~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[cowboys angel]

Having a similar issue. It's so hot I don't want to eat and I'm down to one small meal a day, maybe 2

Same about the meals.
Ugh I wish things weren't so stressful at home at the moment.

I definitely hear ya on that one. I never 're-expanded' my stomach after being anorexic for so long, and I can still survive on very little food...I'm worried I'm going to fall back into that habit but I'm just so stressed and so tired and kinda depressed i just don't want food.

 

[annawrigley]

Having a similar issue. It's so hot I don't want to eat and I'm down to one small meal a day, maybe 2

Same about the meals.
Ugh I wish things weren't so stressful at home at the moment.

I definitely hear ya on that one. I never 're-expanded' my stomach after being anorexic for so long, and I can still survive on very little food...I'm worried I'm going to fall back into that habit but I'm just so stressed and so tired and kinda depressed i just don't want food.

Ditto I've not been doing well this past week or so, anything over 600 a day and I freak I'm so tired and drained

 

[cowboys angel]

Having a similar issue. It's so hot I don't want to eat and I'm down to one small meal a day, maybe 2

Same about the meals.
Ugh I wish things weren't so stressful at home at the moment.

I definitely hear ya on that one. I never 're-expanded' my stomach after being anorexic for so long, and I can still survive on very little food...I'm worried I'm going to fall back into that habit but I'm just so stressed and so tired and kinda depressed i just don't want food.

Ditto I've not been doing well this past week or so, anything over 600 a day and I freak

I haven't been doing very well either. And my OH doesn't even realize it cuz he works all day. I want to tell him, but at the same time I know he'll be upset with me. He knows I've been stressed and depressed, but I don't think he realizes how much it's affecting me

 

[thedog]

to you all xxxx

 

[thedog]

I've eaten 3 meals today, something scared me last night.


Mentions ana/weight/triggering

Spoiler

A girl i used to speak to on an ED community site, she started off at a weight heavier than me, and in less than a year got down to 60lbs, she put pics on and shes skeletal. Anyway shes in OP now and is gaining, she wants to get better. She said she wants a life. I guess today it scared me into thinking i don't want to end up like that, shes practically dead. So i ate 3 meals, and walked alot to combat it. and i've gone up 1.4lb since. But i feel guilty, of course i wouldn't get to 60lbs, i don't want to get to 60lbs. I don't know what i want anymore.

 

[annawrigley]

I've eaten 3 meals today, something scared me last night.


Mentions ana/weight/triggering

Spoiler

A girl i used to speak to on an ED community site, she started off at a weight heavier than me, and in less than a year got down to 60lbs, she put pics on and shes skeletal. Anyway shes in OP now and is gaining, she wants to get better. She said she wants a life. I guess today it scared me into thinking i don't want to end up like that, shes practically dead. So i ate 3 meals, and walked alot to combat it. and i've gone up 1.4lb since. But i feel guilty, of course i wouldn't get to 60lbs, i don't want to get to 60lbs. I don't know what i want anymore.

I know what you mean.. Dunno if this is triggering so may as well spoiler it anyway

Spoiler

My ex best friend 'copied' my ED cos she 'wanted to be like me' (her exact words... this was like almost 5 years ago now) and now I don't even know how she's still living tbh. She looks horrible, I don't want to look like that but I want to lose weight, even though I'm now apparently 'underweight'. I originally wanted to lose a stone and now I have I want to just lose a bit more... But then when will it end? I weigh less than I ever have, even when I was 14 when this started, but its still not good enough

 

[louandivy]

Just wanted to say that if you have put on a pound after eating 3 meals then it is NOT real weight, it is just the weight of the food you have eating, you will probably weigh less by tomorrow morning!

Also I know its so difficult comparing yourself to friends with the same issues, it seems really harsh but that is why I deleted most of the girls I was in treatment with, it killed me that some of them were getting thinner than me even after recovery. I feel so bad for being jealous of someone's relapse though, anorexia is such a competitive disease!

 

[cowboys angel]

How do you spoiler things?

I can't imagine getting down to 60lbs...I got to 100 and looked bad when I look back at those pics.

 

[annawrigley]

How do you spoiler things?

I can't imagine getting down to 60lbs...I got to 100 and looked bad when I look back at those pics.

When you click 'go advanced' click the picture of the little smiley face with a black strip across his eyes.. Then type in the middle of there

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I'm 101 now, wanted to be 98 but don't think that's gonna be anywhere near enough :/ 60lbs I can't imagine though!

 

[thedog]

I've eaten 3 meals today, something scared me last night.


Mentions ana/weight/triggering

Spoiler

A girl i used to speak to on an ED community site, she started off at a weight heavier than me, and in less than a year got down to 60lbs, she put pics on and shes skeletal. Anyway shes in OP now and is gaining, she wants to get better. She said she wants a life. I guess today it scared me into thinking i don't want to end up like that, shes practically dead. So i ate 3 meals, and walked alot to combat it. and i've gone up 1.4lb since. But i feel guilty, of course i wouldn't get to 60lbs, i don't want to get to 60lbs. I don't know what i want anymore.

I know what you mean.. Dunno if this is triggering so may as well spoiler it anyway

Spoiler

My ex best friend 'copied' my ED cos she 'wanted to be like me' (her exact words... this was like almost 5 years ago now) and now I don't even know how she's still living tbh. She looks horrible, I don't want to look like that but I want to lose weight, even though I'm now apparently 'underweight'. I originally wanted to lose a stone and now I have I want to just lose a bit more... But then when will it end? I weigh less than I ever have, even when I was 14 when this started, but its still not good enough

Dw hun i'm feeling triggered anyway lol, thats really bad she copied an ED, why would people do that, its so ridiculous. By your profile pic i don't think you should lose, but i know with this you won't believe me lol, xx

 

[thedog]

Just wanted to say that if you have put on a pound after eating 3 meals then it is NOT real weight, it is just the weight of the food you have eating, you will probably weigh less by tomorrow morning!

Also I know its so difficult comparing yourself to friends with the same issues, it seems really harsh but that is why I deleted most of the girls I was in treatment with, it killed me that some of them were getting thinner than me even after recovery. I feel so bad for being jealous of someone's relapse though, anorexia is such a competitive disease!

I know what u mean hun, but its still hard to let go of iykwim? I wouldn't ever get to 60lbs, i can see she looks terrible (maybe i sound mean?) she even wrote she dropped out of college as she couldn't get out of bed.. so thats no way to live i know xx

 

[louandivy]

That poor girl I truly believe that you cannot have an eating disorder and a fulfilling life at the same time, it just sucks the enjoyment out of everything else to the point where all you can think about is food. I didn't used to care when I felt like I didn't deserve to enjoy my life anyway but I can't let it affect Ivy's life too, you know? Hope you guys all feel better soon

 

[thedog]

Thankyou xxx

 

[cowboys angel]

Spoiler

I'm 117lbs. My low is 103lbs. I wanted to get smaller than that, but I started getting really sick, and OH realized what I was doing and put a quick stop to it. I was fine during pregnancy, i got up to 143 from 125, but then was trying to lose what I had left after having my DD (I was 127) so I've lost 10lbs in 3 months.

https://i55.tinypic.com/28klydt.jpg

Sorry the pics blurry, had to stand on my tiptoes so you could see me...I'm short and have very little balance

 

[thedog]

Spoiler

I'm 117lbs. My low is 103lbs. I wanted to get smaller than that, but I started getting really sick, and OH realized what I was doing and put a quick stop to it. I was fine during pregnancy, i got up to 143 from 125, but then was trying to lose what I had left after having my DD (I was 127) so I've lost 10lbs in 3 months.

https://i55.tinypic.com/28klydt.jpg

Sorry the pics blurry, had to stand on my tiptoes so you could see me...I'm short and have very little balance

you look fine honestly, but some people may find posting photos of body weight/figure triggering. I'm personally okay with it, i'm on an ED community heck i see people taking pics etc, though for those who are struggling they may find it triggers them to lose more..

Sorry if it comes across a abit offensive x

 

[cowboys angel]

Sorry, thought I put the pic in the spoiler thing, my bad.

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I still think I'm too thin though. But I'm not sure if I truly am, or if I'm just overcompensating while trying not to fall back down that road.

 

[tu123]

I peeps. Just wondering if anyone has any advice?

I had anorexia for donkeys years and spent about 4 of those years below 6st. When i left uni and started working and met my hubby things got much better.

Now i want to lose the preg weight. I put on 5st and lost 3st in ten days (all the water i think). I still have 1.5st left over my pre preg weight.

How do i lose it without losing control????? I am not overweight but i am not happy and feel unfit. I am 5ft 8. I know how addictive that empty feeling and i dont want to go there.

How do i do this?

 

[thedog]

I peeps. Just wondering if anyone has any advice?

I had anorexia for donkeys years and spent about 4 of those years below 6st. When i left uni and started working and met my hubby things got much better.

Now i want to lose the preg weight. I put on 5st and lost 3st in ten days (all the water i think). I still have 1.5st left over my pre preg weight.

How do i lose it without losing control????? I am not overweight but i am not happy and feel unfit. I am 5ft 8. I know how addictive that empty feeling and i dont want to go there.

How do i do this?

Hi hun, my advice is, be adamant that the weight you want to lose is final, because it is so easy to keep lowering your goal weights. Keep a calorie intake of above 1500.. don't weigh yourself.. go by how your clothes fit. At the first sign you think things are getting out of control, seek help/advice, obsession is horrible. Lastly, look at your LO and smile.. regardless how fast/slow you lose the remaining weight, you have a beautiful LO! xx

 

[tu123]

I peeps. Just wondering if anyone has any advice?

I had anorexia for donkeys years and spent about 4 of those years below 6st. When i left uni and started working and met my hubby things got much better.

Now i want to lose the preg weight. I put on 5st and lost 3st in ten days (all the water i think). I still have 1.5st left over my pre preg weight.

How do i lose it without losing control????? I am not overweight but i am not happy and feel unfit. I am 5ft 8. I know how addictive that empty feeling and i dont want to go there.

How do i do this?

Hi hun, my advice is, be adamant that the weight you want to lose is final, because it is so easy to keep lowering your goal weights. Keep a calorie intake of above 1500.. don't weigh yourself.. go by how your clothes fit. At the first sign you think things are getting out of control, seek help/advice, obsession is horrible. Lastly, look at your LO and smile.. regardless how fast/slow you lose the remaining weight, you have a beautiful LO! xx

Thanks hun. Going by clothes is a good idea. So getting back into my old ones might be a good aim. We dont have scales anymore for obvious reasons! It is a shame they have them in Boots though! cant resist!

Bless you!

 

[thedog]

I peeps. Just wondering if anyone has any advice?

I had anorexia for donkeys years and spent about 4 of those years below 6st. When i left uni and started working and met my hubby things got much better.

Now i want to lose the preg weight. I put on 5st and lost 3st in ten days (all the water i think). I still have 1.5st left over my pre preg weight.

How do i lose it without losing control????? I am not overweight but i am not happy and feel unfit. I am 5ft 8. I know how addictive that empty feeling and i dont want to go there.

How do i do this?

Hi hun, my advice is, be adamant that the weight you want to lose is final, because it is so easy to keep lowering your goal weights. Keep a calorie intake of above 1500.. don't weigh yourself.. go by how your clothes fit. At the first sign you think things are getting out of control, seek help/advice, obsession is horrible. Lastly, look at your LO and smile.. regardless how fast/slow you lose the remaining weight, you have a beautiful LO! xx

Thanks hun. Going by clothes is a good idea. So getting back into my old ones might be a good aim. We dont have scales anymore for obvious reasons! It is a shame they have them in Boots though! cant resist!

Bless you!

Aww yes i know the feeling hun, i got some new scales in argos half price it was making me even more anxious not knowing, though for alot of people the best thing is to get rid of the scales Defo go by clothes, that way, if your old ones fit you then no problemo! You would of lost the weight and gotten back into them.. so therefore no need to lose more! Sorry i know maybe i'm making it sound so easy, i hope things go okay for you xxx