We're all in this together!

[Excalibur]

Laura - Fingers crossed they will get me sleeping! Happy 26 weeks hunni xxx

Sarah - Thank you chick They were leaving me alone until yesterday, my advisor from my work program rang me, to cut a long story short, she was asking if she wanted me to let her ring them and try and persuade them to take me on etc. I was like to be honest, I don't know as it's a tough job to do in my condition, after that she seemed p'd off and told me to let her know what went on either way! Hope everything goes well with the surgery chick xxx

Pinky - Sorry to hear things are shitty for you hun, fingers crossed for pain free in a weeks time though I haven't heard anything back from the Hotel no She better not just expect me to turn up in the morning without any phone call or anything? xxx

 

[xXxJessicaxXx]

Hello ladie's,

Sorry not been on for a while, it was my fiance's birthday yesterday and havent had a chance to come on TBH. x x x

Laura the cake's are lovely hun. x x x

Sarah sorry to hear you've been in hospital hun, but glad your home. x x x

Natt Hope you've been resting hun x x x

Pinky, Hope op goe's great and makes you pain free hun, and if you was talking about doctor's its not untill tuesday 28th because my shity Doc's are always fully booked for a week or so. JOKE I know. Did have an app for blood work's, but gonna have to go hospital cause I couldn't make it to doc's this morning. It's not for TTC though there for my leg's as iv been having lump's coming up that go a little red then the redness fade's but the lump is so painful and tender. Now got them rising up my body had one on my lower back yesterday. Dunno WTF is going on but I will find out soon. Thx for asking hun. x x x

Kt hun, would be lovely to hear from you when your ready hun and in your own time, dont rush. Hope your ok sweetie, were alway's hear for ya and dont forget it. x x x BIG HUGS x x x

Hope everyone's ok. x x x

 

[Pinky32]

what is the point of pushing you into that job - is it the only job in your area? I understand they have to be seen to be doing their job but tbh if the hotel havent called you or the jobcentre to say you have the job then chances are you dont have it (meant in a nice way) - whats the point of her 'persuading' them to take you on when they know its a physical job that you will only be able to do for a short time

tell her to move her fat bum over and you'll do her job - better than her! lol

thanks natt - recovery will take quite some time but it will be great to be painfree - the main thing im hoping for is to be able to straighten my arm again and to be able to carry weight - like a cup of tea which i cant do at the moment

they wont know until the operation but chances are they will have to do a bone graft so there will be yet another scar (ive already got one from elbow to almost my wrist, three on shoulder from op in march) not sure if it will be from hip or thigh so that will be more discomfort but it is what it is

bloody accident - two seconds of not conentrating and so far has cost me 14 months of pain, lost my job, lost my brand new gorgeous mini that i loved, all my confidence, three operations, hundreds of physio appts, hydrotherapy and accupuncture

im definately getting my money out of the nhs lol

 

[Pinky32]

jess - has anyone got any clue what these lumps are?

how big are they?

are they like cyst lumps or hard lumps

 

[Excalibur]

Jess - Hope your OH has a lovely Birthday yesterday I have been resting as much as I can thank you hun, just the not sleeping is getting to me now. Ouch, those lumps sound painful chick, hope the hospital can find out what is causing them and treat them xxx

Pinky - You tell me hun, I think she just wants her commission for finding me a job, not the point though, they always tell us that they are there to help us, so stop pushing us into something we can't do!

I could do her job with ease lol! All it is, is sat on her bum, answering the phone, sending e-mails, looking for jobs for people etc, and I would't pressurise anyone into doing something they didn't want to do!

You're welcome hun The recovery time will be worth it in the end hun if you are pain free, fingers crossed you will be! Must be so frustrating not having full use of your arm

Ouch! Let's just hope and pray they get it right this time, there will be nothing left of you if they carry on messing it up! Bimey, you sure have been in the wars hunni, hopefully it's coming to an end now I don't blame you, get every penny you can out of them xxx

 

[Pinky32]

Jess - Hope your OH has a lovely Birthday yesterday I have been resting as much as I can thank you hun, just the not sleeping is getting to me now. Ouch, those lumps sound painful chick, hope the hospital can find out what is causing them and treat them xxx

Pinky - You tell me hun, I think she just wants her commission for finding me a job, not the point though, they always tell us that they are there to help us, so stop pushing us into something we can't do!

I could do her job with ease lol! All it is, is sat on her bum, answering the phone, sending e-mails, looking for jobs for people etc, and I would't pressurise anyone into doing something they didn't want to do!

You're welcome hun The recovery time will be worth it in the end hun if you are pain free, fingers crossed you will be! Must be so frustrating not having full use of your arm

Ouch! Let's just hope and pray they get it right this time, there will be nothing left of you if they carry on messing it up! Bimey, you sure have been in the wars hunni, hopefully it's coming to an end now I don't blame you, get every penny you can out of them xxx

not sleeping is the worst - i find im in so much pain at night that i cant sleep properly and the heat hasnt helped

i got myself a V shaped pillow and had the best nights sleep in agessssss last night

I wouldt mind but some of these pple think their god - telling you to apply for jobs that arent suitable - every time ive been to jobcentre for anything i find that im standing around waiting while they have a chat about what they did last night - apparently cos im out of work i have nothing better to do!

maybe next time you talk to her ask her if theres a job going there as it looks easy - that will shut her up

a hundred years ago i used to be one of the tutors when the jobcentre sent you on a jobsearch course - i had to go to college for 3 years to get qualified whilst doing the job and all i got was abuse from 80% of the 'clients' - she probably has a list of pple that shes responsible for and 90% of them dont want a job so by the time she sees you, shes in a bad mood

the reason im having this op is because they cocked up the first op - a leg specialist operated on me and this time its an arm specialist - they should have done a bone graft the first time as there is a gap of 6mm after they took out all the shattered bits of bone

my solicitor is talking about sueing the hospial as well as where i had the accident

its never ending

 

[Pinky32]

Jess - I keep meaning to ask - what does "citizen cope - sideways" mean?

 

[xXxJessicaxXx]

Lol Pinky your better then my doctor lol. Om Na they dont no what the lump's are but think that it could be some thing cant remember the name odd one never heard before, begin's with E and my nurse said that it can be nothink to worry about but it can be bad. But Iv heard load's of lump's in the leg's that are tender and have a red mark is cancer. I fucking scared. But I thought it might be DEEP VEIN THROMBOSIS because my uncle suffered and still is with it really bad but doctor said it defo aint that, as Iv also been suffering with HIP and leg pain, were my leg and hip goes stif for day's some time's week's and cant move it and the pain is unreal but she checked my hip's and said they seem fine, but I didnt have the pain at doctor's as it come's and goe's only had the lump's in my leg's. Shitting a brick but FX'd all is well and nothink bad. thx for asking sweetie. x x x

The Lump's are hard really hard but really tender and sometime's painful when moving or walking but that's when the really big and size just depend's some are small some are quite big, like for example so far as small as a Grape and as big as a big as my index finger but thicker then my finger. Quite bad I know but only the small one's are shaped like a grape the big one's are actually like a fat finger under my skin ...Rank I know, So im So SOrry if TMI. x x x

Natt thx hun, yer we had a lovely day didn't do much as we dont really have a baby sitter and to be truthful dont wanna leave honey with anyone anyway. It's not I dont truth anyone in my family it's just she's never been without mummy for NO more then a hour or 2. So dont really feel like leaving her, Im so bad lol I didn't even celebrate my 21st birthday all because my honey came first and I dont really drink TBH no my kinda thing. If you know what I mean, So we ment MIL's and had a laugh then came home and spent the night together on the sofa lol. Glad you've been resting sorry to hear sleep is shit, I know how you feel sweetie, Sleep was a bitch when I was pregnant lol, and honey only came alive at night, she was like a boxer in side my tummy lol. Alway's used to get cramping leg's though the night as well. Yep defo are painful hun and thx I hope so to. x x x

 

[xXxJessicaxXx]

LOL it's a song. I love it... Pretty much state's these feeling's wont go away and that's how I feel. x x x


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fqYUeX5T0V4&feature=fvst

 

[Pinky32]

No it doesnt sound like deep vein thrombosis - is it Erythema nodosum????

not always, but most of the time cancerous lumps are not painful - so dont worry about that - your doc will know at a glance if it was that

to me, the only way to get things done properly is to moan about it, when you see your doc dont leave until you are happy that something is being done, you have a right to be healthy so do whatever is necessary to be taken seriously and be seen

i know its easy to say, but try not to worry about it

 

[Pinky32]

oh thanks for the song - i didnt like it a the start when i was watching him but just listening to it, it was quite catchy lol

 

[Laura2806]

thanks pinky, I'll keep you updated with what the sols say fingers crossed we're close to the end now!

wow lots going on! Pinky they better get it sorted this time right?! I think your sols right about sueing the hospital too, its wrong what they fid at the end of the day and has cause endless amounts of suffering and the NHS a lot of money! Let us know how your doing after the op, once you can that is lol

Jess I hope they sort these lumps out, im sure its nothing to worry about tho

Can't listen right now cause im at shity work can't wait to finish!!! Xxx

 

[Pinky32]

laura the hardest bit is over - its just the waiting game now for all sols to get their act together and get papers ready and signed - it will happen soon xx

i am thinking about sueing the hospital - apart from mucking up first op, on the day of my accident(june) i was screaming about pain in my shoulder and it took them until december (!!!!) to arrange for a CT scan which i had in jan, in march they operated on it and found that i had a torn cartiledge, a trapped tendon and damaged nerves

the nerves havent healed themselves so im now taking medication to help the nerves as their so painful

the whole thing is a nightmare

i'll be one handed for quite a while after op but i'll let you know as soon as i can how things went

booooo @ being at work

 

[sarahuk]

That sucks hun at least your getting your op tho so fingers crossed you'll be pain free before too much longer xxx

thank you, that would be nice

In a way it would have been more cost effective to have kept you in there and then just whip it out as soon as a slot is free

Im glad your going to get it done - yayyyyy fingers crossed we will both be pain free

Yes we both need and deserve it!

I agree...it seems a bit daft to just put it off when theres clearly surgeons there to do it x

amen to that!

laura if im honest life is shit at the moment which is why im a bit quiet

got my operation in a week and a half plus other shit going on

Yeah you got a lot going on chick...hope we can in some way help to ease your burden lovely x

thank you It's great knowing I can rant n rave about daily life with you girls

Hows my ladies doing today?

Man ive been here, there and everywhere today! Doing boring stuff too...though I saw the CUTEST Boofie bear bag in clintons which ive bought to keep my already opened/used/odds and ends of wool in rather than my crate. So that made me happy!

Still notihing going on with me. 8dpo apparently...not had any soreness whatsoever. I dont know if its just cos i dont have anything to obsess over this cycle genuinely, or if its cos im just not symptoms spotting! Either way...been a fairly fast moving dpo..guess the hospital speeded that on!

Two weeks 4 days and im off to yarmouth for a week cant wait!!


xx

your not going to be there when im out of hospital your gonna have a fab time

Ranting is an important part of TTC let alone life. Got to let those stresses out honeybun or they just going to make you ill.

Nooo...how long do they expect to keep you in for?

 

[sarahuk]

whats a boofie bear?

is that the grey bear?

Boofle I meant, sorry!! This is him...so freaking CUTE!!

 

[sarahuk]

Yay for boofle bag gotta love him

Its good that this cycle is going quick hun, apart from the hospital bit that is! Means that if this cycle ends the next is close, I hope this cycle doesn't end for 8months tho

I'm tired now, works draining me! Wouldn't be so bad if I was busy but its dead atm! I'm literally jumping on the post hoping there's a pile of invoices in it only to find there's one! Lol shouldn't complain I guess! Did have to ring the cops today tho, attempted break in, again! Best of it is we don't have anything to nick, not that you could get under a fence anyway you'd need a skip transporter or a transit inside the gates at least lol xxx

Still..not fun..last thing you wanna think about is people trying to break in somewhere youre living or working!!

Sucks that its going slow tho chick.gunna make your day super drag!

 

[sarahuk]

Looks like it'll be next week pinky solicitors haven't received the mortgage offer through the post yet. Had the questions back from the other peoples solicitors tho so got them to review then they're sending them to us for us to check over. then its just the local authorities search to get back and review, then that's it, other than final contracts lol xxx

Aww chick. Well...atleast the house is yours and youll be in it soon. Gives you more time to prepare for the nursery too. Must be annoying though when youve hit this stage where youre literally just waiting to be handed keys and u can go. Id be eating my fingers off lol

 

[sarahuk]

think positive - the longer it takes the more special it will be when you get in there

the questionnaire is what holds up a lot of sales so the fact that your sol has it from the vendor is great

how many times has work been broken into? is there anything to take?

my last work got broken into but they didnt get in, just tried to smash the doors and windows - its more the inconvenience of it all, waiting for police to come down, fingerprint pple etc just to be given a report number so that you can claim on insurance

my op is friday 31st august - gotta be there at 7.30am and im in for 2 days

woooo hoooo picking up my new glasses on friday - cant wait!!!! will be so nice to be able to read a book again - amazing how much my eyes have deteriorated in past 18 months

Yay for the glasses!! Now you need something awesome to read!

2 days...ophew...means i wont be away when youre out thank god! Gunna be a nervous wreck

 

[sarahuk]

Hello ladie's,

Sorry not been on for a while, it was my fiance's birthday yesterday and havent had a chance to come on TBH. x x x

Laura the cake's are lovely hun. x x x

Sarah sorry to hear you've been in hospital hun, but glad your home. x x x

Natt Hope you've been resting hun x x x

Pinky, Hope op goe's great and makes you pain free hun, and if you was talking about doctor's its not untill tuesday 28th because my shity Doc's are always fully booked for a week or so. JOKE I know. Did have an app for blood work's, but gonna have to go hospital cause I couldn't make it to doc's this morning. It's not for TTC though there for my leg's as iv been having lump's coming up that go a little red then the redness fade's but the lump is so painful and tender. Now got them rising up my body had one on my lower back yesterday. Dunno WTF is going on but I will find out soon. Thx for asking hun. x x x

Kt hun, would be lovely to hear from you when your ready hun and in your own time, dont rush. Hope your ok sweetie, were alway's hear for ya and dont forget it. x x x BIG HUGS x x x

Hope everyone's ok. x x x

Oh no thats a weird one Jess!! Good that they are trying to figure out whats causing them though. x

 

[sarahuk]

what is the point of pushing you into that job - is it the only job in your area? I understand they have to be seen to be doing their job but tbh if the hotel havent called you or the jobcentre to say you have the job then chances are you dont have it (meant in a nice way) - whats the point of her 'persuading' them to take you on when they know its a physical job that you will only be able to do for a short time

tell her to move her fat bum over and you'll do her job - better than her! lol

thanks natt - recovery will take quite some time but it will be great to be painfree - the main thing im hoping for is to be able to straighten my arm again and to be able to carry weight - like a cup of tea which i cant do at the moment

they wont know until the operation but chances are they will have to do a bone graft so there will be yet another scar (ive already got one from elbow to almost my wrist, three on shoulder from op in march) not sure if it will be from hip or thigh so that will be more discomfort but it is what it is

bloody accident - two seconds of not conentrating and so far has cost me 14 months of pain, lost my job, lost my brand new gorgeous mini that i loved, all my confidence, three operations, hundreds of physio appts, hydrotherapy and accupuncture

im definately getting my money out of the nhs lol

AND hopefully out of the idiot who was responsible for what happened to you too. It saddens me to think about how much youve gone through since that day, and that its had to impact your life so much. I just wish that there was some magic wand that would woosh it all away.

Once the surgery is done though and you start to recover...every day is going to be one step closer to having your life back the way you want it chick. Its going to be lovely to be able to celebtrate those little milestones with you post surgery..first day of being able to straighten it a bit more, first day using it for X/Y/Z. I think when youre starting to have noticeable physical improvements, its going to start bringing back that confidence hun xx