~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[fluffpuffin]

I haven't popped to this thread since I was pregnant. I'm finding things quite hard at the moment. I'm a healthy weight (10st exactly at 5ft 6) but I'm struggling more and more with my changed body and hate what I see.

I want to lose a few pounds as I know I'll feel better then but am not sure how to do it healthily. The only way I've ever dieted was to pretty much stop eating well, live off fat free yoghurts). Also I've had a few stressful situations lately and it's been so tempting to go back to not eating But I don't want to go there as I know how crap I felt when I was at my worst.

 

[Arisa]

What meds are you on? In treatment they put me on Zyprexa, it was horrible Made me feel so lethargic that I remember one morning I couldn't even pick up my phone. Then when I was discharged I did some research and found out that one of the side effects is extreme weight gain so I never touched it again! I was having panic attacks in the hospital so the nurses pretty much told me I HAD to take it, I should have just said no.

they offered me olanzapine (zyprexa) and i said no straight away because its an antipsychotic meaning it makes you FAT seriously all antipsychotics are basically extra strength potent antihistamines combined with dopamine inhibitors and whatever else it is that decreases ones ability to function without becoming a total zombie and the eating, its a big no no for people with eating issues and finally my new psychiatrist sees that but a lot didnt.

Another bad med for weight gain and possible the worst is remeron or mirtazapine as its known, its a tetracyclic used for every kind of depressive, manic and anxiety disorder that the doctors can think of but it slows you down, makes you sleep until next month and takes away any libido and replaces it with food cravings

The meds that have helped me stabilize my weight in association with there were Effexor XR but people on effexor get mixed responses, so for example say 100 people are given them, then 40% will experience weight gain, 40% will lose weight and 20% will find their weight stabilizes and i was in the 40% of weight loss people

its similar to the odds and percentages in everything like having a baby and conceiving I mean there is the percentage in the expected norm who will experience side effects and then there are the lesser who will get bad horrific emergency side effects and then the select few who feel no side effects at all which is around 10% so very rare, and my hubby was one of them, he took seroquel which is an antipsychotic and anti anxiety anti depressant drug that piled on the weight for me and everyone else i knew on it as weight gain on seroquel is 60% probable but he did not even have an appetite.

with those odds, we should conceive really soon
yeah so anyway, effexor helped as did lorazepam since it gave me a high, a mood lift and helped me sleep without needing to eat, i like meds that decrease appetite but once I am pregnant I wont be taking anything to harm my baby and if by chance the only category A and B meds that i CAN take during pregnancy are weight gainers then so be it

but i have to say like most of you guys on here who have had children, its the losing the baby weight I am worrying about

 

[Groovychick]

I want to lose a few pounds as I know I'll feel better then but am not sure how to do it healthily. The only way I've ever dieted was to pretty much stop eating well, live off fat free yoghurts). Also I've had a few stressful situations lately and it's been so tempting to go back to not eating But I don't want to go there as I know how crap I felt when I was at my worst.

Well done you on deciding to go about weight loss the healthy way. At present your BMI is 22.6 which is right in the middle of the healthy range so technically you do not need to lose weight. However, if you want to pursue this, ask yourself why you want to lose the weight. Will it make you feel happier, better, more confident etc? How much do you want to lose? Do you risk being caught (again) in the starvation cycle? Once you know the answer to this, you will be in a much better position to decide whether or not this is the route you wish to take.

 

[sarah0108]

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[mayb_baby]

I had been talking to my amazing friend lorna and she's convinced me i should post in here i stalk this alot and find it a real help in here, i wont go into detail atm but i'm joining you all.

xx

 

[fluffpuffin]

I want to lose a few pounds as I know I'll feel better then but am not sure how to do it healthily. The only way I've ever dieted was to pretty much stop eating well, live off fat free yoghurts). Also I've had a few stressful situations lately and it's been so tempting to go back to not eating But I don't want to go there as I know how crap I felt when I was at my worst.

Well done you on deciding to go about weight loss the healthy way. At present your BMI is 22.6 which is right in the middle of the healthy range so technically you do not need to lose weight. However, if you want to pursue this, ask yourself why you want to lose the weight. Will it make you feel happier, better, more confident etc? How much do you want to lose? Do you risk being caught (again) in the starvation cycle? Once you know the answer to this, you will be in a much better position to decide whether or not this is the route you wish to take.

Thanks Those are good points. I have a set goal weight in mind - it's the weight I was when I got married

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58kg

and was in a happy place body confidence wise. I know I will stop at this point or else I risk becoming obsessed. I just feel so crap in any of my clothes, I don't feel good about the way i look at all right now I bought some clothes and then don't have the confidence to wear them. It sucks....

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I ate quite well today, though skipped breakfast which was naughty - I ate a M&S paella salad, fruit salad and a pack of crisps, then for dinner I had a wholegrain sandwich with grilled sausage and fried onion and a yoghurt for afters. Does that sound ok?

 

[mayb_baby]

Well I gained 1lb on my 3000+cal binge I haven't had one of them in well over a month

 

[Char.due.jan]

Feel so bloated could be due to the vast amount of water I've drank today!

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I'm down to 7 stone 9lbs again

 

[mayb_baby]

Well done Char

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I need to lose this last 4lbs in 2weeks

 

[Char.due.jan]

I had been talking to my amazing friend lorna and she's convinced me i should post in here i stalk this alot and find it a real help in here, i wont go into detail atm but i'm joining you all.

xx

Welcome

 

[sarah0108]

I had been talking to my amazing friend lorna and she's convinced me i should post in here i stalk this alot and find it a real help in here, i wont go into detail atm but i'm joining you all.

xx

Welcome

Thanks x

 

[lb]

I haven't been following this thread for a while, :\
I did get better for a while, but I just found out that I've gained 4 lbs since I came back from a family trip, so now I'm really trying to resist the urge to restrict. I'm also trying to give up soda, though sometimes it feels like it's the only thing keeping me up. I'm so depressed my BMI is back to overweight!

 

[cowboys angel]

Just remember, that BMI thing is a joke. My hubby is 6'4", 200lbs. He is considered obese.

By the way, he is in no way shape or form obese.

 

[lb]

It just upsets me because I'm twice the size I was a couple years ago. And the more weight I lose, the more saggy skin I get. There's no winning for me.

 

[sarah0108]

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[mayb_baby]

I am so disgusted with myself well I drank loads last night and then devoured a 16" pizza I am so upset as I just wanted to get this last 4lb off. I am going to walk loads now though.

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I hate this as I have resorted to go back to alot of my old ways with my dieting and then I just got my hair cut and I hate it. It makes me look sooo much bigger

 

[sarah0108]

Love you lots missy xx

 

[louandivy]

You shouldn't see it as 'failing', its a false sense of strength you get from restricting. The really strong thing to do is to resist that temptation and nourish yourself!

I might make a new support thread specifically for those in recovery - would anyone be interested in that?

 

[sarah0108]

Im trying my best to lose weight though, its driving me crazy its not as easy as it used to be i have a holiday in 2 weeks and i am a whale im 0% confident in myself. i HATE looking in the mirror, im terrifed x

 

[louandivy]

I know how you feel. Everytime I'm in the shower I just feel so disgusted in myself I can't even look down, but I bet you are gorgeous, you must be to have made such beautiful children! Just think about how much you change when you restrict, is that really worth it? I know that when I was restricting I was a horrible, secretive, isolated person and I can't imagine putting Ivy through that experience Could you talk to your boyfriend about it? So sorry you are feeling like this