Well ladies, it happen again. I was so hopeful and was holding out from testing today. My temp went up. I was excited when I woke up but now...
I am a real mess. I need to keep it together for the kids but I just want to cry.
This sucks. It's not fair.
Bleeding has started and test is now negative.
I talked to my OB a few days ago when I had an appointment and she is at a loss. She does not feel she is much help and she has referred me to a re-occuring miscarriage clinic and also she wants me to go in and talk to a RE. I told her though that if it comes to that, I could only afford to 'pay' for one baby(my first was ivf) I would never be able to afford MA again, like not at all. Our money needs to stay with our three children I already have and if it comes down to that, I will leave my family the size it is now.
I need to call my OB's office on Monday as I suspected I have autoimmune progesterone dermatitis(https://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/712365) for some time but keep forgetting to mention to her. I just get in these cycles where I see lines, get hopefully and bam.. all gone and depression hits hard. I really need to get her on the phone though and get tested for this next week. I know it's important and might be helpful to me.
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On ovulation I 99.9% of the time get a painful canker sore. I always thought that was normal, but apparently it's not. And this cycle was worse then others, I popped up sores all over my tongue and inside cheeks a few days ago(I'm assuming because I was indeed pregnant, so it got worse), which are now going away. My skin was super itchy yesterday too.
I really think this might be the problem why so many early mc. Maybe my body is fighting them off
I just want to sit and have a big cry today.. This all is really depressing me.
I do hopefully have my hsg this cycle and hopefully I get that testing done. I'm honestly not sure when I will get in to the reoccurring mc clinic but to know that they have this in our are is resuming that there is help out there for me.. so I really don't know how many more cycles I can't physically and mentally handle on my 'own'.