anixety panic attacks and depression surpport group

[PepsiChic]

after the big break down the other day, my husband has been looking for either day jobs or a work from home job, he has an interview today, im so proud of him doing this.
he needed a career change anyway as his is a dead-end job, he'll never get to move up in ranks, and his boss can be a complete asshole at times (when the ice storm hit tuesday morning, everywhere closed, businesses all over missouri refused to open as it as too dangerous for people to drive to and from work...except my husbands boss who demanded the store be open and my husband delivers pizzas so he was driving around all night. i was worried to death!)

ive been helping him with his job search and even applied for 1 or 2 myself so we'll see how it goes.

however hubby has interview today and he needs a landline and so hes off to MIL's before work today to use her phone. I also have AT&T phone service coming today to install a phone line, and Charter TV coming to install a HD box in the roommates bedroom.

feeling tense and nervous about it all.

 

[sanjalica]

Just wondering if anyone has any tips or tricks they'd like to share about falling asleep and STAYING asleep. Unless I completely drug myself I just can't seem to turn my head off and fall asleep. And on the off chance that I do happen to fall asleep (more like pass out) I'm up every 2 hours... like clock work.

 

[PepsiChic]

hot milk helps, I cut caffine out of my diet completely which gave me the biggest improvement i have ever seen. I like drinking "soda" fizzy drinks, so i switched to carbonated flavoured water, 0 sugars, 0 caffine, i still get my fizzy fix but the lack of caffine really helped my sleeping.

also avoiding activities close to bed time, and putting myself into a routine. so an hour before bedtime something like hot batth, or reading a book, and then putting myself into bed at midnight every night regardless of if i felt tired or not.

and i just kept doing it until my body figured out the routine.

 

[sanjalica]

Ahhh I really need to cut out the pop and coffee... I have a coffee every morning for breakfast so yeah it's only 1 but I know I need to cut it out. As for pop (pepsi)... good lord... I fully admit that I am an addict. Well, I guess WAS would be the better word for it. We stopped buying it completely about 2 years ago and I do my best to avoid it at all costs. The worst is pms though... instead of chocolate, all I want and can think about is having a pepsi. AH! Anyway, I got myself some nice bubble bath and have been trying the bath every night but it doesn't seem to be working. I keep having stupid dreams... just messed up weird dreams.

 

[PepsiChic]

Ahhh I really need to cut out the pop and coffee... I have a coffee every morning for breakfast so yeah it's only 1 but I know I need to cut it out. As for pop (pepsi)... good lord... I fully admit that I am an addict. Well, I guess WAS would be the better word for it. We stopped buying it completely about 2 years ago and I do my best to avoid it at all costs. The worst is pms though... instead of chocolate, all I want and can think about is having a pepsi. AH! Anyway, I got myself some nice bubble bath and have been trying the bath every night but it doesn't seem to be working. I keep having stupid dreams... just messed up weird dreams.

i was hooked on pepsi too, tesco and morrisons both self the carbonated flavoured water its like 75p a litre or something, its the store brand. i used it to wean myself off pepsi, like i said no caffine or sugar, it really really helped

 

[eblondie]

PepsiChic.... just remember that you CAN do things. I'm so proud of you for searching for a job. That's a great first step.

Today I tried to make an appointment with the Dr. Usually we are very lucky and can get a next day appointment... this time I was told it would be a week....so I decided not to take the appointment. I can't live the week worrying about going... it would just get me down.

 

[9babiesgone]

I can not and will not ever see another shrink. ...ever!! what this one said to me. was unbelievable!!

she almost gave me a panic attack. Now I am out of xanax. and just wondering. how someone like that can be in that profession.

 

[PepsiChic]

I can not and will not ever see another shrink. ...ever!! what this one said to me. was unbelievable!!

she almost gave me a panic attack. Now I am out of xanax. and just wondering. how someone like that can be in that profession.

oh no hunny what happened?

i personally hate all therapists. and refuse to go back into therapy because they all just make me worse!

PepsiChic.... just remember that you CAN do things. I'm so proud of you for searching for a job. That's a great first step.

Today I tried to make an appointment with the Dr. Usually we are very lucky and can get a next day appointment... this time I was told it would be a week....so I decided not to take the appointment. I can't live the week worrying about going... it would just get me down.

thankyou eblondie that was such a nice thing to read!

im sorry about the doctors appointment, but i have to agree with you. i would be the same, worrying about the stupid thing till i made myself sick! and then id panic and end up cancelling it anyway! so i completely understand. maybe next week try making another appointment and see if they have any free spaces. or ask them to contact you should they get an avaiable appointment that week.

 

[9babiesgone]

I can not and will not ever see another shrink. ...ever!! what this one said to me. was unbelievable!!

she almost gave me a panic attack. Now I am out of xanax. and just wondering. how someone like that can be in that profession.

oh no hunny what [\Quote]


She compared my depression and eating disorder to an drug addiction. And then said they are pretty much the same thing. Then she gave me An na book . It was so off base and off the wall. I wanted to cry and punch her at the same time. She also made fun of my spirituality. It was horrible. I give up on shrinks.





I am so mad she compared my depression and eating disorder to an. Drug addict and then said they are both addictions. And then she gave me an book on drug addicts. I couldn't believe her it was so off base and hurtful. Just ridiculous. Therapy really does nothing for me and she was horrible.

Today I tried to make an appointment with the Dr. Usually we are very lucky and can get a next day appointment... this time I was told it would be a week....so I decided not to take the appointment. I can't live the week worrying about going... it would just get me down.

thankyou eblondie that was such a nice thing to read!

im sorry about the doctors appointment, but i have to agree with you. i would be the same, worrying about the stupid thing till i made myself sick! and then id panic and end up cancelling it anyway! so i completely understand. maybe next week try making another appointment and see if they have any free spaces. or ask them to contact you should they get an avaiable appointment that week.[/QUOTE]

 

[9babiesgone]

Ughh sorry i messed up the quotes and such. Bc I am on an iPhone and I have never used one before

 

[PepsiChic]

Ughh sorry i messed up the quotes and such. Bc I am on an iPhone and I have never used one before

its ok i understood it. it was completely out of order what she said, and i would make a complaint if you feel strong enough to do it. is there maybe a different psychatrist you could see? and instead of of seeing one, maybe you could ask your doctor about having CBT (cognative behavioural therapy)
its very different from just going and seeing a shrink and i think you might benefit from it a lot better with your eating disorders.

 

[PepsiChic]

oh i forgot to add, having a pretty rough time myself, the last few days ive been having dreams about my ex, turning up and trying to be friends with me, and i finally give in and trust him again and he starts saying i should leave my husband and be with him and when i say no he starts to hurt me.

i tried to tell my husband about it and he said i was being silly, i told him i didnt want to speak to him again. he apologised and said he didnt think before he spoke and he meant that he doesnt think my ex will ever turn up here. but i refuse to reply for him because it hurt.

i also had a bad time this morning which made me anxious and probably why im so emotional today. I havent had sex with my DH for a while now because im not on BC. the patch is $58 for 1 month, the pill messes with my hormonal imbalance and makes my depression 10x worse, and i hate condoms, i never get pleasured when using one. well i know my husband has a high sex drive so we bought some sheep skin condoms and tried though and again i didnt get "off" and the other problem was they didnt fit OH properly and kept coming off so we gave up and then i felt like i fail to satisfy his needs and desires and that he should go find someone else etc

i had a good long cry in the shower about that one.

and it of course left me feeling miserable all day long.

 

[9babiesgone]

Ughh sorry i messed up the quotes and such. Bc I am on an iPhone and I have never used one before

its ok i understood it. it was completely out of order what she said, and i would make a complaint if you feel strong enough to do it. is there maybe a different psychatrist you could see? and instead of of seeing one, maybe you could ask your doctor about having CBT (cognative behavioural therapy)
its very different from just going and seeing a shrink and i think you might benefit from it a lot better with your eating disorders.

Thanks I filed an complaint and walked out crying. I am sorry things are so rough. Are your nightmares related to anything? Like an trigger for them? Iam glad u got a good cry and it helped sometimes it does

 

[9babiesgone]

Ian pretty sure your husband understands and doesn't want to leav you bc of this. Probably just your anxiety talking . He loves you and sometimes we forget that they won't leave us and get paranoid about it. I know I do a lot about my own oh. I really hope hope things look up for you.

 

[needausername]

Big to everyone.

PepsiChic, I wish I could give you a real big hug.


I am fairly proud of myself. I went to a work night out last night and really glammed myself up. I had a short dress and sparkly heels on that made my legs look fantastic and I got compliments all night. Both things are a big deal, first off I rarely go on social nights because I freak out about men coming on to me and when I do I dress fairly plain so not to draw attention to myself. When I walked in last night everyone turned around to look. I was a bit self-conscious but nothing overwhelming which is great because I have often gone home after an hour totally freaking out that I was in revealing clothes even though I am in leggings, a long tshirt and uggs! I had them in the car as backup but I managed to stay put until closing time with my legs out!

 

[PepsiChic]

Big to everyone.

PepsiChic, I wish I could give you a real big hug.


I am fairly proud of myself. I went to a work night out last night and really glammed myself up. I had a short dress and sparkly heels on that made my legs look fantastic and I got compliments all night. Both things are a big deal, first off I rarely go on social nights because I freak out about men coming on to me and when I do I dress fairly plain so not to draw attention to myself. When I walked in last night everyone turned around to look. I was a bit self-conscious but nothing overwhelming which is great because I have often gone home after an hour totally freaking out that I was in revealing clothes even though I am in leggings, a long tshirt and uggs! I had them in the car as backup but I managed to stay put until closing time with my legs out!

thanks hunny,

and im so incredibly proud of you! I bet you looked just GORGEOUS! so jealous i hate my legs! im so glad you went out and had a good time and felt good too. its so nice to feel good about yourself isnt it? yet its so hard for people like us who suffer from mental disorders, but that does mean that we dont take it for granted and its extra special when we do feel good!

well done!

 

[9babiesgone]

oh my I just ruined things even more. I freaked out when oh was gone hanging out with a buddy. MY moods have been so much worse in the last 5 days even more so then normal. and I freaked out. I am so dang depressed, and I have no idea why, bc today went fairly well. so I txted him, bc I was mad, bc I was so depressed and he was gone. and I didnt trust myself alone today. I havent felt like that in so long. and it scared me. so I txted him about it. I feel like I am just a burden lately. a big burden. I think I freaked him out, and I didnt mean to but I didnt want to be alone, and now I am freaking that my husband is going to hate me for this. I think I may be pregnant again, bc I only get an increased depression when I first get pregnant bc of the hormones, it makes me so much more depressed at first, till they even out, adn I think that is what is happening. and if that isnt it, I am might be having one of those breakdowns . I dont know. I am so annoyed, bc I dont know who I am right now. I dont feel like myself. I am depressed everyday but the last few days IT has been 10 times worse. and out of my control even, on a good day. something is going on right now either with my hormones or my damn brain.
sorry this was so long

 

[PepsiChic]

9babiesgone big *hugs* hunny, try to calm down. I always say im a burden on my husband and he always tells me im being silly and that i need to calm down.

You are NOT a burden on your OH or ANYONE else. depression is an illness and it can be treated, it doesnt make you a bad, evil, or hard person. it just makes you need more love and attention to cope witht he really difficult days and the horrible lows.

and there is NOTHING wrong with that! *hugs*

 

[xxema&bumpmjx]

can i join i suffer real bad sometimes i cant go out the house i cant use public transport as i feel like i cnt get of when i want also suffer when am out shoppin the fear of not being able to walk out the shop scares me i start to shake an feel sick have hot flushes an panic even more would love to chat to ppl in the same boat as me xxx

ie ive had this for 9 years an my doctors wont help me think am pathtic xxx

 

[PepsiChic]

can i join i suffer real bad sometimes i cant go out the house i cant use public transport as i feel like i cnt get of when i want also suffer when am out shoppin the fear of not being able to walk out the shop scares me i start to shake an feel sick have hot flushes an panic even more would love to chat to ppl in the same boat as me xxx

ie ive had this for 9 years an my doctors wont help me think am pathtic xxx

the only one pathetic is your doctor sadly! welcome to our group

i would find a new doctor and/or therapist to help you get over the fear of going out in to public places.

feel free to post here how your feeling x