A group for TTC#1 and had more than one loss?

[Inoue]

Inoue when will you be testing? have you noticed any symptoms yet? Hope you catch the egg and sending you lots of baby dust!

I may test on Monday 19th as its our 2 year wedding anniversary .
Would love to suprise him over dinner!


And hope you get some feedback soon Patiently, dont ever appoligise on here. Were here to help and support you no matter what xxx

 

[patiently]

I just want to break down and cry. They couldnt see anything on the scan so she said i must be either less than 4 weeks or its ectopic or i had a miscarriage. Firstly im not less than 4 weeks according to the day i ovulated. So we shouldv'e at least seen a gest sac. I dont know if ive had a mc and i havent had any bleeding. Ectopic just scares me so much i dont know what to do with myself. They took blood and said to return in two days for the results. When i told them i had blood taken on saturday and would i be able to compare the results she said that there were no results on the system. I went back to A&E and they also said they dont have any evidence of blood being taken. WTF that friggin dr yesterday knew that he didnt have the results and that why he was pissing about trying to make me come in for them! WHY DO I BOTHER!!! WHAT IS THE POINT! even if i didnt see much at least if they saw something like the sac then i'd be put at ease now im just annoyed. My OH is pissing me off too! didnt wanna get out of the bed this morning so i had to go and face all that news by myself. I actually can't stand him at the moment. You'd think that after so long ttc and me being pregnant he would show a little more enthusiasm he seems so much more excited for the f***ing army! pardon my french! Im just pissed off with everything. Dont feel hopeful and just feel exhausted!

 

[Sooperhans]

Oh hun, I'm so sorry, this happened with me and my 2nd mc....if you have had left hand pain then I would say it points to an ectopic. Can your EPU trace the blood test through their phlebomtomy dept? They can't just vanish w/o a trace and this are peoples' lives here. I hope you get answers and blood taken soon. When they told me it was another 3 days before the bleeding started. I so hope you are not in that position, I feel for you. Seems oh is good at burying his head in the sand but he must support you as it's so emotionally distressing. Take care and hope they find Sat's blood results asap for you xx xx

 

[Sooperhans]

Oh and shoulder pain is ectopic too? Don't think you have those symptoms from what you've said...

 

[patiently]

Sooperhans i know you are trying to help so thank you and thank you for taking the time to reply too....i do appreciate it, but i actually feel even worst now. I think right now i just want to hear positive things and im sure that you're just being honest but it hurts so much. I dont want to come across as being a spoilt child and stamping my feet when something doesnt go my way but i just feel rock bottom so will take a break from here and try and deal with this situation. thank you ladies for all of your support im sorry for the way im behaving i dont mean to upset anyone.

 

[Sooperhans]

I'm so sorry, I feel awful Tried to reply quickly at work and probably didn't word it all right. I hope none of what I said applies to you, I honestly do.

Take care of yourself, thinking of you xxxx

 

[Neversaynever]

Patiently....

Did they say anything about your lining being thick? Try to hang in there and wait on bloods...I know it isn't easy

XxX

 

[patiently]

Im sorry sooperhans please dont feel like you've said anything wrong. Its just hard to hear stories when the outcome wasnt so good. But i am sorry for making you feel bad thats not my intention.

NSN my lining was 19mm i think thats thick...im not sure. My progesterone is 76. I just have to wait and see on wednesday. I really am hoping that its just too early and everything is ok. Please send me lots of baby dust. Thanks again and sorry for rambling. My OH is taking me out for a meal and to the pics to take my mind off of things so hope it works.

 

[Sooperhans]

That's fab progesterone! Lots of and fingers crossed. Glad you are being looked after and so hoping the outcome is positive on Weds xx

 

[patiently]

Thank you sooperhans x x

 

[Inoue]

What a nightmare your living Patiently ~ im so sorry

Doctors (on a whole) are dicks - period. I also had bloods 'vanish' when i had my D&C, they just brushed it under the carpet like it was the norm. I had to think logically that bloods are bloods, ive lost my little one and another fricking blood test isnt going to change things. My veins where hard as nails in my arm and hand by the end of the Hospital treatment so i feel your pain when the whole 'Hospital experiance'.

I guess now its a wait to see if you bleed? Is that how there leaving it? Im so sorry if this ends up m/c x

 

[patiently]

Well ive started spotting brown blood now so think this is it.. Im not trying anymore. I just cant do it. The physical and emotional strain is taking its toll and i cant keep going through this. I really wanted to have testing done before my third mc but they refused now my OH might join the army before then so ttc would be even harder. I just give up! I have never got this far into a pregnancy but something is obviously wrong because i cant even get to 5 weeks without bleeding. I just feel numb. Square one again!

 

[NewToAllThis]

I'm so sorry hun

 

[Sooperhans]

I'm so sorry you are going through this awful time Patiently. Could the spotting be because you had the internal scan/examination, it could've triggered old blood? I hope the blood test is good news and that the spotting stops. The waiting is awful, wouldn't wish it on anyone. Can they rush the testing/results through for you? I was ringing them every hour before and they chased it for me. Be kind to yourself, try not to think too far ahead until you know

 

[pink80]

Big Patiently

All I'll say is it's not that uncommon not to see anything at 5 weeks on the scan and your not quite 5 weeks yet, as for the brown spotting Sooper is right, the scan could have dislodged some old blood.

Now us ladies that have suffered a loss, will ALWAYS think the worst because that's all we've known and your trying to protect yourself.

I'm hoping for a good outcome, but whatever the outcome the lovely ladies on this thread are all here for you xxx

 

[patiently]

Thank you ladies for your kind words it really does mean a lot. I was thinking that the internal scan make have caused the spotting especially as its brown. But deep down I just cant shake the feeling or the suspicion that its happening all over again. Also i had tender bbs yesterday but that seems to have subsided today. All i can do is wait but the wait is what gives me the time to over analyse and think the situation. Im trying to be positive and my OH keeps telling me not to stress about it because that would make it all worst and im trying not to but its so HARD! thanks again ladies i really appreciate all of your support x

 

[Inoue]

Im praying that the brown blood is just discarded blood from the scan you had. But a woman usually has a feel of 6 sense that something isnt right .

If you dont mind me asking, how old are you? and have you got any children already? Just wondering about your back ground. I havent got any children and when i cautionally say to my husband there may be a slim chance we wont have any kids he kind of shrugs it off and says that we will live our lives to the full whatever happens (plenty of money/travel etc) ~ wish i had his outlook on life when i myself feel like a failure! xx

 

[annmariecrisp]

hello Ladies,
I hope you don't mind but I'd like to crash your thread.....
Patiently - I have exactly the same problem as you....I just can't seem to get past the 5 week point and everytime I fall pregnant I feel the same worry that you are feeling....it is hard to remain positive I know but I also know that it will happen one day for us and this could be your time.....alot of my friends have had some brown spotting after internal scans and have not seen anything but thickening of the lining this early on....so I pray and hope for you that this will be the one! Just try and relax (I know much easier said than done) and take your vitamins and folic acid.
I have been ttc #1 for 18 months and have had 4 early losses now....it's horrible but I'm trying to remain positive and relaxed about it as I know that worrying can just make things worse! I am having a month off this month after my loss last month just so my body will have a chance to rest.
I look forward to getting to know you all I am also dieting to try and lose 3 stone as I know that I am overwieght and am also 35 this year so want to do everything in my power to give me the best possible chance....oh and this month I have bought a fertility bracelet....I just thought...why not? its worth a try

Speak soon
Ann-Marie xxxx
xxxxxx

 

[patiently]

Im 24 and so is my OH have been ttc our first baby for almost 23 months had two previous mc's. Im just trying to hold on to hope for now. I'll have a clearer idea of what to expect tomorrow i guess. Today im just going to try and relax. Its not in my hands to change anything. I too feel like a failure and told my OH that he should just leave me because I am having trouble giving us what we really want. He said he's here to stay he isnt going anywhere and whatever happens he loves me very much. I do really appreciate his view on things and i wish i had his optimism.

 

[patiently]

Annmarie thank you so much for your words. So sorry for your losses you are such a brave woman. I hope you have your forever baby soon. Have you had any testing done? Good on you for your fertility bracelet! You seem to fall pregnant quite easily so hope the next one sticks. It shouldnt be too long that you have till you see your next bfp! Having a break is good sometimes. It really takes the pressure off. You seem so positive so I will try and take a leaf out of your book even if i can have only a fraction of your positivity it will be more than ive had since my first hpt! Good luck hun and welcome to this thread the ladies on here are amazing and a few of them have gone on to have successful pregnancies so theres hope for us. x x x x