~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[annawrigley]

I'm having a bad day. last night I saw an ex that used to beat me terribly and basically led me to my ED. It just brought everything back. I've just spent the whole morning bingeing and purging
I'm never going to be free from him. I hate knowing that even all these years later he still has a grip on me.
My OH just doesn't understand.

That's how I am with FOB. Does your OH know about your ED?xxx

Yeah he just doesn't take it seriously. He thinks that because I haven't done it infront of him that it's not happening. xxxx

Stupid, of course you're not gonna do it in front of him! xxxx

 

[_laura]

I'm having a bad day. last night I saw an ex that used to beat me terribly and basically led me to my ED. It just brought everything back. I've just spent the whole morning bingeing and purging
I'm never going to be free from him. I hate knowing that even all these years later he still has a grip on me.
My OH just doesn't understand.

That's how I am with FOB. Does your OH know about your ED?xxx

Yeah he just doesn't take it seriously. He thinks that because I haven't done it infront of him that it's not happening. xxxx

Stupid, of course you're not gonna do it in front of him! xxxx

Exactly! I think he's in denial about the whole thing.

 

[Phantom]

This baby is getting too big.

And the thing is, I'm not even that big compared to most women! But my belly is just... there, all the time. None of my clothes fit. Not even my bras. I can't keep hearing about how much "better" I look.

I know its good for baby. But I feel hideous. I have nothing to wear.

I never thought I would hvae such a hard time because I want this baby so much, I figured I could handle being pregnant.

 

[Sarah10]

This baby is getting too big.

And the thing is, I'm not even that big compared to most women! But my belly is just... there, all the time. None of my clothes fit. Not even my bras. I can't keep hearing about how much "better" I look.

I know its good for baby. But I feel hideous. I have nothing to wear.

I never thought I would hvae such a hard time because I want this baby so much, I figured I could handle being pregnant.

:hugs
I remember thinking this too, pregnancy doesn't last forever though, try and enjoy it, it will be over before you know it! xxx

Urgh i put a pic on facebook of me with jayden and my legs look fat, ewwwww eww eww.

got some new scales today (seriously how long did that take?) and i hate the fact my BMI is healthy, and i've gon and bought some jeans in a smaller size, shine a fucking light.

 

[annawrigley]

I keep getting horrible tummy aches after everything I eat, doc has given me some tablets cos thinks it might be IBS but I've not been taking them so I can just avoid eating instead cos I know it will give me a tummy ache

 

[louandivy]

I have the same thing hun, when I was in recovery I started getting horrible nausea and cramping most nights. When I was in hospital they actually made me take anti-psychotics because I was having major panic attacks every night because I felt so ill. I had it tonight actually Do you ever wonder if its anxiety-related? I definitely think it is in my case, I still feel like most foods are dangerous so convince myself that everything gives me food poisoning! Lemon and ginger tea really helps me though

 

[annawrigley]

I have the same thing hun, when I was in recovery I started getting horrible nausea and cramping most nights. When I was in hospital they actually made me take anti-psychotics because I was having major panic attacks every night because I felt so ill. I had it tonight actually Do you ever wonder if its anxiety-related? I definitely think it is in my case, I still feel like most foods are dangerous so convince myself that everything gives me food poisoning! Lemon and ginger tea really helps me though

Thanks Yeah maybe it could be, I hadn't considered that tbh. I'm generally very stressed. It doesn't happen every time, but it doesn't seem to happen after any particular food either so I can't pinpoint what it is. I'll have to try some of the tea!

 

[Sarah10]

I hate how not eating makes me want to drop to sleep, ZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzz

 

[tjw]

MESSAGE TO ALL ON THIS THREAD:

I struggled with Bulimia and then Anorexia from age 11 until I went into voluntary recovery at age 26 (I'm now 31). The thoughts never go away, the self image still sucks ass, and I still have times when it is a struggle to cope. I don't have mirrors or scales in my house, and must admit I still use neg cals most of the time.

Just wanted to say that I am so pleased to find this thread here on bnb as when I was preg with my daughter I often felt guilty and stressed out because of feelings towards my body during that time. She's now 16m old and I have a son on the way due in August. Thee feelings are here again, but I'm finding it a little easier this time as my partner realised how hard it was to cope before and he is supporting me really well.

I just want to wish you all good health, strength, and courage. And if anyone wants to pm me for support, I'm here to chat any time xx

 

[Sarah10]

what a vile human being i am.

 

[tjw]

You're not vile hon, you didn't ask to feel the things you do and you didn't ask to struggle like this

 

[Sarah10]

Thanks hun i feel disgusting tho xx

 

[tjw]

Know the feeling well hon xx

 

[9babiesgone]

eh sorry sarah!!! I feel the same way all around

 

[annawrigley]

Thanks hun i feel disgusting tho xx

I feel gross today as well. Get out of my head

 

[misslissa]

removed my post

 

[Groovychick]

I'm struggling too. My bulimia is the worst it has ever been and I feel incredibly guilty for putting my unborn little girl through this. She didn't ask for it.

 

[Groovychick]

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For all the girls on this thread.

 

[annawrigley]

I'm struggling too. My bulimia is the worst it has ever been and I feel incredibly guilty for putting my unborn little girl through this. She didn't ask for it.

Are you getting any help for it hun? Is your little girl measuring ok and everything? I'm so sorry you're having to cope with this guilt xxx

 

[Georgie90]

how have i just found this
xxx