anixety panic attacks and depression surpport group

[Miss_d]

Does anyone find it difficult going out on their own? i do, i hate it, this controls my life so much, were meant to be going to tesco this morning, usually my oh does the shopping but i said we would all go and i really dont want to as i feel dizzy and feel like i am going to pass out when i am in supermarkets, sometimes i just leave and sit in the car.

you could be talking about me there, i am totally like that i hate how it controls my life

Its rubbish isnt it, well i got the inlaws to watch the kids and i managed it, without any drama.

I hate anxiety and how it controls me

 

[9babiesgone]

I don't like to go out by myself I hate it my anxiety always gets the best of me so I can definitely relate!

 

[PepsiChic]

i had a really really bad day yesterday, i completely broke down in the morning worrying about my husband leaving for work, i had a huge panic attack and fainted. I was sick for a lot of the day (physically). and my stomach muscles hurt so bad. I didnt want to touch or even look at my LO i was so scared he would see that im a bad mummy.

i managed to calm down kind of, then when my husband went to leave for work i completely flipped out, screaming and crying and hyperventilating, i told him he wasnt my husband, that my husband would never leave me like this, that made him cry, he started shouting back saying what am i suppose to do we need the money and it went back and forth like this for about 15 minutes and i collapsed on to the floor just crying and shaking so much.

he gave me a kiss and left, he returned about 30 minutes later and just cuddled me for the longest time, apparently he got to work told his boss he had an emergency back home and his boss let him come back straight away.

i felt pretty crap for the rest of the day, guilty i didnt mean to hurt him. i hate myself for it. he said its ok, he told me he loved me more then life and helped me with dinner and took care of LO that evening.

he promised hed find a different job, either a work at home job or a day job, so that im not alone in the house all evening (this is the biggest issue, him and roommate both at work and LO in bed so im sat here alone all night)

was exhausted so went to bed early, woke up today feeling guilty still but better, hubby doesnt work sundays and mondays. i wrote a long TO Do list, mostly cleaning, which is normal for a sunday morning, but this time, hubby got up looked at the list and started to do stuff on it, now instead of the list taking me all day to do, ive only got to do vaccum the bedroom and bathroom (but LO is napping right now hence the break) and put the last load of laundry in the drier when its done...

originally i had like 20 things to do!

sorry for this long post, just had to get it all out.

yesterday for the first time in a long time, i had a nasty thought in my head that i havent had for a while. I wanted to kill myself. I wouldnt of tried, i couldnt not with my DH and LO to think about, but the fact that the thought was back in my head just made things ten times worse.

ive never felt so depressed for such a long time.

 

[needausername]

Sorry to hear you are having a bad day hun. And bless your OH! He probably thought he was helping by doing all the chores!


I'm having a down day. I've been in good mood since Tuesday. I even had a situation at work were some people were being unreasonable to me and shouting at me. After I cried for like 5 minutes then got back into my good frame of mind. I think the reason why I am down today is because of the tiredness. It is just overpowering. I slept for 10 hours last night and then still needed another 2 hours on the sofa. Fit to go to bed now already!

I have a meeting at work today and I haven't had a chance to prepare for it yet and I still have cleaning to do around the house.

 

[eblondie]

Oh PepsiChic... sending you the biggest

It's awful when you feel that bad. It hasn't happened to me in a while. Like you, having LO means I have to be around..... I couldn't leave him. Have you had any help from your Dr recently as I think you could really do with seeing them. I know I can talk.... I mean I still need to make that Drs appointment!
It's good that your DH is understanding and is so supportive x

 

[eblondie]

Needausername, tiredness is definitely a reason for my anxiety. There are things that I can cope with when I'm not feeling tired but tiredness makes it all harder. I know cleaning has to be done but it really doesn't matter if it's still there in the morning x

 

[PepsiChic]

Oh PepsiChic... sending you the biggest

It's awful when you feel that bad. It hasn't happened to me in a while. Like you, having LO means I have to be around..... I couldn't leave him. Have you had any help from your Dr recently as I think you could really do with seeing them. I know I can talk.... I mean I still need to make that Drs appointment!
It's good that your DH is understanding and is so supportive x

I cant see the doctor for 2 reasons, firstly i couldnt afford, it i dont have health insure here its so expensive, and the medication would be costly if i got it without insurance

the second reason is it could affect my immigration process, i had to do psychiatric tests and assessments because of my history of depression, to prove that i was "ok" at the time to immigrate to the USA, i still have to do another interview this year to renew my green card, if im on medications at that time they can deport me if they decide im a "threat to myself or others"

 

[LoobyLou75]

Big PepsiChic, I can only imagine what you must go through when your hubby has to go to work.

I'm having a bad few days. I am so anxious and agitated. I get up every day and face the day with fear. My biggest one at the min is that they'll take my baby off me.

 

[Miss_d]

to everyone, i hate that we all have anxiety, at least everyone on here is supportive of each other and were able to understance and offer advice, thank you everyone

 

[PepsiChic]

to everyone, i hate that we all have anxiety, at least everyone on here is supportive of each other and were able to understance and offer advice, thank you everyone

i second that, this thread is one of the kinest and most supportive threads i have seen on BnB.

for everyone, thankyou all for being so lovely x so sorry that we all have to suffer something x

 

[mummapie]

Definatly big hugs to all you ladies who suffer with anxiety! I was put on medication in october for my anxiety attacks and have recently lowered my dose so i definately know how you can feel. If anyone wants a chat feel free to pm me

 

[9babiesgone]

I have to do an pre-inspection alone. my husband misread the time from 9:30 to 2:30. so now I Have to have strangers in my house alone, and deal with them inspecting my house. my anxiety is sky high. and I am so antsy. uggh.

 

[needausername]

I'm so fed up.

 

[eblondie]

PepsiChic that's awful At least you have lots of people here who understand... just wish we could do more x
9babies, its not good having people in your house is it. I know that I have very few visitors... my choice due to how it makes me feel. Hope the inspection goes quickly for you.

Thanks Mummapie x it's a lovely board here and everyone is so friendly.

Needausername, anything in particular happen?

 

[9babiesgone]

PepsiChic that's awful At least you have lots of people here who understand... just wish we could do more x
9babies, its not good having people in your house is it. I know that I have very few visitors... my choice due to how it makes me feel. Hope the inspection goes quickly for you.

Thanks Mummapie x it's a lovely board here and everyone is so friendly.

Needausername, anything in particular happen?

thanks. I only have people I know ,and very close and few people get to come in my house, it causes me severe anxiety. I feel like I am trapped and I still have hours to go till they are here. ; (

 

[needausername]

Needausername, anything in particular happen?

I just feel so useless. All this crap at work and not a thing being sorted. I wish it was sorted so I could start getting over everything. Then I feel so unappreciated by management. They actually haven't a clue about the job that I am in. They think it is a soft option and doesn't take much effort! But it is probably one of the hardest jobs there because you have to be in a constant good mood and have a high energy level to keep the others going. Not exactly an easy task when you have depression and post viral fatigue!

 

[eblondie]

9babies....how did it go?

Needausername... Ugh that would send me into hyper mode which I hate. whenever I have to pretend I always go overboard... it's not something I have control over, just seems to happen.

 

[9babiesgone]

9babies....how did it go?

Needausername... Ugh that would send me into hyper mode which I hate. whenever I have to pretend I always go overboard... it's not something I have control over, just seems to happen.

It went ok, but now they are saying we can not have an rv parked in our front place, even in our driveway. I am so peeved, bc we have to move in most of our stuff in the rv. and now to have to park it somewhere then drive it back so we can pack more stuff into it, is not easy , especially bc I can not drive . uggh. I am so annoyed, we have to replace a bunch of things in the house, and pay for them. and we have a month to get everything out. MOVIng is a pain in my ass.

 

[country_girl8]

am i suffering from anxiety? im always stressed, worried, get headaches on on side, burning scalp, hard to fall asleep, chest pains

 

[PepsiChic]

am i suffering from anxiety? im always stressed, worried, get headaches on on side, burning scalp, hard to fall asleep, chest pains

do you feel out of control when you feel anxious or do you feel stressed? a lot of people mistake stress for anxiety, but they do have some similar symptoms.

headaches are more stress related, but feeling disorientated, upset, panicky and out of control of everything is more likely to be an anxiety problem.

is there certain things which make you feel the way you do?