anixety panic attacks and depression surpport group

[eblondie]

HI everyone. I've been away all last week spending time with family. I can see that people are having a really hard time at the moment so just wanted to send hugs out to everyone. i know it's hard but try to be positive and try to focus on the positive things happening in your life... however small. Also if you are having a hard time, try to stay away from those who you feel drain you as it's hard enough coping without that. I've learnt that the hard way.

 

[9babiesgone]

really really hate today! MY hormones are making my depression worse. Off to take me some kanna!

 

[PepsiChic]

eblondie thats a nice positive post, i hope your doing ok after visiting your family.

9babiesgone...*hugs* crossing fingers for a sticky bean.

im having a really rough time, my Lo is great, hes perfect in every way and sleeping and eating great and developing wonderfully (is up on all fours today!) my husband is even doing better helping out in the house and its wonderful that hes home all the time now (working from home)

but my depression is worsening, i keep crying randomly, i feel like im sinking into a big black hole and i dont want to move or do anything. i feel exhausted constantly and weak too. it doesnt help that my periods are really heavy again and im loosing a lot of blood every time AF visits, but i dont want to take the anemia pills i used to be on because they make me hideously sick which will make me feel worse.

sigh.

 

[eblondie]

Ugh Pepsi. I hate periods! I currently have the Depo injection which means that I don't have them anymore.
Have you tried it? I'm trying so hard to be positive. I had some really bad news last night which could mean big changes for me but at the moment I just don't know. I'm not going to make any swift decisions.

 

[PepsiChic]

i cant have injections of any type im a server phobic of needles/hospital equipment stuff. i had to be resuscitated once when a stupid nurse didnt believe me and my heart stopped.
thanks though i never heard of an injection that stops periods thats kinda cool.

im sorry you've had some bad news, crossing my fingers things work out for you, im here if you need to talk hunny *hugs*

 

[Miss_d]

Hi everyone, hope everyone is good.

Just a wee rant, yesterday i crashed my car with my 2 kids in it, so i am a bag of nerves it was all my fault, the kids were arguing in the back of the car and i let them distract me and pulled out in front of a car at a roundabout, the women i crashed into was freaking out with me, i apologised and she threatend to punch me, usually i answer anyone back but i think it was the whole shock of it that i never, now i am so bloody angry at her, she kept saying i dont understand her car is her baby, not once did she say how is your kids, as i kept going back to the car to check on them. A witness seen it got out her car and told her to calm down that it was an accident, witness was so lovely and calmed the situation down and made sure me and the kids were ok, my car has a few paint marks off but the smallest bits, hers has a dent in it, shes so lucky she hasnt a dent in her face the way she spoke to me by threatning me, i will end it here cos am getting angry again!!

 

[PepsiChic]

miss d thats horrible! that stupid woman! a car may be wonderful and great but its just material you think you'd be more worried about yourself at least then your car. argh people drive me nuts sometimes!

glad you and your 2 children are ok, hopefully the shock will wear off soon
xxx

 

[eblondie]

Miss D big hugs x Accidents are horrible. I'm still mentally scarred from one we had when I was 13! Some people just seem to have all their priorities mixed up and she seems one of them!
Thanks Pepsi x I might just do that. Will see how things go.
I've work again tomorrow so hope I get a good night sleep tonight... fingers crossed.

 

[babydevil1989]

feeling anxious again today.
been on citalopram for week and a half. after the first 3 days side effects wore off and iv been feeling great been able to go out and enjoy myself. LO has been ill with a virus and teething since friday and hasnt been sleeping im worn out my IBS has flared up and im exhausted. Iv just got back from toddler group and iom feeling sooo lightheaded and faint i was doing so well and now its like iv taken a step backwards! =(

 

[PepsiChic]

feeling anxious again today.
been on citalopram for week and a half. after the first 3 days side effects wore off and iv been feeling great been able to go out and enjoy myself. LO has been ill with a virus and teething since friday and hasnt been sleeping im worn out my IBS has flared up and im exhausted. Iv just got back from toddler group and iom feeling sooo lightheaded and faint i was doing so well and now its like iv taken a step backwards! =(

how much sleep are you getting? is it possible you could take a nap when LO naps? that might help you get through the whole day a bit better, im glad the meds are helping you though that is good news

 

[babydevil1989]

thanks. last night i got 6 hours BUT im still catching up from the weekend where i was getting 3 hours! hopefully tomorrow il feel better i just dont want to get into the cycle of anxiety again xx

 

[PepsiChic]

i know its hard, just try to remain positive and to remember to take your medication, it also helps if you try to take it at the same time every day...it can be a pain in the ass to remember though when you got a LO to care for!

 

[eblondie]

It's been pretty quiet on here recently. Hope that means that everyone is feeling well? How are you PepsiChic?

 

[PepsiChic]

hi chick,

ive kind of been avoiding this thread because i feel like im going to explode with emotion, ive been suffering really badly with depression the last few weeks and its making everything so difficult

how are you doing? x

 

[eblondie]

That's what I was thought might be happening. I WAS trying to be positive and was hoping everyone was having a good week but really I was thinking that people were probably having a hard time. I was staying away because things weren't good.
On a plus point I have managed to see a Dr who is going to refer me. I could tell from his questioning that he thinks there is more to my anxiety and that he thinks I have depression. I'm pretty sure that I would recognise depression as I've had it on and off for the last 15+ years.

 

[PepsiChic]

im really proud of you! well done for going to see the dr, i know its not easy.

as for what he said...you know he could be right. depression NEVER goe s away and there is no cure for it, it just sort of feels less worse for a while and then resurfaces. and when you've had it for so long (im at 10 years this year) sometimes we are just used to feeling crappy (the less worse depression) that we dont realise its actually causing other problems....for example my OCD and anxiety and panic attacks are linked to my depression.

so he could be right, just because your depression isnt really bad right now doesnt mean its not causing the effect of anxiety! they do often go hand in hand.

is he going to refer you to a therapist?

x

 

[babydevil1989]

i think the anti ds are starting to work for the first time in a month i have been able to take my son to the play park on my own without feeling anxious or panicky and we had a really good time. starting to feel like my old self again hopefully it stays!

hope everyone else is ok xx

 

[eblondie]

i think the anti ds are starting to work for the first time in a month i have been able to take my son to the play park on my own without feeling anxious or panicky and we had a really good time. starting to feel like my old self again hopefully it stays!

hope everyone else is ok xx

That's fantastic

Well I have my step son here this week so I think the stress will be piled on and the anxiety high... but lets see!

 

[babydevil1989]

Thankyou i had to tell someone but no one in real life knew iv been struggling to go out alone. was too scared to say to anyone. so so happy to be getting back to 'normal'.

hope having your stepson isnt too stressful x

 

[PepsiChic]

babydevil its great that your feeling better now! and that you had fun with LO i really hope you continue to improve

eblondie, how old is the stepson? hope he doesnt stress you out too much!