~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[Groovychick]

Do you have any friends you can socialise with? How about a mother and toddler group? Perhaps getting out would help you feel better.

 

[9babiesgone]

eh I am all alone, no car, and most of the time, I have no way to get to any groups. it gets super lonely and isolating!!!

 

[Sarah10]

I hate pictures of me, i fucking hate them, i barely have any because i look completely disgusting, pics of me on FB i tried reporting them to get them off but FB won't. vile vile vile fat fat fucking fat.

Rant

 

[Groovychick]

eh I am all alone, no car, and most of the time, I have no way to get to any groups. it gets super lonely and isolating!!!

Is it possible you could catch public transport or get someone to pick you up?

 

[Groovychick]

I hate pictures of me, i fucking hate them, i barely have any because i look completely disgusting, pics of me on FB i tried reporting them to get them off but FB won't. vile vile vile fat fat fucking fat.

Rant

You are not disgusting hun, that's what your ED is leading you to believe. There is no definition of what is beautiful and what is not as everyone has their own individual opinion. What attributes do you have which you feel are positive?

 

[Sarah10]

Thankyou, i really can't say any, i look horrible everywhere, my legs are fat, arms are too, face is ugly, i have a beautiful son, he came from me so i guess he's positive xx

 

[9babiesgone]

eh I am all alone, no car, and most of the time, I have no way to get to any groups. it gets super lonely and isolating!!!

Is it possible you could catch public transport or get someone to pick you up?

nah most of my friends no longe rcare about me, and the bus station is more than 10 miles away and I can not physically walk that far.

 

[Groovychick]

Thankyou, i really can't say any, i look horrible everywhere, my legs are fat, arms are too, face is ugly, i have a beautiful son, he came from me so i guess he's positive xx

That's an excellent start. You have a beautiful son who depends on you for life. What about non-physical attributes such as those related to personality?

 

[Groovychick]

nah most of my friends no longe rcare about me, and the bus station is more than 10 miles away and I can not physically walk that far.

Is it possible you could either get a taxi into town or ask OH to drop you on his way somewhere?

 

[9babiesgone]

nah he is in the usmc! and they dont really let him hav e the time to drop me off when he has to be at work at 4 or 5 am.

I just gave up having a social life.

 

[Groovychick]

Do you feel resentful that you aren't able to socialise?

 

[9babiesgone]

eh not much anymore. I used to be, but I got over it, bc over the last 3 years I really have had barely any life once I had my first child, and I was a single mom for almost an year, and it was hard, but I learned how to deal without one. Internet being my most support!!

 

[_laura]

I've just been looking over old photos of myself and I HATE the way I look now.
I just want to purge and restrict until I'm the same size again (I lost 3 stone and was happy with the way I looked before I fell preg - Got preg pretty much straight after I lost the weight and put it all back on plus more and still not managed to shift it all)


OH doesn't help. I'm not going to stop now until I'm back to that weight.

 

[futuremommy91]

I'm so terrified about entering treatment for my bulimia (I also severely restrict) at the end of June. My ED started because of my weight and self-image issues, and even though I've lost 60 pounds in less than 6 months, I have 35 to go before I reach my "perfect, happy" weight.

While I think I look okay some days, I'm usually disgusted with myself. And I know that once I start eating more than 650cals a day I'll gain. A LOT I know I have to at least try outpatient, but I also know myself. Weight is the most important thing to me, and I'm terrified that once I start gaining I'll immediately drop out of the treatment program. Worse, that I'll never be able to recover.

Sorry if this is confusing, just needed to rant.

 

[Phantom]

I tried. I really tried guys.

I made it to week 26 but I just can't pretend any more. I'm hideous. I'm the ugliest pregnant woman EVER. MY OH hasn't said I look good in... I don't remember. And it's finally hitting me.

I wake up covered in sweat which I'm totally not used to because I'm usually always cold. And none of my summer pajamas fit. I had to cut up some of my winter ones. The shirts are so tight on my belly. I can constantly feel the material touching me.

I know its for the baby and I have to suck it up. And I haven't let it bother me so far! But now I just can't stop crying. I hate everything about me. I want this baby out of me. I want to hold him in my arms, not in my belly. My BMI has got to be up to 18 by now. But it feels like a lot more.

I'm so so scared. I have no control over anything anymore. My body isn't mine. The pains, the odd sensations. All of it is foreign and alien.

Was I expecting anything different? No. But I was expecting to be able to handle it better.

 

[mayb_baby]

https://www.babyandbump.com/teenage-parenting/624299-going-doctors-tomorrow-finally-get-help.html

 

[Lubbird]

X

 

[mayb_baby]

Thanks I'm just so tired as I don't want all this to come cack I mean my son is 5 months old and I know he doesn’t need a 'sick' mummy, but I can't shake the desire to restrict and exercise to the extreme.

I hate looking at my body, I used to feel fat but now I am and I really look it.
It helps a lot with how I feel at the moment I feel as though I have no say in anything, me and my OH are in a bad patch my mum tries to come to my house and completely take over as she knows EVERYTHING! My MIL telling me what to do all the time, feels like I can do nothing at all

I sometimes wish I could be pregnant again as when I was I never felt that bad, I mean at times I had a bit of a meltdown but I always had that fear I don’t want my baby to starve!

I just want to feel normal and I don’t! I know an ED isn’t ‘normal’ but I feel so much better my skipping and restricting my food.

I'm rambling so here I'm going to stop now x

 

[annawrigley]

Thanks I'm just so tired as I don't want all this to come cack I mean my son is 5 months old and I know he doesn’t need a 'sick' mummy, but I can't shake the desire to restrict and exercise to the extreme.

I hate looking at my body, I used to feel fat but now I am and I really look it.
It helps a lot with how I feel at the moment I feel as though I have no say in anything, me and my OH are in a bad patch my mum tries to come to my house and completely take over as she knows EVERYTHING! My MIL telling me what to do all the time, feels like I can do nothing at all

I sometimes wish I could be pregnant again as when I was I never felt that bad, I mean at times I had a bit of a meltdown but I always had that fear I don’t want my baby to starve!

I just want to feel normal and I don’t! I know an ED isn’t ‘normal’ but I feel so much better my skipping and restricting my food.

I'm rambling so here I'm going to stop now x

Restricting feels normal to me too, if I eat a full meal and am full it feels weird, and wrong, but I suppose thats what is supposed to be 'normal'

 

[mayb_baby]

Restricting feels normal to me too, if I eat a full meal and am full it feels weird, and wrong, but I suppose thats what is supposed to be 'normal' [/COLOR]

I'm the same I hate being full, I feel like I’ve done something wrong if I'm full. I never have had ‘good’ eating patterns I mean to be lunch can be a half packet of super noodles and I LOVE to cook I make lovely big roasts and stuff but never eat them