APOLOGIES FOR THE MASSIVE MASSIVE WALL OF TEXT, lol. Nobody has to read it unless they're bored and want to, lol
My boy is good. My best friend got me to go out riding with him for the first 2 times out on the road, which I personally don't think either of us is ready for. He's a horse that gets in a buzzed up excitement about the most ridiculous things. As it is, I can be a nervous rider at the best times, but with a horse who can spook about such tiny things, out on the road.... well... yeah.... scared the bejesus outta me both times.
I'm also too, a nervous rider, because I'm not the most experienced rider. I love horses and my lifelong riding experience has been trail rides where the people on the trail don't teach you how to ride, its essentially a "don't fall off" kind of deal. Well, I've probably learned a lot of ways in which to NOT ride properly and have a lifetime of bad trail riding habits and as such, am not a brilliant rider and I KNOW that. So... riding makes me nervous. It doesn't help too, that once years ago on a trail ride, I had a horse run away with me. He smashed my knee into a tree (I've had knee problems ever since due to it), he almost dumped me off a cliff, overall, it was a really, really bad ride and it just made my horse riding nerves decide to take a ride up s**t creek without a paddle so to speak. They've never come back.... I lost my nerve.
SO the first time we (myself, my Thoroughbred, my friend and our friends horse that she was riding since my friend was pregnant at the time and didn't want to ride) went out, I was so tense, and Reggie (my horse) kept doing this stupid little jig jog through the gate and half way up the street, and my friend is saying "Calm down already!" and I was really trying to, but it was hard, I couldn't relax. Once we were off the main road I relaxed a bit and it went okay, we only went out for about a half an hour. We passed this particular house on the way out, no drama, both her horse and mine walked right on by. But on the way back, we went past the exact same spot. Reggie stopped dead, head high, ears all pricked up. I urged him on and he started prancing back and forth, back and forth, snorting, bunny hopping in the hind. My friend told me to rein him into a circle until he was back under control and I was reining him, he went backwards. Once we were back from where that stop point was, he calmed down.
Tried to urge him on again and as soon as he hit that point, he started getting nervous and freaking out again. Same little bunny hops but worse. Being a nervous rider, I at this point just kind of went "holy hell" and started to really get upset.
My friend looked at me and a second later her horse started acting up, so she just said "okay, we walk for a bit" and she dismounted, held my horse so I could dismount.
The second time we all went out roadside, which was a week later, we went in the opposite direction as my friend wanted to see how far we could make it to the pony club grounds. So we got about a third of the way and we saw a paddock of horses. My horse starts whinnying at the top of his lungs, prancing, hopping, carrying on. So once again, I was forced to dismount coz of my own nerves. We walked the horses across to the paddocked horses so they could greet each other and once my horse met the others, he was fine to continue. So part way up the road, mounted up and kept going. Another say.... 150 metres up the road, we stopped because a guy was coming out his driveway and I didn't want to ride my horse directly behind his car. The guy SAW us, even nodded to us and we smiled in return. As he went out the driveway in his stupid V8, he guns the engine so it roars uber loudly, then honks the horn half a dozen times at his wife and roars off up the street. Thankfully my horse didn't even bat an eye otherwise we both could have been paste on the road as cars were going by.
So then we continue some more and once we got off the main road heading to the Pony Club grounds, I gave my horse his head a bit so we could both relax a bit. The first thing he does is start trotting. Now Reggie has this most insane speedy trot. Even experienced riders have trouble sitting to his trot. I got jostled and blimmin well lost my reins didn't I, so stupid!!!! Finally managed to get them again and reined him back and all was well. Went into the pony club grounds.
The whole way there, my friends horse had been playing up, so she wanted to use their sand arena to do some work with him to get him focussed and paying attention and I dismounted and led Reggie around trying to find him a tap so he could have a drink. Felt so sorry for him carrying my fat hiney around that whole time.
Finally after about half an hour, my friend was ready to go, and I mounted back up and we started off. My friend told me she was riding ahead a bit and she went ahead at a trot and disappeared around a corner in the trees *they're the tall pine trees planted close together so you go around them and you virtually disappear*. Well what happened then? Reggie PANICKED because he didn't have his friend to hold his hand and tell him what to do. He immediately lurched forward, absolutely tripping out wanting to find where his mate had gone.
I reined him back to no avail, I was being completely ignored. Of course, the thing that freaks me out the most on horses is when they start running, I'm not prepared and they ignore me, essentially running away with me. SO immediately, my brain fritzed out and I also got panicked. I tried reining him back more, but again, no avail.
(I've since been told its because he's in a KK training bit, which is supposedly the softest bit you can get, and also maybe because he doesn't have a noseband to help pull his head down, I'm not sure). Anyway, I screamed out to my friend "THANKS A LOT" and she called back "Whats wrong???" and I said "He's panicking!!!! CAN YOU COME BACK!!!!"
The yelling finally made Reggie back off a bit, and he slowed down and then my friend started coming back. As soon as my horse saw hers, he again lurched forward wanting to be by his mate. I reined back hard, trying to get his attention, yelled "no!" and tried to sit deep in the saddle and pull him back.
Well he spat it, didn't he?? Had himself a right old dummy spit because I was saying no to what he wanted. So in his little dummy spit moment, he did a bronco buck, straight up in the air, all four feet off the ground. Twisting his body as he did it.
I didn't realise this was what he'd done, but know it scared the crickets out of me. I yell to my friend "what. the. hell. was. that!!!!" and she was staring, open mouthed and said "you don't want to know!!!" I said "he... bronco bucked me... didn't he?" and she just nodded with her mouth open still.
By this point I was way too nervous about everything, couldn't relax. Just as we were leaving the pony club grounds, he started trotting on me again, couldn't sit to it again, lost my reins again, gathered them up, reined him back, all good. But again, nerves were getting worse and worse. Then the next thing I see on the road? Eight to ten Harley Davidsons with their loud rumbling engines passing by, and right behind them a massive truck. I've immediately just started cringing, and my nerves were setting off my horse, so he was getting nervous.
My friend was begging me to calm down.
Got farther up the road, I just still couldn't calm down. Then around the corner heading back to the main road, a little kid came screaming out of her house, "HORSES!!!!!" at the top of her lungs. My horse shied and went sideways into the road wherein my shattered nerves couldn't take it anymore and I wimped out utterly and started crying and told my friend I couldn't do it anymore, I had to get off.
My friend rode him a bit, just to let him know that by being a silly nervous thing, it didn't mean he'd get a rider off, he was still gunna get ridden, and I walked her horse for awhile before finally mounting back up again about 200 metres up from the property.
But gosh it was just.... hell for me.
Pathetically, I haven't been back in the saddle since. Which means next time I ride, its going to be bad for me... but oh well.
In the interim, Reggie has been getting fed too well, as I'm trying to put some weight back on him (he loses weight really easily in winter) so he's bouncy and mental and always just wants to play. GAH.
Did your girl Molly wind up getting pregnant??
I am so thrilled his SA came back good!!!! As Soph said, it still sucks to be unexplained, but I am glad you have a plan in motion!!! I am so happy for you! 
I hope clomid does the trick for you!!! What other methods of ttc are you trying? Are you using opk's? Or temping?
But nothing has helped-even 3 rounds Clomid, 1 round Femera and every single other ttc trick under the sun.
