anixety panic attacks and depression surpport group

[9babiesgone]

thanks pepsi. I missed this site so so freakin much.

 

[PepsiChic]

well we missed you too, it certainly got quieter here without you!

and im sorry for your loss hunny, if you need to talk we are here for you ok?

 

[9babiesgone]

thanks. I am trying to be happy adn healthy but somedays I want to curl up in a ball and just not be around. YOu know?? I mean alive,but left alone, and no one scream or fuss at me.

 

[Miss_d]

just got my internet back. and finally moved into our new place.

so freakin tired and depressed.

glad to have you back with us *hugs*

Hiya everyone

Ive got a hospital appointment today and its 21 miles away and i need to drive to it, only passed my test in january, never drove this far away. Anyone any ideas for me to keep calm, i am taking my 3 yr old with me so need to be calm and not get worked up. I am so nervous.

miss d, dont think about the distance too much, driving 5 miles is the same as driving 10 miles, which is the same as driving 20 miles, your doing the exact same thing for each mile, so it doesnt matter how many there are! its not like you suddenly change cars half way and have to learn to drive a whole new way or on the other side of the road, its exactly the same all the way, just keep telling yourself that!

also take some sing-along-music, your LO will love it and it'll keep you busy!

hope your appointment goes ok x

Thank you, i was actually really good, no panic, no anxiety. I went and seen some family too and left when it was rush hour traffic and managed home ok too! so i am happy with myself.

 

[eblondie]

Well done miss d
I'm feeling so sad. I thought I'd persuaded my DH not to go away this weekend.... but no. He's going Friday afternoon and will get back Sunday afternoon. I haven't had to look after my LO on my own for this amount of time before and I'm scared Feel upset and anxious. Just want to curl up and hide.

 

[Mumtobe20]

Thanks pepsichic for giving me the link to this group. I am dreading friday my OH starts his new job and he is away friday to sunday, feeling so scared at being on my own. I dont know how Im gonna cope OH and I have never been apart before for that long feel like I could cry

 

[PepsiChic]

Well done miss d
I'm feeling so sad. I thought I'd persuaded my DH not to go away this weekend.... but no. He's going Friday afternoon and will get back Sunday afternoon. I haven't had to look after my LO on my own for this amount of time before and I'm scared Feel upset and anxious. Just want to curl up and hide.

Thanks pepsichic for giving me the link to this group. I am dreading friday my OH starts his new job and he is away friday to sunday, feeling so scared at being on my own. I dont know how Im gonna cope OH and I have never been apart before for that long feel like I could cry

both your OH's are away for the weekend! you too should get on msn with eachother while they are away and have a good girly chat about them!

i know its hard when the people we rely on for support is gone, i wouldnt even let my husband go to work because of separation anxiety, so he went and got a work at home job, which im really grateful for, i still panic if he goes out though!

 

[eblondie]

thanks. I am trying to be happy adn healthy but somedays I want to curl up in a ball and just not be around. YOu know?? I mean alive,but left alone, and no one scream or fuss at me.

Completely understand this as I often want to just curl up and hide from everyone Big hugs x

 

[eblondie]

I see that your 'current feeling' is broody.... ME TOO!

 

[PepsiChic]

I see that your 'current feeling' is broody.... ME TOO!

yeah i just changed it today, was replying to a thread about cost of babies and realized that i have subconsciously kept everything in boxes in the shed for the next baby. originally we wanted to TTC #2 in august just after LO's first birthday...but now OH isnt sure so ive said end of year, but i dont wanna wait past that as i want them close in age.

sometimes i wonder though if i should of had a baby let alone another one. i know its stupid, but its in my head some days that i am too "ill" to be a good mother.

 

[9babiesgone]

thanks. I am trying to be happy adn healthy but somedays I want to curl up in a ball and just not be around. YOu know?? I mean alive,but left alone, and no one scream or fuss at me.

Completely understand this as I often want to just curl up and hide from everyone Big hugs x

thanks today was even worse, bc husband had duty all day and night yesterday and now is sleeping the day away, ye tI am stuck at home with two very active toddlers, that wont stop demanding me. and I am so incredibly drained. feel like a single mom today and yesterday . didnt want to ever feel that way again.

 

[rainbows_x]

Hi :wave:

Though I would come and say hello whilst I am in a good mood and won't moan as much.
I'm 20, have a baby girl Ava who is 6 months. I suffer from anxiety and I think PND, though I haven't seen a dcotor to confirm.

I started self harming in high school, only for a brief time though, when I turned 17 I started seeing a counciller who I had CBT with, didn't find it very helpfull in the slightest really, but things did get better as I went work and made friends.

I left work in December 2009 and found I was pregnant a few weeks after. I am a SAHM now, and I realllllly do not want to return to work.
For one I feel I can't be away from LO, two I feel scared to go to a whole new work, new people, new skills etc.

I have very low confidence, feel ugly, feel OH would be better with someone else, scared everyone looks at me, judging me.

For example I had to get on the bus the other day, bus was full, had to get a bulky buggy on, no-one helped, everyone stared and was waiting for me. Those kinds of things make me break into a sweat and I panic.

I also have asthma which makes eveything worse. I haven't had a panic attack in a year! Though I feel I am getting worse anxiety and I am almost sure I am depressed, on my good days I feel like me, on my bad I don't want to be around anyone.

 

[PepsiChic]

welcome rainbows!

i could of written that whole post myself, its exactly how i am! I have a job but i keep extending my maternity leave because im scared to go back and deal with all the news people and customers.

i also feel the same way often about myself and about my OH that he could and should find someone better and no have to deal with me and my problems etc.

i know exactly how you feel and i know its a horible place to be but dont worry, we're here to help each other, so post when you feel like it say as little or as much as you want, and we'll always listen

we all understand what your going through and what your feeling so remember your not alone!

 

[rainbows_x]

Thankyou! It's nice to be able to join a group where you are all experiencing the same thing!

The thought of returning to work just feels me with dread, OH is getting a promotion, which would mean I wouldn't have to go back so soon, but I just can't see myself going back at all.

I keep chickening out of calling the doctors, I just don't know what I would say.

 

[PepsiChic]

you should go to the doctors or call and talk to them, i think it would help, you just have to tell them your suffering from anxiety and you also feel really depressed, they will understand and arrange whats best for you

 

[eblondie]

Rainbows welcome! I totally understand your problem with buses. I hate them with a passion! I don't mind going to town the the journey there and back is horrible as I get very anxious about getting the bus.
Well I've got through the afternoon and I'm getting through the evening all by myself

 

[PepsiChic]

glad your getting through the day ok eblondie! thats great

ive had a nasty cold since sunday night and i feel miserable, but i also feel more anxious, probably because im tired, LO has the cold now too and was up evry 2 hours last night because his nose kept clogging up.

 

[eblondie]

I was doing so well. I even pushed LO round the village today for over an hour. My problem is that I've had very little contact with my OH. He tried to call yesterday during LOs bathtime so I missed the call. I then had no contact at all until lunch time today when I got a text saying his phone had died and he doesn't have the charger. I then got another text at 2pm just saying brb.... it's now 7pm and nothing. It has so upset me. I felt I was coping so well being alone with LO. Now LO has gone to bed and I'm sat here typing this and can't stop crying. I just don't understand what's going on

 

[eblondie]

PepsiChic. How are you and LO today? Hope you get some sleep tonight x

 

[PepsiChic]

I was doing so well. I even pushed LO round the village today for over an hour. My problem is that I've had very little contact with my OH. He tried to call yesterday during LOs bathtime so I missed the call. I then had no contact at all until lunch time today when I got a text saying his phone had died and he doesn't have the charger. I then got another text at 2pm just saying brb.... it's now 7pm and nothing. It has so upset me. I felt I was coping so well being alone with LO. Now LO has gone to bed and I'm sat here typing this and can't stop crying. I just don't understand what's going on

im sorry your having a hard time now, it was good that you got out with LO, i wish there was somewhere i could walk with LO in the stroller, but we're miles away from the nearest town, and theres no sidewalks/pavement to walk on and all the sops are miles apart from one another...typical american town really.

try to stay strong, do something to keep yourself busy? maybe play a game? do you play any computer games? i play one called Lord Of the Rings Online, its a nice free game that keeps me busy while LO is napping and OH is at work. doesnt require a great machine to play it either.

i had a REALLY shit night last night, on top of being ill, anxious and down right depressed, i had an argument with my OH, well we didnt really argue, i asked him when he planned on spending time with his wife, as he keeps going on his comptuer games the moment he finishes work after ive waited all day to spend time with him. he said "tomorrow" followed by "what doy ou expect? me to spend all my spare time with you?" he wasnt being nasty he just doesnt see a problem with it, of course that was it, i was so upset already i just burst into tears, told him to leave me alone, and went to bed. i didnt sleep till he came to bed a good 4 hours later, he kept saying sorry and trying to kiss me, i just pulled away and huddled up with the blankets. i fell asleep at some point but woke up on and off all night till i got up with LO.

today hes acting like nothing happened, and for the sake of LO i tried to act happy too, did some gardening to try and ease some stress, but im just so depressed.