~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[thedog]

Feeling seriously, erm f'd off? This girl i've had on my FB since around 2007 when my ED was particularly bad, she has just put on a photo of herself back in 2007, and now, wearing the same dress but obviously smaller, comments such as 'well done' 'good job keep it up' and she 'likes' the comment. Why can't these people realise what she's doing doesn't deserve praise, she needs help FFS, feeling triggered right now especially the fact i just weighed myself and not happy with what i see.

 

[tu123]

I've been 'recovered' for about 6/7 years (bulimia mainly) my metabolism is shot to pieces and I'm over weight.

Right now I'm having an ectopic pregnancy and I want to grab hold of my darkest old friend. I know I can't because of my kids, I stopped for them and I won't start again for the same reason, but at the moment I feel the need.

This thread has helped, especially Lou and ivy.

So sorry you are going through this hun

 

[mayb_baby]

I'm back
Threw up my 'fry' Few chips, bacon no fat and a slice of potato bread' woooow go me I will always come back I'm like a loyal dog

 

[17thy]

God its been so long since I've purged..... its a temptation like no other...

 

[thedog]

I'm so fucked up, again. I went through 5 weeks of getting back to normal, and here we go again, messed up. We are TTC too

 

[thedog]

i HATE my dad. End of FFS.

 

[Tinker_Baby]

Hi, I'm 14 years old and going through a really tough time. My best friend Madie has anorexia and bulimia. I always knew she had them, but she would never admit it and I tried my best not to admit it to myself. She's had a really tough life and also suffers from cutting and depression. She started talkng to the guidance counselor, who had her hospitalized. She finally admitted to me what was going on. She's so underweight, 94 pounds, the doctors say she could drop dead anyday. We were in a huge fight when they first put her in, but I went to see her because I couldn't let her go through that alone, even though I'm still hurt by what she did to me. I visited her everyday for a week, before they cut off visitors. Maybe becase she wouldn't eat and doesn't want to get better. She isn't allowed to call anyone and they took her cellphone. She's completely cut of from her support network. I need to talk to her so badly, I don't know what to do. I had a dream last night that I got to talk to her, which comforted me a bit, but I woke up sobbing. It's been weeks since I've had any contact with her and I need my best friend. I'm dealing with my own issues, similar to her and she's the only one I can talk to. I have some food issues, I don't think it's an eating disorder though and I have other problems. I'm not dealing with this. I really need her help, and I know she needs me. Does nyone have any advice? I'm falling apart at the seams.

 

[cowboys angel]

Hello

My name is Katie. I suffered from anorexia for a long time, finally 'beat' it a year ago. I'm not dropping back into that...I hope...but I've been kinda depressed, and I'm down to 117lbs (I'm 5'4")

 

[thedog]

Hope you are all okay

I binged today, complete idiot.

 

[louandivy]

Hope you are all okay

I binged today, complete idiot.

How are you coping after binging hun? Remember you DESERVE to eat

 

[thedog]

Hope you are all okay

I binged today, complete idiot.

How are you coping after binging hun? Remember you DESERVE to eat

I've cancelled out trip shopping next week as punishment, i hate myself.
Thanks for asking though it means alot xx

 

[louandivy]

You shouldn't punish yourself, you need nourishment! How is your eating going in general? Maybe if you eat more consistently you will be less tempted to binge. (Sorry, really pointing out the obvious there!)

 

[thedog]

You shouldn't punish yourself, you need nourishment! How is your eating going in general? Maybe if you eat more consistently you will be less tempted to binge. (Sorry, really pointing out the obvious there!)

I wish i could talk to o/h about things but its a sensitive subject for him too i generally fast for 3 days, binge, restrict a couple of days, binge then fast again, its like a cycle really. I don't P though after binging, so i guess that something positive? Sorry if i sound abit triggering xx

 

[louandivy]

You shouldn't punish yourself, you need nourishment! How is your eating going in general? Maybe if you eat more consistently you will be less tempted to binge. (Sorry, really pointing out the obvious there!)

I wish i could talk to o/h about things but its a sensitive subject for him too i generally fast for 3 days, binge, restrict a couple of days, binge then fast again, its like a cycle really. I don't P though after binging, so i guess that something positive? Sorry if i sound abit triggering xx

Don't worry hun, I am actually hoping to go into psychotherapy to treat eating disorders as a career eventually so I suppose I better get used to it! Although maybe on this thread we could put triggering things in spoiler tags?

Spoiler

I used to do almost the same thing as you when I was at uni and relapsed, I would fast on purpose and every Tuesday I would order a HUGE online food shop and binge all day, avoid any calls, take a load of laxatives and spend all night purging I always thought I would enjoy the binge but I never ever did.

Do you plan your binges or does it just inevitably happen after fasting? My little ritual didn't stop until I got pregnant, but I wish I'd been prepared for how much I'd have to change my eating habits. But I'm sure you know that you can't restrict yourself so much once your little baby is inside you

 

[thedog]

You shouldn't punish yourself, you need nourishment! How is your eating going in general? Maybe if you eat more consistently you will be less tempted to binge. (Sorry, really pointing out the obvious there!)

I wish i could talk to o/h about things but its a sensitive subject for him too i generally fast for 3 days, binge, restrict a couple of days, binge then fast again, its like a cycle really. I don't P though after binging, so i guess that something positive? Sorry if i sound abit triggering xx

Don't worry hun, I am actually hoping to go into psychotherapy to treat eating disorders as a career eventually so I suppose I better get used to it! Although maybe on this thread we could put triggering things in spoiler tags?

Spoiler

I used to do almost the same thing as you when I was at uni and relapsed, I would fast on purpose and every Tuesday I would order a HUGE online food shop and binge all day, avoid any calls, take a load of laxatives and spend all night purging I always thought I would enjoy the binge but I never ever did.

Do you plan your binges or does it just inevitably happen after fasting? My little ritual didn't stop until I got pregnant, but I wish I'd been prepared for how much I'd have to change my eating habits. But I'm sure you know that you can't restrict yourself so much once your little baby is inside you

Oh wow really? I did have that as a second career choice in mind, i do want to be a Paramedic, i guess i will have to sort myself out also for that since i'd need the strength/concentration! Things were awkward this month, i know i won't be pregnant, i told o/h i wasn't ready for #2 so we put off dtd for a few days, really silly.. i had a terrible week where i questioned how i would cope eating throughout pregnancy and how i can't get big again. i know if i were pregnant i would make myself eat like i did with DS, i actually found it quite easy, i did relapse around 28 weeks but didn't act on the urge to restrict.

Spoiler

I usually Fast, then something takes over in my mind, what's ridiculous is my binge is usually around 2am! I really should be in bed but i feel like i have insomnia, possibly due to this ED, which causes me to barely sleep. I have one thing, then another, than another etc, its horrible, i don't feel any better for it, infact i feel even more sad. I have a friend on my Facebook from an ED journal thing i used to go on, (and back on again ) She started off higher than me, and is now alot lower than me, so its triggering, i often think if she can, so can i? xx

 

[louandivy]

Urgh I think the worst thing about eating disorders is the competitiveness! I felt so guilty but I had to delete all the girls I was in treatment with bar one because it was so triggering, I was constantly comparing my current weight with theirs. So sorry I didn't notice that you have a son too! It must be so hard to cope with fasting while looking after him. I remember the 2am binges, its like something takes over your brain. I would say to tell your OH every time you feel like binging but I know all too well that once you are in the mindset there is no way you would do anything to prevent yourself from binging!

I've said this phrase on here before and I'll say it again because it has helped me so much in my recovery. Whenever I didn't want to eat, or was tempted to fast or purge after a binge I would tell myself 'feel the fear and do it anyway'. Its so simple but helps me so much. Sorry I haven't been much help at all!

 

[thedog]

Urgh I think the worst thing about eating disorders is the competitiveness! I felt so guilty but I had to delete all the girls I was in treatment with bar one because it was so triggering, I was constantly comparing my current weight with theirs. So sorry I didn't notice that you have a son too! It must be so hard to cope with fasting while looking after him. I remember the 2am binges, its like something takes over your brain. I would say to tell your OH every time you feel like binging but I know all too well that once you are in the mindset there is no way you would do anything to prevent yourself from binging!

I've said this phrase on here before and I'll say it again because it has helped me so much in my recovery. Whenever I didn't want to eat, or was tempted to fast or purge after a binge I would tell myself 'feel the fear and do it anyway'. Its so simple but helps me so much. Sorry I haven't been much help at all!

i love that saying, i remember you posting it on here a while back!
When i tell him i feel like binging, he says well just eat 'this' or 'that' etc, if only it was that easy!
Oh you have helped loads! It helps knowing someone else actually cares, also that you have had the experience of feeling like this, because sometimes if you speak to someone about it who hasn't had an ED it can be hard to trust them/believe what they say. Oh he's 10.5 months now he made my life complete, love him to bits, he's always on the go lately so i need the energy lol xx

 

[_laura]

Ugh bad week.
Whenever I'm ill I always relapse.
I got really happy cause I lost 5lbs in a day from being ill, puking and not eating so now I find myself in the situation where I'm purging, I'm not even binging now.

Doesn't help im generally in a crap mood anyway.

 

[cowboys angel]

Having a similar issue. It's so hot I don't want to eat and I'm down to one small meal a day, maybe 2

 

[_laura]

Having a similar issue. It's so hot I don't want to eat and I'm down to one small meal a day, maybe 2

Same about the meals.
Ugh I wish things weren't so stressful at home at the moment.