anixety panic attacks and depression surpport group

[Groovychick]

Hello girls! May I join?

 

[eblondie]

Thanks Pepsi. OH ended up coming home early as he wasn't enjoying himself!
My OH likes computer games too and when he comes home from work he goes straight on to his computer. Yes it annoys the hell out of me too! I don't understand how they think it's ok. I think it's just that they see it as their way of chilling. They don't understand that we might need their attention! I really need to do some gardening but it's not something I enjoy so I've been putting it off.

 

[eblondie]

Welcome Groovy chick!

 

[9babiesgone]

welcome groovy chick

 

[Groovychick]

Thanks girls.

Just had an argument with OH.

 

[PepsiChic]

Welcome Groovychick,

im sorry you had an argument with your OH, *big hugs*

 

[hellohefalump]

Can I join? I have a long history of depression, and a short history of psychosis!

A wierd thing has happened... my doctor's referred me back to the mental health team (appointment tommorow) after I scored highly on her depression test. Thing is, I don't remember doing a depression test at all, and I don't think I would have scored high because I'm doing rather well at the moment! So either she's made a mistake, or I'm starting to go a little crazy again and have completely blanked it out!

LOL wish me luck for tommorow I told my CPN I was doing fine, and she said, well, your doctor disagrees :-/

 

[UnsureMom]

I am. I desperately need people to talk to about what I'm going through...

 

[PepsiChic]

hi hello, how did your appointment go?

and hello unsuremom, whats wrong hunny? *hugs* we're here to listen and help, so dont worry your in the right place, just take your time. x

 

[UnsureMom]

I've always had bouts of depression as a young adult/teenager. But as I got older, I thought I'd finally sort of recovered as it's been a few years since I had any major bouts with being depressed.

However, now, here I am 27 days away from my due date with our first baby. My husband has been nothing be ecstatic. I was really upset at first, then was excited, and now I have been terribly depressed and I can't get past it. I cry for no reason. When I think about him being here, I cry. When I think about I'm not going to get to do what I wanted with my life, I cry. I'm just so unsure about this and about being a mom. My husband can't relate at all and every one I know says they can't relate... that in their 9th month they were thrilled to be having their baby. And that maybe when he's here I'll cheer up. And I hope they are right. But right now, I just don't know if they are. I DO love him, and would never want anything bad to happen to him, but I don't know if I'm ready to be a parent.

My husband tells me it's too late now and to grow up..and that doesn't help. It just makes it worse, because it makes me feel even worse for how I'm feeling.

The baby was unplanned..and I didn't even find out I was pregnant until I was almost 21 weeks..

I feel really alone, and I feel terrible for how I'm feeling..

 

[PepsiChic]

I've always had bouts of depression as a young adult/teenager. But as I got older, I thought I'd finally sort of recovered as it's been a few years since I had any major bouts with being depressed.

However, now, here I am 27 days away from my due date with our first baby. My husband has been nothing be ecstatic. I was really upset at first, then was excited, and now I have been terribly depressed and I can't get past it. I cry for no reason. When I think about him being here, I cry. When I think about I'm not going to get to do what I wanted with my life, I cry. I'm just so unsure about this and about being a mom. My husband can't relate at all and every one I know says they can't relate... that in their 9th month they were thrilled to be having their baby. And that maybe when he's here I'll cheer up. And I hope they are right. But right now, I just don't know if they are. I DO love him, and would never want anything bad to happen to him, but I don't know if I'm ready to be a parent.

My husband tells me it's too late now and to grow up..and that doesn't help. It just makes it worse, because it makes me feel even worse for how I'm feeling.

The baby was unplanned..and I didn't even find out I was pregnant until I was almost 21 weeks..

I feel really alone, and I feel terrible for how I'm feeling..

you sound kind of like me towards the end of the pregnancy, we werent planning on a baby for 3 years, and then i started to be really sick one day and though i'll take a test just because thats what the doctors always do first. and i was on the patch so never in my life though that i would be pregnant, and then i didnt have much to think about it because when we went for the scan i was 15 weeks along.

for a while i was just shocked and scared, then as the pregnancy progressed and people around me were excited i was too, but about a month before he was due, i got really low, worried and stressed. had no idea how i would cope with him being born.

it did go away when i went into labour, and for a while afterwards, i had depression on and off, some days were great others were bad, right now has been a really hard time.

my advice is, make your OH help, dont take no for answer if i had been stronger about that i wouldnt be in the mess i am now. because i did everything with the baby and cleaning now my husband expects it and if i ask him for help it causes arguments so i just end up doing it all myself.

also dont withdraw yourself from other people. I dont drive, everything is miles away, i dont know any other mums with babys, im in the house 24/7, the nearest gas station is 12 miles away in the town, i cant walk there and back with baby on a road (theres no sidewalks/pavement)

this lack of being able to get away from the house, even for a few hours, or just to be able to socialise with other people has really got me into a deep depression.

try to stay positive, think about the things your going to do int he future with your LO, going to the park, first soccer game, first birth day party, first taste of food, first time you hold him etc.

 

[babydevil1989]

arghhhhh!! i cant /dont want to live like this anymore! no one understands whats going on in my head. every little ache and pain is cancer or a brain tumour or a stroke. i cant stop it from happening and i dont know why it does.

i feel sorry for my little boy some days i feel so ill i can only do the essentials with him such as feed him and bath him.

why is this happening to me everyday i wake up and think right today is a new day no more anxiety no more brain tumours but it doesnt happen!

no need to reply just neeeded to get it out cxxx

 

[9babiesgone]

really mad at people undermining my loss.

and really depressed

 

[PepsiChic]

arghhhhh!! i cant /dont want to live like this anymore! no one understands whats going on in my head. every little ache and pain is cancer or a brain tumour or a stroke. i cant stop it from happening and i dont know why it does.

i feel sorry for my little boy some days i feel so ill i can only do the essentials with him such as feed him and bath him.

why is this happening to me everyday i wake up and think right today is a new day no more anxiety no more brain tumours but it doesnt happen!

no need to reply just neeeded to get it out cxxx

have you been to a doctor about it? sometimes simple therapy or an anxiety med can help ease the worries a bit, or keeping busy i know its hard though when you feel awful.

really mad at people undermining my loss.

and really depressed

oh sweety, ANY loss is hard. i lost a Lo at 9 weeks, but only my OH and people on here know. i feel like if i tell anyone else it will just be "oh thats too bad" attitude that i cant deal with. its also hard not having anyone to talk to about it though

 

[9babiesgone]

it is super hard, bc in real life I have no one to talk to it about.


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and no one really understands that I have lost so much that I just feel like curling up in a ball somedays.

 

[PepsiChic]

it is super hard, bc in real life I have no one to talk to it about.


: (

and no one really understands that I have lost so much that I just feel like curling up in a ball somedays.

 

[9babiesgone]

thanks!!! : )

 

[UnsureMom]

Thank you for the advice

 

[aidensxmomma]

Can I join you ladies?

When I was 12 or 13 I was diagnosed with depression. A year after that I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. On top of that when I was 18 I was diagnosed with ADHD. I also have a severe phobia of vomiting (isn't that weird?).

I'm also going to get an evaluation done to find out if I've got borderline personality disorder and I have a feeling I'm going to get diagnosed with severe social anxiety as well.

I feel kind of like a phony if I say I have social anxiety, but the signs are all there. Since I was about 10 I have this fear of trying things in front of people. Like, I won't try any new activities if there's anyone else around. Learning to drive was a horrible experience because of that. I hate talking to people on the phone and I have to "prepare" myself for hours before making a simple phone call for a doctor appointment or anything like that.

It's just gotten worse and worse to the point where I'm terrified of being around people I don't know. I've missed the funeral of a good friend and the wedding reception of another because of the anxiety of being around people. I feel horribly guilty for both.

I just feel like the anxiety has gotten way out of control.

 

[PepsiChic]

aidensxmomma - many of us here have some form of social anxiety, its one of the most common forms of anixety out there so dont worry your not alone with those feelings, in fact everything you wrote is an echo of myself, and probably a few other people in this group too.
*hugs*

rant, moan, cry...whatever you need to do you can do it here and not be judged but instead..completely understood

x