40+ and Trying for 1st? Join in!!

[Sophie2015]

Well, we will be excited for you, Sophie! You can't get your rainbow without a bfp! Off to a good start.

I will be 44 in September. I keep thinking this one won't stick either. Sigh. Thanks for being happy for me. Here's to hoping my next test is darker.

 

[hoping16]

Well, we will be excited for you, Sophie! You can't get your rainbow without a bfp! Off to a good start.

I will be 44 in September. I keep thinking this one won't stick either. Sigh. Thanks for being happy for me. Here's to hoping my next test is darker.

Very happy for you and hopeful!

 

[Sophie2015]

Well it's darker 21 hours after the first test. We'll see if I actually get a baby this time. Top yesterday. Bottom today.

 

[Vonn]

Sophie--thanks for the line porn! Today's is definitely darker. Yay!

AFM--donor choice #4 has agreed to cycle again and had the blood draw for the genetic screening. 2 weeks and we will know if we can move forward. I was relieved to get the message from the nurse, but wasn't excited at all. Now, a couple hours later, I am feeling a little hopeful, a little excited. But it's certainly tempered with the knowledge that I've been here before with poor results so I'm not thinking it's all set. But my mood has actually improved, for which I am thankful.

I had a bad several days, feeling very down. It was my grandma's 94th birthday party on Sunday and it made me feel terrible. My cousins' cute kids running around and all the adults I felt were wondering why I am childless just made me feel like a total loser. I haven't had a family event make me feel that badly since before DH and I started dating and I was the constant single 30-something, while all my cousins 10 years younger than me kept getting married. That was tough...so many years alone...probably toughened me up and helped me prepare for torture that is infertility. But, I am feeling better right now, a glimmer of hope has crept in!

 

[Sophie2015]

Sophie--thanks for the line porn! Today's is definitely darker. Yay!

AFM--donor choice #4 has agreed to cycle again and had the blood draw for the genetic screening. 2 weeks and we will know if we can move forward. I was relieved to get the message from the nurse, but wasn't excited at all. Now, a couple hours later, I am feeling a little hopeful, a little excited. But it's certainly tempered with the knowledge that I've been here before with poor results so I'm not thinking it's all set. But my mood has actually improved, for which I am thankful.

I had a bad several days, feeling very down. It was my grandma's 94th birthday party on Sunday and it made me feel terrible. My cousins' cute kids running around and all the adults I felt were wondering why I am childless just made me feel like a total loser. I haven't had a family event make me feel that badly since before DH and I started dating and I was the constant single 30-something, while all my cousins 10 years younger than me kept getting married. That was tough...so many years alone...probably toughened me up and helped me prepare for torture that is infertility. But, I am feeling better right now, a glimmer of hope has crept in!

I'm so excited for you!! But I understand not feeling truly excited or hopeful for yourself. I am only slightly excited. My first two pregnancies everything looked great until we didn't have a heartbeat. My 3rd we had good labs and strong heartbeats. Then we had the progenity genetic test done on the baby and found out she had Downs. I lost her a few weeks after that. So until I hit 2nd trimester with a clean genetics test I don't think I'll be super excited. It's a really crappy way to live. But repeated loss and disappointment does that to you.
Really hoping this is your time. Please keep us posted!

 

[Vonn]

Sophie--how's the bfp coming? Lines getting darker, been in for a beta? Thinking of you.

DeeDee--I don't have a journal. I'm sorry to hear you also have thyroid issues and potentially candida. They both suck. I am doing literally everything I can to get it all in order. It just adds pressure, as if LTTTC and age weren't enough infertility-related pressures. Then to add "Am I healthy enough to conceive/carry to term?" to the mix is just too much sometimes. But I have done a lot of research and am a very strong self-advocate, so at least I feel like I am trying to fix things.

Hoping--how's it going? Where are you at?

AFM--will check in next Friday to see if the results from the genetic screening are in for my potential donor. If so, we would have baseline the last week of August and an estimated retrieval date in mid-September. Trying NOT to get ahead of myself though and just think about the next step (genetic screening results)...one thing at a time...

 

[Sophie2015]

Sophie--how's the bfp coming? Lines getting darker, been in for a beta? Thinking of you.

DeeDee--I don't have a journal. I'm sorry to hear you also have thyroid issues and potentially candida. They both suck. I am doing literally everything I can to get it all in order. It just adds pressure, as if LTTTC and age weren't enough infertility-related pressures. Then to add "Am I healthy enough to conceive/carry to term?" to the mix is just too much sometimes. But I have done a lot of research and am a very strong self-advocate, so at least I feel like I am trying to fix things.

Hoping--how's it going? Where are you at?

AFM--will check in next Friday to see if the results from the genetic screening are in for my potential donor. If so, we would have baseline the last week of August and an estimated retrieval date in mid-September. Trying NOT to get ahead of myself though and just think about the next step (genetic screening results)...one thing at a time...

My poas tests are getting darker. Had my first beta and progesterone drawn this morning. Results later today. Really nervous. I really hope everything works out for you!!

 

[Sophie2015]

Beta hcg needs to be over 100. It's 162. Progesterone needs to be 20. It's over 40. Thyroid needs to be less than 3. It's 2.5. Praise God!!

 

[Jean40]

I am in NY after a 4day road trip. I found out when I looked at my portal Thursday morning that someone at the clinic changed my appointment from the one office here to me going to my local doctor, but no one told me to make an appointment there and I don't even think my GYN is there at the office on Mondays. I was on my way out the door headed for an 8 hour drive in the middle of nowhere and I was late, so I left another message with the nurse, who left a message back but I couldn't get the hotel wifi to work Friday morning and didn't find this out until Sunday morning when I was in NJ after my last road trip stop.

I don't know who switched the appointment or when they did it. I told the finance lady and the coordinator I was coming to this office in NY because it cost more for one ultrasound at the hospital where I live than it does to do monitoring here in NY, told them that a few months ago! I did drive by the office here on the way to my hotel and its small, got lots of parking around back, and a small pretty walking area around back where the Healing Arts place is. I expected this place to be much larger than it is. I didn't have the chance to drive around there to see what else is around because my car was in desperate need of oil and was acting up (this has been going on for years, stuck piston rings, it sucks through oil quickly).

 

[Vonn]

Jean--Are they able to get you in? That's ridiculous that they would change something in your portal without calling you because it's not like the portal links to your email. You wouldn't have had any reason to check the portal, so you could have totally missed that message. And why would they change the appt anyway?? Is this something Ally did? I hope you get some answers today.

I've looked at the office on google earth, so have a sense of how it's set up & where it is, but it's hard to tell how big/small it is. It seems to be off by itself a little; someone told me it's like a 5-10 minute drive from downtown. I'd love to find out where you stay, if you care to share.

I'm a little confused, did it take 8 hrs or 4 days to get there? Is this just for one monitoring appt or for more than that. If I recall, your transfer is the beg of Aug. GL sorting everything out! And thanks for sharing your experiences there.

 

[Jean40]

I was taking a vacation, doing my first concert road trip, so the first part of my trip was an 8 hour drive to Ohio, then further up the road 5 hours, then across PA to NJ for last concert (I was VIP or I wouldn't have gone to NJ). Then I drove from northern NJ to Syracuse, about 3 hours, then home (supposed to be 6 hours, but stupid road work, took me a lot longer because I did NOT follow my GPS directions for a detour, I've not had a GPS that knew of traffic problems, it's smarter than me, lol). The office is a little south of the main part of the city, but it's in a little medical park. There's a day surgery center, mental health place, dentist, LabCorp draw center, that sort of stuff. I stayed in East Syracuse around a business park with lots of new hotels. Luckily, my GPS was pretty good to get me around there (not so much in NJ, almost missed many exit ramps). I didn't see hotels around the fertility center, but they have a shuttle (I heard them mention it was leaving when I was sitting in the waiting room). Anyway, I sat there about an hour and they got me in for bloods & ultrasound, then I got my new med list and am going back Friday July 29 for next monitoring appointment, then potential transfer date Friday Aug 5. I am starting to think it's coordinator who is the problem. Maybe she is dealing with too many people and she's working from home part of the time, plus summer vacations. I will say that the waiting room was packed the entire time I was there. Busy place!

So, I am happy to start taking my Z pack since I started getting horrible sinus congestion around the time I started taking the Lupron. It's turned into a nasty sinus infection and this morning, felt like it was trying to go into my chest. I hope this stuff knocks it out! I don't need any sort of infection going into this. I didn't bring my estrace with me, so I didn't get to take the 2 doses earlier I was supposed to, then I got home much later than planned. When I got home an hour ago, I took one by mouth (I'm supposed to use them vaginally), but I will use a couple up the wazoo when I go to bed.

I'm not looking forward to the drive again next week, but once I get there, I can take my time getting home. In one of my detours, I found where the Mohegan Sun casino in Wilkes Barre is, lol. Might have to pop in and play $20, hoping to win some money to pay for this.

 

[Vonn]

Thanks for the update, Jean. I'm glad you were able to get in and you made it home. Transfer is not that far off, exciting!

Sophie--cute avatar pic!

 

[Sophie2015]

Vonn- any updates about your donor? Is the genetic screening back yet?

 

[Vonn]

Sophie--thanks for asking, finally got word. Whew! How are you feeling?

Jean--you are getting close, when you do go back?

Hoping--how are you doing?

AFM--my nurse was out today but I messaged another nurse and she send me back a response: "Her results came back negative for everything." 'Negative' sounds bad so it took me a second to realize that was good news. We have a donor! I'll have to get the specifics from my nurse when she's back, but I think baseline will be last week of August & we'll head to NY mid-Sept. Sounds great!

 

[Sophie2015]

Vonn- that's AMAZING news!! So excited for you

 

[Jenny Bean]

I am hoping I can join you ladies.
I am 40 and thinking about trying for number 2.

Thanks in advance.

 

[Jean40]

My next bloodwork & ultrasound is Friday. I leave right after work Thursday. I worked Sunday so I could take off Friday, so I'm already pretty worn out. I think I get to trade the tiny insulin needles of Lupron in the tummy for the large PIO in the rear ones, so not looking forward to that. I need to look at some videos on how to do those shots again. I also didn't realize the pharmacy included smaller gauge insulin needles than the ones included in the Lupron box, so I used the larger ones first. Figures. The smaller ones are so tiny, I can barely tell I'm sticking myself at times.

 

[Vonn]

Jenny Bean--good luck to you as you ttc #2! You should join us over on BFP Chasers; that thread is for any and all -- first baby or third baby, ttc or pregnant, just turned 35 or over 40! Plus, it's actually a little more active than this thread. This one is really meant for those trying for their first after turning 40....that can create a special sort of anxiety, fear, shame, etc., so it's not really for those who have already successfully conceived. Hope you understand. Definitely pop in to BFP Chasers, it's a great group. You don't need an invitation, of course, but still, consider yourself invited!

Jean--have a good drive & a great appt tomorrow! Can't wait to hear the results and next steps. You are so close now! Are you working with a nurse other than Ally this week? She's not coming up in the messaging options, so I assume that means she's out of the office this week, though in the past she's always told me when she was going to be out.

Sophie--how's the pregnancy going? Dr appt soon?

Hopeful--how r u doing?

AFM--Think I'm about to ovulate so will try to get in at least one BD. Last chance for a "free" baby, I think.

 

[Sophie2015]

Hi Vonn. I'm hanging in there. Albeit with a lot of worry and anxiety. I'll be 6 weeks tomorrow. My first appointment is next Wednesday. I'd like to think I'll feel better if there's a HB but I know it'll only keep the worry away a few days.

FX'd for your free baby!! You never know.

Can I join BFP chasers even though I've already gotten my BFP? Which category is it in?

 

[Vonn]

Sophie--BFP Chasers is here in 35+. There's activity just about every day, so it's right near the top.