Oh my, Congrats WAVES on your
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First off, what a long weekend.. My TTC journey has been quite the difficult one. This rainbow baby is taking lots of work !!
Is anyone else an OPK addict?? I am having trouble figuring them out and they have made me become uber obsessive ! Is it true that it is a negative if the test line is not as dark as the control? I have had so many pinkish lines and they're so hard to distinguish. Thinking that I'm on CD15 and will test on the 11th (CD22/11 DPO) does that sound too early/late??
Also, (if it's not TMI again...lol) What does your CM look like around ovulation time? Any regular changes that I can note? Because this month I did NOT notice any of the egg-white type CM.. thought that was strange..?
This time around the whole TTC process has been just frustrating, to say the least..
Lastnight (sorry if TMI, but you all seem pretty open..lol) after some BDing I stuffed a blanket under me to elevate my butt
spermy
and Hubby says to me "There you go again, impregnating yourself". I ended up getting a little heated about it and ended up screaming at him saying "Why can't we BD every night?!! Is that too much to ask? It would make me feel better!!" It just seems like, with such an important goal, all the fun is taken out of it. It has kind of strained our relationship, me being so infatuated with timing and making sure I do everything I can to get my rainbow baby and I just wish it was a little easier.. And then there's the terrible feeling when its just a BFN after all you try and do that month ! Don't get me wrong, we're very happy.. it's just extra hard on us since it still such a delicate situation. Hubby feels bad, and says it makes him sad to see me stressing over OPK's and whatnot.
Sorry for being a negative nancy (I've always been a glass half empty type of person) I just needed to vent a little on this exhausting process !! On a lighter note, does anyone chart in a calendar/planner? I just ordered a cute pink breast cancer one online and I'm lovin it !!
(Although it may just feed my obsession..lol)
Anyways, lots of BABY DUST to you all.. and here's to a lucky JUNE !!!