Hi ladies,
So, I'm popping on to give you an update as to why I've been MIA lately. My migraines have returned with a vengeance to where it's affecting my day to day life. They seem to be more frequently and more intense. The weekend before last I woke up Saturday not feeling well. Like I was catching a cold. I felt super nauseated and my nose felt all weird, like pressure, but not entirely. I thought it was the beginning of a sinus infection. We drove over the hill to visit with family and on the drive home I felt like shit. Dan's Aunt has cats, which I'm allergic to, so I just used that as my excuse. Sunday, I slept pretty much all day, feeling like crap with the idea that I was just getting sick. I had a HORRIBLE migraine and spent most of the day doped up with vicodin. Monday, I woke up feeling fine. No cold symptoms, no headache. I actually felt really refreshed. Wednesday, I had a mild headache, but nothing too major. Thursday, I HAD THE WORST MIGRAINE OF MY LIFE! I felt like I was going to puke, I couldn't walk without being dizzy. I was in so much pain that I couldn't help but cry, which made the migraine even worst. I took vicodin and fell asleep on the couch about 7 and slept through the night until the next day. Friday day, no migraine until 1 AM when I woke up in the worst pain. I had to wake Dan up to rub my head and neck. It was then I decided that I needed to completely wean Sara from nursing so that I could seek medical help and start some sort of medication. My doctor told me shortly after having Sara that he's had patients with real success using the prescription topamax, but it's not safe for breastfeeding, so I would have to wait until after I'm done nursing to start it. I was hoping at that time, by now..that these headaches would be a thing of the past, but as time has gone on they have proven to me that they aren't going away any time soon and they aren't hormonal. For awhile there I was only getting them during ovulation and my period, but now they are all the time. It's made me extremely depressed to the point where I haven't even wanted to do house work or spend time with my family because I'm always in fear that one is going to strike. I'm terrified to drive anywhere because I'm afraid one will strike when I'm driving with my kids. If any of you have gotten to know me through this forum, you know that I'm not really one to live in fear. Living this way is driving me crazy! I HATE feeling this way. So, I called and spoke with my doctor this morning and I'm going to see him tomorrow at 11:30. I spoke with Dan's Aunt who has been on topamax for a few years and she loves it! Says it's the only thing that has helped her with her migraines. I also recently found out that one of my really good friends is on it. Both have said that in the beginning there are some pretty intense side affects, but they only last a few weeks and if I can get through them, it's smooth sailing from there on out.
I hate that these migraines haven't resolved. I hate that I'm depressed. I hate that I have to resort to medication to prevent them, but I can't risk my families well being or my own just to say I've got too much pride to do anything about them. I can't risk Dan coming home during his work hours to watch the kids so I can sleep for days at a time just so that the pain will subside just enough to get on with my life. I don't want my kids growing up remembering I just slept all the time or we couldn't do anything fun because I was "sick" I don't think that's fair to my kids and I find it extremely selfish on my part. So, I'm seeking help.
I've tried everything under the sun, in hopes that it would help with the pain. I've done a little research and I've learned that for some there are warning signs as to when a migraine with start. Like nasal sinus pressure, nausea, fatigue, etc. a few days before a real migraine hits and that is exactly what I've been experiencing these last few weeks. That's something that I can take and share with my doctor.
One of the main reason I am sharing all of this with you ladies, is because one of the side affects of topamax in the early weeks is having a hard time finding the right words to say or losing train of thought. SO, for the next month or so, I will probably be laying low from BNB if I do post something and it makes no sense what so ever or sounds extremely uneducated, blame it on the topamax.
I have been following for these last few weeks, but haven't been responding much. I can't remember what everyone has talked about, but a few subjects stick out fresh in my mind. So, I will respond to those.
Aspe, I read something that you were concerned that baby P wasn't crawling yet. Samuel took forever to crawl but only crawled for a few weeks before he went straight to walking, he didn't want to crawl. Sara still isn't walking and doesn't seem to be showing any interest in it at all. I'm not worried about it at all. She cruises around furniture and with her little walker thing, but has no interest on her own. As for snacks, Sara only has 3 1/2 teeth and was eating on her own actual people food before she was a year and before she had teeth. So, really it's what you feel comfortable feeding him. I'd stick with foods that are soft, dissolve easy, small. Bananas are a good choice, as well as avocado. Crackers. You give him yogurt, so you could try soft cheeses. Over cooked pastas and rice. Start out small. Sara started with rice crispies. Once they get the hang of the "gumming motion" and swallowing, it's easy for them. I don't even really cut up her food anymore and she eats what we eat.
Someone mentioned Sara's talking. She does talk up a storm, but I give all that credit to Samuel. He's always reading something to her, playing with her and encouraging her to talk and say words.
Grace, I saw that you were asking about switching doctors. I would switch in a heart beat if I had a doctor going to the same church as me. It would make me feel a lot more comfortable. I don't think you should feel uncomfortable at all about switching. If it makes you feel anymore comfortable, maybe you could pull the doctor aside at your church and explain to her your concerns and she could help ease your mind a little. LOL if anything go watch the movie knocked up. She didn't find a doctor that she liked until she was in her 3rd trimester I think. Hope that helps.
Zoey, happy to read Ella is gaining weight and doing well.
Krissy, I talk to you all the time. Anything I read on here isn't new news to me. But, hope things are good, better, and going smoothly.
Misty, I can't remember anything you've said in an update lately, but I hope all is well.
Hi to all the other ladies that I've missed. Sorry, if you feel left out from personals, but I'm just drawing a blank at the moment. Not intentional.