Hi Ladies.
So, I think I'm going through some sort of postpartum crap. You would think it's a little late, but who knows. Sara is 10 months today, and I feel kind of blah most of the time. Some days I'm really sad, some days I'm really frustrated, other days I'm good. Most of the time I feel overwhelmed. Completely overwhelmed. Like close to a nuclear meltdown. We've lived in this house since September 2011 and our kitchen still isn't complete. We started redoing our living room, because frankly, I got bored with the kitchen. We got our shelved in, but need to build the top bridge. I was really excited at the beginning because the progress was really flying by, but then Dan got sick and he is such a baby when he is sick. I don't get it. I feel like after dealing with two kids and having to clean up after 4 humans including myself, at the end of the day, I just want to say, "CRY ME A RIVER!" I'm normally not like that, but lately I feel like I have too much on my plate. I'm sad because it's damn near impossible to do anything with Sara, remodeling wise. We have to do everything when she's in her highchair or taking a nap. We didn't do anything this past weekend, which I felt like I was just melting into the couch and the farthest thing from productive possible. Our yards are over grown with stupid flower bulbs that I thought we took care of last year, but apparently we just made room for them to grown wild and crazier this year, because that's exactly how they all came back. So, that makes me sad. I'm SO sick and tired of having an orange bathroom for our kids bathroom. I've convinced Dan that I can remodel it for under $100, so that's what I'm going to try and do this coming weekend. It's a project that I can do myself. I'm determined to go into that small room and escape from life just for a little bit and come out with some real progress being made. It's small enough that I'm hoping I'm not going to need any of Dan's help. Seriously, I don't know if you ladies ever feel the same way, but does it seem like sometimes it takes men way longer to do something, when you ask? For example, I can clean our bathroom top to bottom in like 45 minutes AT MOST, when Dan does it, for some reason it takes him hours. Same with vacuuming. I bet if I hadn't gone through that nesting stage when I was pregnant with Sara, we'd still have a half painted kitchen. Maybe I should just make a list of every project that we've started and haven't finished and make it a goal to get one done every month. I think I just need something to keep my mind occupied. I just have a hard time staying focused with two kids, that I often give up on my projects to give them attention. I'm having a really hard time sleeping at night. I don't fall asleep until like 3 in the morning and I'm awake at 9, dead tired dragging my feet, then when noon comes around, I'm wide awake until 3 am. I have no idea what's going on with me. I just hate feeling this way, which is why I've been kind of MIA lately. I apologize for not responding to a lot of you. I'm just stuck in a funk.
I'll try to respond more and keep up to date with you ladies and all of your progresses.