so great sperm. I might as well hang it up and accept the childless card.

 

[Skoer1360]

don't give up yet! There's always IUI/IVF!

 

[wonderstars]

Well had the ultrasound yesterday and the doctor's office just called to leave a voicemail stating that everything looked pretty normal, BUT there were follicles on both ovaries. So I'm waiting on them to call me back.

I don't have any of the symptoms of PCOS besides adult acne!! I have regular periods, the blood tests I had in '10 confirmed I ovulated..I've gotten positive ovulation tests (not every time, but just figured my ovulation window was short), and have plenty of CM. Just don't understand .

Now, I'm really upset because our chances of conceiving naturally are pretty much non-existent with my apparent PCOS and his not so great sperm. I might as well hang it up and accept the childless card.

Nope nope nope. No hanging it up. Follicles or cysts on your ovaries? Small follicles are good, they mean you're about to ovulate. They have to be 1 cm (or is it 2) cm to be called a cyst.

PCOS doesn't mean you can't have kids, neither does low/poor sperm. Assisted reproduction may be in your future but you know what? It's in many many of our futures, we can do it.

I written this awesome post replying to everyone last night and then the site wouldn't load and I'm too lazy to retype. In summary:

Hugs to all!

No rant today because I've been reading this amazing book about a woman's struggles with infertility. While she ends up childless not by choice, her frustrations are very well written and ring very true. It's called "Silent Sorority". I'll have to come back and post some bits of it.

 

[blueeyedgirl1]

This is my first vent in this thread, hope I'm not overstepping any boundaries?

I've had a shitty week.

Last Thursday my doctor found a lump in my breast. Spent all weekend super anxious and worried but thankfully found out on Monday it's nothing serious. But it really turned me upside down.

Last Friday had a call from the nurse, the bloods I had done for my FS referral weren't done properly and I had to come do them again...more delay in the referral. Had them done on Tue so hopefully by early next week the referral will be written. But my GP is leaving the practice so am really worried it's all going to be forgotten & not done.

On Wed I had my first CBT appointment and realised it's not going to be the miracle cure I thought it was going to be. Super downer and haven't admitted this to my OH yet...and probably won't.

With everything going on I'd tried to put TTC to the back of my mind a bit but yesterday morning it all crept into my head again and thinking about it all logically and realistically, it's not my month AGAIN. No point in kidding myself, I know my body well enough by now. But there's always that STUPID part of my brain which tries to keep my hopes up and it just leads to a rollercoaster of disappointment. I wish I could just accept it's not happened again this time, and I'll just have to wait for AF to show and start again and look forward to hopefully seeing the FS soon.

I WISH sooooo much that bit of my brain would shut up. No, I'm not pregnant. No, there's not "always a chance". Just no. Get over it, move on to the next cycle and LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!

 

[phoenixrose]

Well had the ultrasound yesterday and the doctor's office just called to leave a voicemail stating that everything looked pretty normal, BUT there were follicles on both ovaries. So I'm waiting on them to call me back.

I don't have any of the symptoms of PCOS besides adult acne!! I have regular periods, the blood tests I had in '10 confirmed I ovulated..I've gotten positive ovulation tests (not every time, but just figured my ovulation window was short), and have plenty of CM. Just don't understand .

Now, I'm really upset because our chances of conceiving naturally are pretty much non-existent with my apparent PCOS and his not so great sperm. I might as well hang it up and accept the childless card.

I hate it when they leave you cryptic messages without explaining it. I would be confused by that message. What cd were you scanned? You're suppose to have some follicles, it's when you have too many on both sides is when you might have PCOS. Plus you could have polycystic ovaries without having the syndrome, that's what I have. My body tries to start maturing too many follicles each month but all my bloods come back fine, I'm thin, don't have a lot of hair, and I do have adult acne but FS said it's nothing compared to those with PCOS. The only way they found mine was through a scan. But don't give up there's still clomid and injectables with or without IUI. Right now I'm on my first round of injections, maybe I can give you some hope soon.

 

[phoenixrose]

Blueeuedgirl: that eternal hope really does suck at times. I especially hate it when I'm 13dpo, POAS got a bfn, have cramps, but AF hasn't come yet and I think "well the isn't here yet, maybe I could still be pg?!"

 

[wannabeprego]

Well had the ultrasound yesterday and the doctor's office just called to leave a voicemail stating that everything looked pretty normal, BUT there were follicles on both ovaries. So I'm waiting on them to call me back.

I don't have any of the symptoms of PCOS besides adult acne!! I have regular periods, the blood tests I had in '10 confirmed I ovulated..I've gotten positive ovulation tests (not every time, but just figured my ovulation window was short), and have plenty of CM. Just don't understand .

Now, I'm really upset because our chances of conceiving naturally are pretty much non-existent with my apparent PCOS and his not so great sperm. I might as well hang it up and accept the childless card.

I am sorry you are having a ruff time hun.. Big Hugs to you hun...

Try not to jump to conclusions until you can talk to your DR's office to have them explain the results better to you... dont forget they mentioned things looked "normal"... As the other girls said it is normal to have some follicles during certain points of your cycle, so try to stay calm and dont worry yourself, although I know this is of course easier said than done... Please keep me updated and let me know what the DR says when they call you back about the results... I do think that if the Dr's office saw a problem they would of told you that they needed to speak to you and most likely wouldn't of said that things looked "normal"... hang in there hun...

This is a defination I found online for follicles..

"Ovarian follicles are the basic units of female reproductive biology, each of which is composed of roughly spherical aggregations of cells found in the ovary. They contain a single oocyte (immature ovum or egg). These structures are periodically initiated to grow and develop, culminating in ovulation of usually a single competent oocyte in humans. These eggs/ova are only developed once every menstrual cycle (e.g. once a month in humans)."

Also were you close to ovulation when you did the test.. them seeing follicles could mean you were getting ready to OV....

 

[Skoer1360]

Okay, rant for the day:

I'm the last of my original group of bnb ladies to get pregnant

this sucks

 

[wannabeprego]

Okay, rant for the day:

I'm the last of my original group of bnb ladies to get pregnant

this sucks

@SKoer, the same thing happened to me hun with a group I was on when I first joined the site over a year ago, so i feel your pain... Now they are all planning for baby #2, and here I am still trying to even get my BFP for #1, big hugs to you hun...

 

[wonderstars]

That sucks skoer. I'm the last of my group of friends to get pregnant, and these people I have to see in real life.

Rant:
Really? Is it officially "show your baby picture" day on Facebook? Seriously now. I don't even blame the girls. Grrr.

 

[StorkStalker]

Skoer.. I know it´s not much help.. but I really hope that means that your turn is next..
ArmyWife, have you had more info on the follicle thing?? I also believe that could be a sign that you were near OV time..

And yes, it seems like every day is global day of show your kid/pg belly on FB.. I barely get on there now.. It´s like walking through a mine yard.. pg announcements, delivery room pics.. birthday parties... One of my friends made her dog a fb years ago, so I was friends with this dog (stupid I know), and last week the dog announced he was becoming a big brother...

 

[urchin]

Here's my facebook plan (I've thought about this a LOT as you might be able to tell!)

Thing is - I like facebook....and I expect that if I am lucky enough to get my BFP, I jolly well will announce it.

But what I thought I'd do is this:
Put up ONE status about it with a comment underneath saying something like:
I know that a fair proportion of my friends have just groaned at seeing yet another pregnancy announcement - some of you I know are struggling to conceive, as I have - and others simply have no interest whatsoever in my breeding habits.
So, if you would like to be included in the group of people who will be able to see future baby related announcements, please like this statement
If you'd rather not, no need to do anything ... I'll just not put you in the group!

Then, all baby related posts will only be tagged to those who want to know - and those who don't can continue being updated on my baking and house related adventures, free from the worry of impending scan pics

 

[phoenixrose]

Urchin: that is very sweet of you to be so considerate.

Storkstalker: LMAO! That must have sucked to see that announcement but at the same time you have to admit, it had to of been kind of funny.

 

[Skoer1360]

StorkStalker: Ya, I hope it means I'm next too but I doubt it at this point...

Oh Urchin! That's such a great idea... I might just steal it because I know I will want to practically shout it from the rooftops when it happens (okay, like 8 weeks later lol) but I do know how much it sucks seeing them all the time when I wish I had a choice.

Also: Found out my freaking OBGYN is pregnant too (sil works at the womens clinic)!! wtf? Gah, I'm getting a man obgyn atleast then I know he can't get pregnant!

 

[urchin]

steal away Skoer - I thought long and hard about it, and it really was the best solution I could come up with, cuz I KNOW I will want to share scans pics and bump pics and how excited I am with the whole thing (if I'm lucky enough to get there!)

But I also know that right now I tend to hide pregnant friends from my newsfeed (I re-add them when babies are born ... for some reason I cope much better with babies than preggy ladies) so I want to give friends the option of not having to see all of the baby stuff if they don't want to - but still be able to keep up with other bits of my life

 

[wonderstars]

You OBGYN is pregnant?! Oh man, that trumps it all, lol. I'm glad mine is a 50-something year old man. I believe he also refers to the fertility specialist who is also a 50-something year old man. Thank goodness....

...who'd have thought I'd prefer men looking up my hooha?!

I have just been obsessed lately with this stuff. I think it's because my appointment is on the 14th and I'm itching for things to start. Turns out the clinic in my town is a 6 month wait which totally bums me out. I did find that a few ladies on another board got into see a FS in 1-2 months in the city south of me(3-4 hr drive). I am completely wiling to do that if it means I'm 4-5 months ahead of pace.

 

[Skoer1360]

You OBGYN is pregnant?! Oh man, that trumps it all, lol. I'm glad mine is a 50-something year old man. I believe he also refers to the fertility specialist who is also a 50-something year old man. Thank goodness....

...who'd have thought I'd prefer men looking up my hooha?!

lol, that's what I thought!

 

[urchin]

there is no dignity in this game - and odd how quickly you get used to having random conversations with people who are rootling around your chuff!

 

[phoenixrose]

there is no dignity in this game - and odd how quickly you get used to having random conversations with people who are rootling around your chuff!

LMAO!!!! So true. I've had that u/s wand up there so many times by now it doesn't even phase me any more.

 

[NavyWife84]

steal away Skoer - I thought long and hard about it, and it really was the best solution I could come up with, cuz I KNOW I will want to share scans pics and bump pics and how excited I am with the whole thing (if I'm lucky enough to get there!)

But I also know that right now I tend to hide pregnant friends from my newsfeed (I re-add them when babies are born ... for some reason I cope much better with babies than preggy ladies) so I want to give friends the option of not having to see all of the baby stuff if they don't want to - but still be able to keep up with other bits of my life

My best friend got preggers her first month trying and every once in a while she posts on FB. But most of the time, she just posts on her blog and then posts a link up on FB. I told her once that I couldn't promise to keep up with her blog as it is often too hard for me. Being the awesome person she is, she totally understands...well, maybe she doesn't understand, but she is totally supportive! She is really good at keeping up with the blog. While she was preggo, she kept up with it weekly. Now that the baby is here, she writes in it at least once a month. I always know when she posts a new entry on her blog because she posts the link on FB, but it isn't shoved down my throat. If I am having a good day, I read it. If not, I just ignore it. She will just write, "New post up on the blog, check it out!" I feel like this would be a lot less work than tagging people in posts all the time...just an idea to consider.