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[alicatt]

Ali. Dont know what happened to me tonight. Bread, food and magnum ice cream, like it was my last meal. I suffered from a faint headache all day. Thats how toxic my body is. Well I managed not to again any weight through the needles and stims. I was careful and drank water. I need to hold steady at least to Friday. Tomorrow is a new day!

Yep! Tomorrow is indeed another day. Here is hoping that you feel better! Drink tons of water, if you drink 8oz of water before your meal, you won't eat as much of it (or so I hear). I'm great with advice, but not so great following it Between all the hormones, my poor thyroid being messed up and the extreme fatigue I wasn't eating well at all. I did the deliver lean for the same reasons you are doing freshology. Mine only come from M-F though so I'm on my own on the weekends. I figure that is fine for me. I will be good during the week, and relax a little on the weekends. Hopefully stepping on the scale on Tues/Wed this week will show a loss.

I should hear about Zoe's lump tomorrow or possibly Tuesday. Here is hoping it is negative!!!

OK I'm really going to bed now.

 

[AngelSerenity]

Ali... I hope you get some good news today or Tuesday


Samsfan.... hormones do strange things eh? Don't worry about having a hungry day, we're all allowed them and like you say today is a new day . How are you feeling? Try and keep positive


Twiggers....ignore that random idiot on here . They are just jealous and how sad a life they must have to actually go trying to find you elsewhere. Your business is yours and stuff everybody else.


I was never maternal, I rebelled from any such thoughts my whole life. While all my school friends picked child care, human biology and lapped up being girls I picked technology, physics, maths, and going home on the back of guys motorbikes! My DH and I actually nearly spilt up before we got married as I was determined that I didnt want children and he did. And then I really dont know what happened, I think it was a pregnancy scare because my cycles were all over the place but like you it was like a switch being turned on and that's when it all changed......


Coy... I hope you are fighting those tonsil spots ok!, How are the rest of the family?


Chantal.... I think you are so right, ditch your OBGYN and get somebody who understands you and supports you. I think you are also right in waiting a few days, if anything it will help you and DH process things and come to terms with it. Please do take it a day at a time, I hope the next couple of weeks are gentle on you both. (And I am praying for that grasping chance for you too).


Well ladies, DH now knows. We were having a cuddle last night and he was asking me how I was feeling about losing my job and the whole situation etc etc. He then came off with the comment that we have each other and Kyan and it was just such a perfect moment to add in 'and maybe another'. His look was priceless, it took him a moment to process things so I took the opportunity to get him to agree no moaning or stressing me about the timing etc as I'm under enough stress thinking about it all. He agreed and then he had a big grin on his face . I am relieved I dont have to hide things anymore especially as I'm beginning to feel symptoms really hitting, all I want to do this morning is or .


Which in itself is bad timing as I have a 4-hour job selection assessment to attend tomorrow and I really need to study, fun and games today.....


Have a good day all x

 

[twiggers]

x

 

[alicatt]

Thanks Angel!! I was always around kids, but when I hit 18 or so I just decided it wasn't for me and I wanted to live my life. But then this past Christmas..bang!I think a lot of it had to do with my grandma dying and it pushed me to the "yes" side. Deep down I had been thinking about it for a few years.

I always knew I wanted kids, but figured I'd do what everyone else did. Find a guy, date, get married, have kids. Then around 36 I was like.. hmm.. no man. Then by 37 I was in a relationship with a guy and we talked about having kids, and we were living together, and I got a smiley on an OPK and I was bouncing off the walls. He looked at me almost with a look of disdain and was like, umm I'm not really in the mood. So I kicked him to the curb shortly thereafter. There were a few other incidents like him falling out of the boat into the lake (which was more funny than anything), but if you are going to be around me you have to be capable around boats, and not causing drowning incidents! The funny thing is that he's a merchant marine and lives on boats! But they are huge, not little run abouts, he wasn't good in small boats I guess Anyway it took me another year or so to realize that if I wanted kids I had to do it on my own. Then it took me some time to get up the courage to talk with my Dr, and get referred, and get financing (ie. speak to my family about it and see if they were on board). Then finally last spring I took the plunge and saw my FS.

I think it is perfectly normal to suddenly change your mind, I would just be mindful that kids are a lifetime commitment, in my opinion. If you bring a child into the world you have to be there for it, nurture it, provide for it, and help educate it so that he/she can have the best possible life. That is a big decision and I think often people don't think it through.

The sudden change could do with your grandmother, or your biological clock ticking, or a combination of both. In the end, you shouldn't listen to idiots like that guy that was ragging on you. You do what is right for you and your family, and dog, and just ignore whatever others say about it!

I'm sure a lot of people would be shocked and/or appalled that I'm a single woman trying to have children using a sperm donor. I really don't care what people think, because I know at the end of the day that any child I have will be loved, cherished, provided for, nurtured and given all the encouragement to grow up and be whatever they want to be! In the end that is all that matters

 

[Grey Eyes]

Hi ladies!

Twiggers- good to see you posting, I missed you!

Sams- try not to stress diet so much, or how much you are eating, that just makes it twice as hard. Maybe use that stress and discipline when you are grocery shopping instead THEN when you get tempted at home all you can eat or snack on is pretty healthy stuff. I try to shop smart but occasionally crash out and buy something like cupcakes lol....Anyways I had apple pie for breakfast which, despite the emoticon I slipped in here I don't feel sad at all about it Bad me, I know, but it's not every day....I cannot wait for your beta btw! Are you getting excited or are you stressing out about it? Please don't stress, (I know, you will anyways) try to be ZEEENNNNNNN....

Ali- wow, see, when a guy is suddenly not in the mood just because an opk shows positive you KNOW he's not ready for kids. The boot but good, eh? heheheh I knew I like you Ali! Btw keep us posted on Zoe!

Angel- glad you got a great opportunity to tell dh about it. And here is my honest opinion on being ready for kids or more kids...you'll never be ready Just flow with it!~ It all works out.

AFM- meh. Well, the spots are still there, one on each tonsil, but it's not getting worse Also- I have had like a bad sinus infection for the last few days and it was really painful last night and made my eye feel like it was going to pop put (tmi, sorry). But this morning the pain and pressure is all gone...so I am hoping my body is beating this already Makes me wonder if I have powerful NK cells like Ali...maybe that's why my last mc, Idk...but anyways dh has a doc appointment tomorrow and they say if he is not significantly better by then they are going to have him in the hospital for a few days straight on IV's...We are both stressed about it because neither of us want him to be gone that long or that sick and he's kinda crabby today because he is not seeing a marked improvement and I think he worries you know? Anyway I am stressing too but trying not to. That's why I am refusing this damned sickness, I can't afford it! I have to take care of my family you know? Argh. So I referred to an RN at the hospital and she said it was okay to take Echinacea while breastfeeding so I have been doing that I guess it's helping? I am rambling now (sorry) it helps my stress

 

[alicatt]

Coy - eek! I really hope you get over your sinus infection and spotted tonsils fast! I can totally understand you worrying, especially with your DH possibly needing to be in the hospital. You can't both be sick! Sending you my NK cells to fight it

Angel - so glad you got to tell your DH, and what a touching moment to do so as well. Now he's on board. I have good feelings about you and your job situation as well as your baby. I think that things are looking up for you! I can just feel it!!!

AFM - its been a crazy busy day!!! EEK! My family room and kitchen are all painted They look amazing! So happy Then I got a call from my electrician and he said he wanted to be here tomorrow I of course said sure that is great, but man. Why couldn't he have told me on Friday so I could go out and buy all the fixtures So then I called my FS office and they were like we need to see you today. NOW! AHH! So I had to run down there at 2:30 to get my baseline done. Everything looks great, my lining was 2.4mm, no cysts and I got the all clear to put my estrogen patch on By the end of the cycle I'll be wearing 4 patches, but right now I am to put 1 on. Then in 3 days I put 2, and then 3, etc. So that is all great!!!! Then I stopped to pick up all the fixtures and of course they were out of one of them so I had to go to a second Lowe's then I didn't like the light switches at Lowe's so I had to go to Home Depot too I'm finally home and now I have to put in another 2-3 hours of work that I missed earlier. All I really want to do is

Drumroll... Zoe's tumor was just fatty cells, and NO CANCER! So she is going to be just fine! So happy

So that is my update.. I'm going to post pictures of the new family room and kitchen on FB for those that want to see it! Course the kitchen will look better tomorrow after the new pendant lights are in and the under cabinet lighting is there. OHH.. can't wait. I will be so strange to be able to SEE in my kitchen at night! I won't have to wear a headlamp on my forehead

 

[Babywhisperer]

Coy - eek! I really hope you get over your sinus infection and spotted tonsils fast! I can totally understand you worrying, especially with your DH possibly needing to be in the hospital. You can't both be sick! Sending you my NK cells to fight it

Angel - so glad you got to tell your DH, and what a touching moment to do so as well. Now he's on board. I have good feelings about you and your job situation as well as your baby. I think that things are looking up for you! I can just feel it!!!

AFM - its been a crazy busy day!!! EEK! My family room and kitchen are all painted They look amazing! So happy Then I got a call from my electrician and he said he wanted to be here tomorrow I of course said sure that is great, but man. Why couldn't he have told me on Friday so I could go out and buy all the fixtures So then I called my FS office and they were like we need to see you today. NOW! AHH! So I had to run down there at 2:30 to get my baseline done. Everything looks great, my lining was 2.4mm, no cysts and I got the all clear to put my estrogen patch on By the end of the cycle I'll be wearing 4 patches, but right now I am to put 1 on. Then in 3 days I put 2, and then 3, etc. So that is all great!!!! Then I stopped to pick up all the fixtures and of course they were out of one of them so I had to go to a second Lowe's then I didn't like the light switches at Lowe's so I had to go to Home Depot too I'm finally home and now I have to put in another 2-3 hours of work that I missed earlier. All I really want to do is

Drumroll... Zoe's tumor was just fatty cells, and NO CANCER! So she is going to be just fine! So happy

So that is my update.. I'm going to post pictures of the new family room and kitchen on FB for those that want to see it! Course the kitchen will look better tomorrow after the new pendant lights are in and the under cabinet lighting is there. OHH.. can't wait. I will be so strange to be able to SEE in my kitchen at night! I won't have to wear a headlamp on my forehead

Hi everyone!! Ali this is great news, I have been following your posts and I am happy to hear the cut little pup is going to be ok. How is the rest of your amazing journey going? I must say that everything you have posted has really informed me for my next step.

Coy - the white spots, are they coxsackie (sp?)? I know it goes around schools as it's very contagious. I remember having it when I was little and swallowing hurt like hell. I hope you get better. As for dh, maybe a few days out of the house will help him, let alone the IV will do wonders, When I had Lyme the IV checked the bacteria faster than oral antibiotics. I hope he gets better soon. In the meantime you need your sleep and nutrition to stay healthy for yourself and your family.

Chantal, my heart breaks for you. When I read about your bfp I was so thrilled for you and felt like "yes good things do happen to good people". This is not the end of your journey. My friend just gave birth last Friday to twin boys with donor eggs. She had a chromosomal defect that prevented her from carrying past 1st trimester. Needless to say she had many mc's and heartbreak, but her and her dh are on Take your time in going for the d&c, and definitely get all those tests done beforehand. I will say a prayer for you.

Angel, congrats girl!! I don't know how you kept it from dh for so long! I suck at keeping stuff from my dh and have no poker face whatsoever! I hope you get past the and asap. I look forward to hearing all about your pregnancy.

Samsfan, I am so curious how your journey has been?? Your attitude is inspiring. Any tips or insight for me? Stay patient and don't drive yourself crazy with early testing...try and keep busy.

Hi Twiggers I am 37, dh 35 and we have been trying to conceive since the Summer, but ntnp for the year+ we have been married. His morphology is 5%, count 90 million, motility 55%. My FSH was 7.8, AMH was .47 in Dec but after a lot of acupuncture and herbs it jumped to .79. I went to a RE in Dec and she placed such an urgency on our stats, highlighting my AMH and DH's morphology. I have since received a second opinion from Cornell in NYC and they said they look for a minimum of 4-5% morphology...they were not as concerned with that figure. When they did a u/s the RE even said the follicles he saw suggested a higher AMH than .47 so he retested me.

We have decided to try IUI with injections of Gonal-F. I am currently waiting for AF today or tomorrow so I can go in for my baseline u/s and blood and start that night with injections. I felt that at the very least we could try a less invasive approach before IVF and they can see how I stimulate. I don't know what to expect other than what the class I took said. I would love for this to work, but I have a feeling it won't. If it doesn't we will have to decide where to do IVF since the RE on LI while disorganized staff seem not as caring and not as compensated like at Cornell, they participate with Attain so it would be more affordable and put less pressure on me if the 1st cycle doesn't work. I do have a better feeling about Cornell though. They are a well oiled machine, thorough, and had me pre-authorized, meds ordered and delivered from Freedom Pharmacy 24hrs later. We'll see.

I have missed you all so much, but while debating what to do I felt that staying off BNB kept my mind quiet and emotions steady to make a decision. I hope all of you aren't upset that I have been MIA.

Speaking of....where is Jess??? How are you graduate?

 

[alicatt]

BabyWhisperer! OMG! So happy to hear from you

I'm so happy you got your second opinion, and have made a step forward. I think it makes the most sense to do an IUI with meds to see how things go. This way you can test out how your body does without spending the big bucks. See how it all turns out and if necessary cross the IVF bridge at that point in time.

As Sams can attest, it is not much fun. It's definitely challenging to try to do this incognito work-wise, and still make all your appointments, and acupuncture and well I'm sure you have seen all that I've gone through! So this is a really good start

We all miss you on here, but I can understand how it can be difficult to chat with us every day, I kind of think I'm addicted LOL. So do what you need to do, and there is even a Gonal F board I have posted on in the past for women doing IUIs with Gonal F. I did find it helpful to discuss the different stages of the process with others, and ask them about different things as they came up along the way. There is only so much your FS will tell you, or their nurses will tell you. Then the rest of it seems to come from research on the NET or forums! For example, crinone sounds like a great thing to use, you just squeeze the tube up there, and instant progesterone near your uterus! Well, it can cause cramping, and spotting and it turns into this vaseline type goo. Which I would not have known had I not been on BnB! So my suggestion is to take it day by day.. if you have questions ask!! We won't be offended if you don't follow all the posts daily.

Thanks for the well wishes about Zoe, she is my baby (even if she is a fur baby) but she is very special to me

I'm happy and encouraged that you have a great team at Cornell. The IVF board has mentioned it several times and have only great things to say about it. So if you can swing it financially, I would stay there. I think Sams can attest to some issues she has had with another clinic in the area? I think she said she almost cancelled her IVF because they screwed up her meds order. So I would definitely ask her about her experience and where she was.

Ali

 

[Babywhisperer]

BabyWhisperer! OMG! So happy to hear from you

I'm so happy you got your second opinion, and have made a step forward. I think it makes the most sense to do an IUI with meds to see how things go. This way you can test out how your body does without spending the big bucks. See how it all turns out and if necessary cross the IVF bridge at that point in time.

As Sams can attest, it is not much fun. It's definitely challenging to try to do this incognito work-wise, and still make all your appointments, and acupuncture and well I'm sure you have seen all that I've gone through! So this is a really good start

We all miss you on here, but I can understand how it can be difficult to chat with us every day, I kind of think I'm addicted LOL. So do what you need to do, and there is even a Gonal F board I have posted on in the past for women doing IUIs with Gonal F. I did find it helpful to discuss the different stages of the process with others, and ask them about different things as they came up along the way. There is only so much your FS will tell you, or their nurses will tell you. Then the rest of it seems to come from research on the NET or forums! For example, crinone sounds like a great thing to use, you just squeeze the tube up there, and instant progesterone near your uterus! Well, it can cause cramping, and spotting and it turns into this vaseline type goo. Which I would not have known had I not been on BnB! So my suggestion is to take it day by day.. if you have questions ask!! We won't be offended if you don't follow all the posts daily.

Thanks for the well wishes about Zoe, she is my baby (even if she is a fur baby) but she is very special to me

I'm happy and encouraged that you have a great team at Cornell. The IVF board has mentioned it several times and have only great things to say about it. So if you can swing it financially, I would stay there. I think Sams can attest to some issues she has had with another clinic in the area? I think she said she almost cancelled her IVF because they screwed up her meds order. So I would definitely ask her about her experience and where she was.

Ali

Thanks lady! They gave me progesterone suppositories that I am supposed to start the day after IUI. I've heard it's messy, but whatever helps I'm game for.

How's the house decorating going?

 

[alicatt]

Thanks lady! They gave me progesterone suppositories that I am supposed to start the day after IUI. I've heard it's messy, but whatever helps I'm game for.
How's the house decorating going?

I hear Endometrium (sp) is easier to deal with than the Crinone. The Endometrium dissolves better, but yes, it is definitely messy! I opted for the shots as they are covered somewhat by my insurance and after 6 months of doing this, the $400 savings was necessary for me! Plus I have done really well on the shots, my progesterone levels never seemed to be the issue. I do have a box of Endometrium and was told that if I do end up pregnant, that they will phase me on to them at some point?

The house is getting there. I've bought some furniture, and the paint is on the walls in the family room/kitchen YAY! Tomorrow the painter will tackle the huge front rooms (living room and dining room), and the electrician will be here to put in the new fixtures. Then I'm going to poke along on little things while I wait for my re-fi to be completed. I got news today that it was approved, so the next steps are verification of employment, and then the closing. YAY! I figure I'll wait until May to do the floors, and work on getting area rugs for my bedroom and office and buying Art and decor between now and then. Plus I'll be busy with Dr's appointments and family stuff going on between now and May. Never a dull moment around here!

Have you guys figured out your housing situation? Are you going to buy? What about that club membership?

 

[twiggers]

x

 

[Babywhisperer]

Thanks lady! They gave me progesterone suppositories that I am supposed to start the day after IUI. I've heard it's messy, but whatever helps I'm game for.
How's the house decorating going?

I hear Endometrium (sp) is easier to deal with than the Crinone. The Endometrium dissolves better, but yes, it is definitely messy! I opted for the shots as they are covered somewhat by my insurance and after 6 months of doing this, the $400 savings was necessary for me! Plus I have done really well on the shots, my progesterone levels never seemed to be the issue. I do have a box of Endometrium and was told that if I do end up pregnant, that they will phase me on to them at some point?

The house is getting there. I've bought some furniture, and the paint is on the walls in the family room/kitchen YAY! Tomorrow the painter will tackle the huge front rooms (living room and dining room), and the electrician will be here to put in the new fixtures. Then I'm going to poke along on little things while I wait for my re-fi to be completed. I got news today that it was approved, so the next steps are verification of employment, and then the closing. YAY! I figure I'll wait until May to do the floors, and work on getting area rugs for my bedroom and office and buying Art and decor between now and then. Plus I'll be busy with Dr's appointments and family stuff going on between now and May. Never a dull moment around here!

Have you guys figured out your housing situation? Are you going to buy? What about that club membership?

Wow your redecorating sounds awesome and like it's coming along nicely. Congrats on the refi, nothing like saving some $$ to brighten your day!

We have decided to wait until we know more about possible pregnancy. If we have to do IVF totally out of pocket, and how many times (praying it happens the first time) it could really eat into our house fund. I also don't want to buy if we end up pregnant with multiples as daycare here for twins and beyond is absolutely absurd. So I think it's wise to wait until we have some clarity. We did join the club as they rewrote some bylaws and pushed us through before dh's 35th bday to bring down the cost. It is a great thing for dh professionally and for us socially. There really was no backing out. I also waned another year at this job to see what happens with my desk and my industry as a whole. Who knows, maybe we decide to move to CO at the end of my contract....Lord knows it would be a more affordable place to live, but man I would miss the ocean like crazy...but we love to ski and they get so much sun there...and it's the 2nd happiest state!

 

[alicatt]

It is a great state. I will likely move back there once I'm able to sell my house, but I don't see that happening for another 5-7 years.

I think you'll find that there are other things to do in the summer in CO. Hiking, rafting, biking, etc. You can also plan winter trips to the ocean or Caribbean!

It sounds like you and your DH are well on your way to figuring out your infertility issues and your housing issues! YAY!

 

[Grey Eyes]

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[alicatt]

Coy.. do you mean cephalexin? I think
that is for strep throat? I hope it gets to the bottom of the spots! You have all had too much sickness!

I'm glad your kiddies had a great time yesterday!

Well ladies I'm sooooo tired, me and the doxies are all going to sleep

 

[never_give_up]

Hello Ladies!

Angel what a wonderful moment that must have been when you told your dh. I am happy for you both and that you no longer have to keep it a secret anymore and let him share in your pregnancy with you.

Sam I am thinking positive thoughts for you Hang in there Friday will be here soon and we will all be doing a

Nice to have you back Babywhisperer

Ali- You must be so relieved that Zoe's lump was only fat cells and no cancer!!

Coy- Hope your throat is feeling better with the meds.

Phil- Give that beautiful baby girl of yours a kiss for me

Afm-yesterday The high risk OB did all the tests for auto immune issues like antiphospholid, anticardiolipin antithyroid and lupus anticoagulant antibodies. Also the APTT blood clotting test However she said they don't do the Thrombosis test like the Ab panel antithrombin 111 activity you recommended Ali. She did tick off everything else on my list and added a few more like MTHFR DNA analysis. They took 12 vials of blood lol. Well alot of the tests were the same as the ones the rheumatologists did which came up negative 3 years ago. We will see if I get some answers. I also went the the women's center for councelling because the Ob said I needed to talk with them since I was not mentally ready for d & c. They said I should not let my doctor pressure me into a d & c since I have not mentally accepted it yet. I still feel like I prefer to have this miscarriage naturally again.

 

[alicatt]

Hello Ladies!

Angel what a wonderful moment that must have been when you told your dh. I am happy for you both and that you no longer have to keep it a secret anymore and let him share in your pregnancy with you.

Sam I am thinking positive thoughts for you Hang in there Friday will be here soon and we will all be doing a

Nice to have you back Babywhisperer

Ali- You must be so relieved that Zoe's lump was only fat cells and no cancer!!

Coy- Hope your throat is feeling better with the meds.

Phil- Give that beautiful baby girl of yours a kiss for me

Afm-yesterday The high risk OB did all the tests for auto immune issues like antiphospholid, anticardiolipin antithyroid and lupus anticoagulant antibodies. Also the APTT blood clotting test However she said they don't do the Thrombosis test like the Ab panel antithrombin 111 activity you recommended Ali. She did tick off everything else on my list and added a few more like MTHFR DNA analysis. They took 12 vials of blood lol. Well alot of the tests were the same as the ones the rheumatologists did which came up negative 3 years ago. We will see if I get some answers. I also went the the women's center for councelling because the Ob said I needed to talk with them since I was not mentally ready for d & c. They said I should not let my doctor pressure me into a d & c since I have not mentally accepted it yet. I still feel like I prefer to have this miscarriage naturally again.

Morning Chantal!

I believe I had the MTHFR DNA analysis at a different time (that was part of my initial testing I think). The antithrombin testing is one of the indicators of a clotting disorder. I think your Dr is nuts, why wouldn't they want to test that considering both of your miscarriages had the presence of clots? I really do NOT like your OB, she sounds like a moron! I don't blame you for wanting to wait and I think you should do what you feel is right. The OB said to talk to a counselor about it, and you did and they affirmed that you are not ready to do the D&C. GEESH! Seems like a no-brainer to me!

What are the risks of waiting? Is that why the OB wants you to do the D&C? Are there higher risks of complications? Did you get another U/S? If not, I'd request one on Thurs/Fri then make a decision based upon that one as to whether you will have the D&C or not. I'm not familiar with the risks of waiting vs. the risks of the D&C, so I can't really help with that decision. However, I can't see how a few days to get your head around things and make doubly sure that there isn't a baby there is going to hurt anything

AFM - yes! I'm very happy that Zoe got a clean bill of health. Her blood work is perfect, and no cancer! She could stand to lose 1-2 lbs, but she cries when I don't feed her enough, so for now she will stay around 16.5-17 lbs. She looks pretty good to me, and is very active, the only thing that I could do to help her is to walk her more. That would be good for me too! So I will make a concerted effort to get out and walk them more.

Painting is going on now, and soon the electrician will be here. Then once these things are done, it will be a quiet time around here. Time to regroup and relax for a while. I will probably focus on my back yard and buying little things for the house (like art, and bedding, and stuff like that). Then once my coffers are filled up again, the floor will get done! Then after that I'll need to paint the baseboards. Hopefully I can get this all done before June!

My baseline went well, all is good, put my first patch on yesterday, now we just wait and see how things go

 

[never_give_up]

Wow Ali you have alot going on at your house! It is noisy here too. Remember the big hole in the road in front of our house the week of Christmas? Well they has to dig it up again today to fix the gas line again We don't have to pay for any of it but it is still so annoying. They have knocked on the door twice to go into the basement to the meter and gas.

Ob argued that it is not a clot in my uterus. She said that the radiologist should not have told me that because it is caused from the placenta detaching from the uterine wall and not from clotting. She said it is normal for blood to clot because that is what it naturally does. I think if none of the tests come back positive for anything we will just go ahead with looking for a donor with healthy eggs. An online friend from South Africa sent me this message and it makes alot of sense~

We have an Afrikaans poet......Totius........amazing! When his little girl was struck by lightning....and he saw it happen.....he wrote a poem about a thorn bush. About how when we, accidently get caught in one............we should not struggle, because the more we struggle the more we get tangled......the more it hurt. He wrote that questioning God is good..........we may do that........but the more we seek for answers.....the more we get tangled...........disappointments, impatience, despair even. I quite like the image............but still get tangled.
Hugs, darling..........don't ever give up hoping..........but take some time to be at rest in your soul.............so that you can hear God's voice...and may He comfort you in every way!

 

[alicatt]

Wow Ali you have alot going on at your house! It is noisy here too. Remember the big hole in the road in front of our house the week of Christmas? Well they has to dig it up again today to fix the gas line again We don't have to pay for any of it but it is still so annoying. They have knocked on the door twice to go into the basement to the meter and gas.

Ob argued that it is not a clot in my uterus. She said that the radiologist should not have told me that because it is caused from the placenta detaching from the uterine wall and not from clotting. She said it is normal for blood to clot because that is what it naturally does. I think if none of the tests come back positive for anything we will just go ahead with looking for a donor with healthy eggs. An online friend from South Africa sent me this message and it makes alot of sense~

We have an Afrikaans poet......Totius........amazing! When his little girl was struck by lightning....and he saw it happen.....he wrote a poem about a thorn bush. About how when we, accidently get caught in one............we should not struggle, because the more we struggle the more we get tangled......the more it hurt. He wrote that questioning God is good..........we may do that........but the more we seek for answers.....the more we get tangled...........disappointments, impatience, despair even. I quite like the image............but still get tangled.
Hugs, darling..........don't ever give up hoping..........but take some time to be at rest in your soul.............so that you can hear God's voice...and may He comfort you in every way!

Chantal,

That is beautiful!! It makes sense too! Well I'm glad you have made decisions (even if they aren't what the Dr ordered)! I find that once I have a plan in place, no matter how hard it is, knowing I'm on a path towards a goal I can do it. So now that you have set your mind to the testing and using donor eggs, the other, while painful will now be an ends to a means. Take the time to mourn, but with the knowledge that it will lead you to something positive. I hope that makes sense!

 

[never_give_up]

Thanks Ali I really think that I got a bfp and miscarriage so that we would stop hoping I can get pregnant naturally and just go ahead with egg donor. Now looking at my list of tests again the OB ticked the APTT blood clotting test but did not actually send an order for it. Maybe I can try asking the RE to do it. If he ever calls me back!!
So I know what the baseline is but what is the patch? It that what gave you the migraines last month? I hope not!