~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[Lubbird]

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[mayb_baby]

Nope well they knew I had 'issues' with weight, but my whole family does as there is no overweight people in our family as they all obsess even my 14 year old sister who is a size 8 and has the perfect body restricts and diets. So to our family our behaviour is normal, only thing is I’m the only one who has ever been ill due my eating habits.

 

[Lubbird]

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[mayb_baby]

Well I got pregnant at 6stn 7lb I’m 5ft, I suffered a MC at 8weeks. I then fell pregnant again at 7stn 3lb and I now have my baby boy. I was on a ED Forum and was in sever completion with girls x

 

[Lubbird]

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[mayb_baby]

Well I got pregnant at 6stn 7lb I’m 5ft, I suffered a MC at 8weeks. I then fell pregnant again at 7stn 3lb and I now have my baby boy. I was on a ED Forum and was in sever completion with girls x

Was it a planned pregnancy? I feel bad TTC when i know I have an ED. I just keep telling myself it will be different when I have another life to think about. Which forum where you on? I was on PT but its changed to a recovery site now which i'm glad about since it's not promoting it, but i'm not ready for recovery yet so its not a place for me anymore.

No he wasn't planned he was a suprise lol, I was on why eat its all support now too. I still go on but mehh I try not to I love it though as much as Bnb.....
I love cooking too I mean, I love food so much but I'm petrified of eating it I taste or take a kiddies meal

 

[Lubbird]

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[Rin731]

I hate pictures of me, i fucking hate them, i barely have any because i look completely disgusting, pics of me on FB i tried reporting them to get them off but FB won't. vile vile vile fat fat fucking fat.

Rant

I doubt that you are fat , hon, but I do the same....only it's like, I know I'm overweight now so I look at my old pictures from when I was....70 lbs lighter or so....and it about kills me.

I swear, it used to be I starved because I hated myself, then I binged because I hated myself (but didn't purge, hence the weight)...and now I"m trying to lose weight without going full blown anorexic again. *sigh*

 

[Groovychick]

 

[louandivy]

Ohhh groovychick you are going to be meeting your little girl any day now! How are you feeling? Thought of any names?

 

[mayb_baby]

Well I got pregnant at 6stn 7lb I’m 5ft, I suffered a MC at 8weeks. I then fell pregnant again at 7stn 3lb and I now have my baby boy. I was on a ED Forum and was in sever completion with girls x

Was it a planned pregnancy? I feel bad TTC when i know I have an ED. I just keep telling myself it will be different when I have another life to think about. Which forum where you on? I was on PT but its changed to a recovery site now which i'm glad about since it's not promoting it, but i'm not ready for recovery yet so its not a place for me anymore.

No he wasn't planned he was a suprise lol, I was on why eat its all support now too. I still go on but mehh I try not to I love it though as much as Bnb.....
I love cooking too I mean, I love food so much but I'm petrified of eating it I taste or take a kiddies meal

I just signed up so if you ever wanna chat on ther let me know

One of the things that annoys me about recovery sites is that fact that you can't talk about ANYTHING to do with your own eating habits or exercise habits without being jumped on and accused of triggering. Even if what you said wasn't triggering. So irritating.

One of my friends on PT asked what my boyfriend had made for dinner, so i told her and I also said i had left it and then guessed the calorie amount. Someone reported me lol.

There not that bad, tbh we can talk a good bit and theres a chat bar xx

 

[Rin731]

Well last night was awful.

I exercised yesterday, so thought if I dont eat I'll lose faster.
I had barely eaten all day, and was literally force-feeding myself like 5 bites of peanut butter over the course of an hour.

Of course DH was home, had to witness the whole thing...

Got so shakey and cold in bed I HAD to get up and eat some sliced turkey to fall asleep.



Then this morning I woke up, feeling *okay* , and all....

Long story short ended up yanking at my hair and crying for no reason except DH was going into work for a bit on his day off. Again, he was home and saw it all.

Now he's there, I'm at home, and all I want to do is restrict and pull at my hair some more.

Really bad day, hating myself more now than ever (esp since we're NTNP, but no period since JANUARY, so ). And now I'm sitting here at the computer, crying.

 

[lb]

I know I haven't posted in months, but I feel terrible. I haven't eaten a real meal in days. I've lost 5 lbs in the past week and now my hair is starting to fall out, and I'm still classified as overweight. I'm so emotional right now. I'm trying so hard to lose weight the healthy way, but I keep falling back into the binge/starve cycle.

 

[Rin731]

I know I haven't posted in months, but I feel terrible. I haven't eaten a real meal in days. I've lost 5 lbs in the past week and now my hair is starting to fall out, and I'm still classified as overweight. I'm so emotional right now. I'm trying so hard to lose weight the healthy way, but I keep falling back into the binge/starve cycle.

I don't binge, but I do restrict...I was in the same boat for a bit this week, I was so low blood sugar I was fallign all over the place, etc. I have like 50-60 lbs to lose, and I'm trying to starve myself again! I'm exercising too, which makes it all the more frustrating.

Right there with you!

 

[lb]

I know I haven't posted in months, but I feel terrible. I haven't eaten a real meal in days. I've lost 5 lbs in the past week and now my hair is starting to fall out, and I'm still classified as overweight. I'm so emotional right now. I'm trying so hard to lose weight the healthy way, but I keep falling back into the binge/starve cycle.

I don't binge, but I do restrict...I was in the same boat for a bit this week, I was so low blood sugar I was fallign all over the place, etc. I have like 50-60 lbs to lose, and I'm trying to starve myself again! I'm exercising too, which makes it all the more frustrating.

Right there with you!

I'm on day 4 of no binging, but yeah, my blood sugar is really low. I've already passed out in front of my mom once in the past month. I've lost 30 lbs since the cycle restarted itself, and seeing the number on the scale go down gives me this huge high. I just feel really bad about it. I feel like I'm letting my family down.

It also terrifies me because I don't want Kayla to think the same things about herself and pick up the same habits. I know I picked it up from my mom. :\

 

[Rin731]

I know I haven't posted in months, but I feel terrible. I haven't eaten a real meal in days. I've lost 5 lbs in the past week and now my hair is starting to fall out, and I'm still classified as overweight. I'm so emotional right now. I'm trying so hard to lose weight the healthy way, but I keep falling back into the binge/starve cycle.

I don't binge, but I do restrict...I was in the same boat for a bit this week, I was so low blood sugar I was fallign all over the place, etc. I have like 50-60 lbs to lose, and I'm trying to starve myself again! I'm exercising too, which makes it all the more frustrating.

Right there with you!

I'm on day 4 of no binging, but yeah, my blood sugar is really low. I've already passed out in front of my mom once in the past month. I've lost 30 lbs since the cycle restarted itself, and seeing the number on the scale go down gives me this huge high.

I almost passed out yesterday. :/

I haven't really lost that much weight though I want to...It's because when I exercise, it makes me feel like I shouldn't eat to help lose weight fster....then again when I don't exercise, I feel like I don't have the right to eat....

Also, last time I was full blown anorexic, I was single, now I'm married, makes it harder to do it which is good, but worse because I want to so bad and I feel like I"m letting my husband down.

So I'm trying to eat better (we all know how that goes ), and do 20 min of Zumba DVD 2-3 times a wek to start....but it was doing that Monday that brought about this whole episode! I'd been fine for a few months...

It's like I can't win.

 

[annawrigley]

Why is it I always have to turn to this as a coping mechanism? Something happened last night and I don't ever wanna eat again right now

 

[Rin731]

Why is it I always have to turn to this as a coping mechanism? Something happened last night and I don't ever wanna eat again right now

I'm sorry. Maybe something very small and nutritionally good for you? Like a small apple? It helps me if I KNOW that what I'm eating or trying to eat is essentially good for me, no fat, no cholesterol, etc.

 

[louandivy]

Why is it I always have to turn to this as a coping mechanism? Something happened last night and I don't ever wanna eat again right now

Sometimes recovery is easy until something crap happens and all of a sudden it seems like being hungry is the only way to make yourself feel better. What happened hun? PM me if you need to

 

[annawrigley]

I've had a Babybel and 3 cups of tea today, possibly might have an apple later, we'll see Thank you both x