Hi ladies, initially just a quick post from me. I haven't been on for around 2 months now as I have been going through some major stress and changes. I decided to leave my DH in a hurry mid August after one final incident regarding his drinking and surrounding problems / attitude and I'm only just now settled into a rental property, and my broadband went live today
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Looking forward to having an online social life again
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Apart from the major upset and on-going strain from DH I know I've made the right decision, I'm already happier and the stress is less than when I was dealing with his issues while at home. His personality has changed and he cant even accept or understand why I left
. He's going to bankrupt me but at least I'm safe, have my sanity and my children will not be exposed to his tempers and moods. Pure denial from him but I've been getting counselling since just before I left and I now realise how much emotional and mental abuse he put me under, even if he is not conscious to it. I took on a mothering role with him and now I've left and he isn't controlling me he aint liking it, nobody to vent his moods to if you ask me. I'm doing this for my family and while I know the next year or so is going to be complete madness with a toddler and a new born at least I don't have to face that stress everyday.
Bubs is doing ok, I'm now 35 weeks
! I've being going to hospital basically every week for the past couple of months for growth scans, haematology or midwife check ups. Baby is VERY quiet which has me worried a bit and that something isn't quite right but I am trying to remain zen about it. My DS kicked the life out of me, this one I hardly feel at all
. Docs trying to reassure if its normal all the way through it should be ok but I cant help worrying. Growth has slowed down to below the 45th percentile so I'm anxious for next week's scan to make sure it hasn't slowed down anymore. Apparently I'm high risk for a mature placenta on top of the other risks with clotting, age etc, it could fail anytime now, slowing growth can be a sign. There aren't any signs of baby being in distress so I'm just putting it down to my own stress and baby will be fine. You all know how it is.
Plan is to take me in at 38 or 39 weeks if I make it that far, so not long now. Head is down so hopefully I can have a normal birth, even if I do have to face an induction. My DS was here in under 2 1/2 hours from first twinges to end so wondering if I'll be as quick this time?
Anyway I've about 2 months worth of gossip to catch up on here so will get reading and speak soon!
Hope you are all well xoxox