~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[mayb_baby]

I say I want to recover but I know I don't I mean I have to get to my prepreg weight and have a UGW in mind, as for the shower thing I just said that to someone and I hate my body I mean I am now disgusting. I used to hate my figure before but now theres not much I wouldn't do to get my old figure back

 

[tina_h75]

I just stumbled across this thread and thought I might need to post in here. Since having the kids, everyone I meet seems shocked at how much weight I have lost but I don't feel any different even though I am wearing smaller clothes. When I look in the mirror, I don't really see a difference but from when I was at my heaviest, I am probably 3 stone lighter now. I have a terrible diet, if I am happy that I eat fine but if anything is worrying me then I just won't eat. I ate a chinese takeaway on friday ( which I didn't even want ) and since then all I have had are 2 microwave dinners which were a combined total of 680 calories - not really enough for 2 days. I just don't have any appetite and struggled to even finish tonights meal. I suppose I am a bit worried that I might lose control and things get out of hand. I am a healthy weight at the moment and could easily lose another stone and a half before I got to underweight, I just can't eat if I am not hungry.

Also, I was a child with an eating disorder. I was taken to the drs at a ridiculously young age because I refused to eat as I thought I was fat.

 

[sarah0108]

I feel sick, my stomach burns and i need to eat but i feel like if i do i will throw up

 

[louandivy]

I just stumbled across this thread and thought I might need to post in here. Since having the kids, everyone I meet seems shocked at how much weight I have lost but I don't feel any different even though I am wearing smaller clothes. When I look in the mirror, I don't really see a difference but from when I was at my heaviest, I am probably 3 stone lighter now. I have a terrible diet, if I am happy that I eat fine but if anything is worrying me then I just won't eat. I ate a chinese takeaway on friday ( which I didn't even want ) and since then all I have had are 2 microwave dinners which were a combined total of 680 calories - not really enough for 2 days. I just don't have any appetite and struggled to even finish tonights meal. I suppose I am a bit worried that I might lose control and things get out of hand. I am a healthy weight at the moment and could easily lose another stone and a half before I got to underweight, I just can't eat if I am not hungry.

Also, I was a child with an eating disorder. I was taken to the drs at a ridiculously young age because I refused to eat as I thought I was fat.

Are you not eating because you want to lose weight or are you just not hungry? I think there is a huge difference in terms of what kind of help you should seek depending on that. And whats worrying you? Of course you don't have to share but it might make you feel better

 

[louandivy]

Does anyone else have a severe fear of food poisoning? I try and convince myself that its unrelated to the eating disorder but I think it all stems from the fact that I fundamentally view food as 'bad', not something that nourishes me but something that could potentially hurt me. I can barely eat meat any more because I am just so scared that I will prepare it wrong, going out for dinner scares me, I'm even afraid of buying foods in stores in case they haven't been stored properly Dairy scares me, meat scares me, frozen foods scare me, fish TERRIFIES me, condiments scare me...I feel safe with vegetables, fruits and cereal but when newpaper headlines come out with stories of people getting e coli. from cucumbers that pretty much destroys me! Staying at my Oh's parents house last week was a nightmare because I was constantly worrying that they hadn't prepared the food properly. I can still eat most of these foods but they cause a lot of anxiety and a lot of stress before and after eating them, i would hate to pass it on to Ivy.

 

[tina_h75]

I just stumbled across this thread and thought I might need to post in here. Since having the kids, everyone I meet seems shocked at how much weight I have lost but I don't feel any different even though I am wearing smaller clothes. When I look in the mirror, I don't really see a difference but from when I was at my heaviest, I am probably 3 stone lighter now. I have a terrible diet, if I am happy that I eat fine but if anything is worrying me then I just won't eat. I ate a chinese takeaway on friday ( which I didn't even want ) and since then all I have had are 2 microwave dinners which were a combined total of 680 calories - not really enough for 2 days. I just don't have any appetite and struggled to even finish tonights meal. I suppose I am a bit worried that I might lose control and things get out of hand. I am a healthy weight at the moment and could easily lose another stone and a half before I got to underweight, I just can't eat if I am not hungry.

Also, I was a child with an eating disorder. I was taken to the drs at a ridiculously young age because I refused to eat as I thought I was fat.

Are you not eating because you want to lose weight or are you just not hungry? I think there is a huge difference in terms of what kind of help you should seek depending on that. And whats worrying you? Of course you don't have to share but it might make you feel better

Both really. I lose my appetite really easily but when I haven't eaten I get more obsessed with the scales and almost feel proud with myself for not eating.

 

[sarah0108]

Does anyone else have a severe fear of food poisoning? I try and convince myself that its unrelated to the eating disorder but I think it all stems from the fact that I fundamentally view food as 'bad', not something that nourishes me but something that could potentially hurt me. I can barely eat meat any more because I am just so scared that I will prepare it wrong, going out for dinner scares me, I'm even afraid of buying foods in stores in case they haven't been stored properly Dairy scares me, meat scares me, frozen foods scare me, fish TERRIFIES me, condiments scare me...I feel safe with vegetables, fruits and cereal but when newpaper headlines come out with stories of people getting e coli. from cucumbers that pretty much destroys me! Staying at my Oh's parents house last week was a nightmare because I was constantly worrying that they hadn't prepared the food properly. I can still eat most of these foods but they cause a lot of anxiety and a lot of stress before and after eating them, i would hate to pass it on to Ivy.

Not quite but i have a fear of collapsing, i am very anemic anyway so i can get really ill, i know that when i restrict my iron drops more and more and im so so worried i will just pass out, i get so dizzy and crappy sometimes. I need to snap myself out of it but i cant.

 

[mayb_baby]

Does anyone else have a severe fear of food poisoning? I try and convince myself that its unrelated to the eating disorder but I think it all stems from the fact that I fundamentally view food as 'bad', not something that nourishes me but something that could potentially hurt me. I can barely eat meat any more because I am just so scared that I will prepare it wrong, going out for dinner scares me, I'm even afraid of buying foods in stores in case they haven't been stored properly Dairy scares me, meat scares me, frozen foods scare me, fish TERRIFIES me, condiments scare me...I feel safe with vegetables, fruits and cereal but when newpaper headlines come out with stories of people getting e coli. from cucumbers that pretty much destroys me! Staying at my Oh's parents house last week was a nightmare because I was constantly worrying that they hadn't prepared the food properly. I can still eat most of these foods but they cause a lot of anxiety and a lot of stress before and after eating them, i would hate to pass it on to Ivy.

I nearly died due to food poisoning before so I am petrified of getting poisoned. It was due to an under cooked pork chop in my mums friends house I was 6, I was feeling sick and Mandy rang my mum and was like 'I think Lorna should go home she looks unwell' So at home I took severe Dihorrea and my mum was due with my sister, she was in the bath and I ran to the toilet and as I pooed I fainted and fell to the ground my dad ran in lifted me and carried me to a taxi office where we were joined by my mum. My eyes had rolled to the back of my head and I was sheet white.
I was seen immediately in A&E and taken to a room where I was pumped with fluids for 4 days, thankfully my sister wanted born until 10days after I got out. The doctor told my mum2 more hours and I would of died of dehydration.
So I am soooo cautious of meat and not being hydrated I replace meals with milk (semi skimmed of coffee)

 

[sarah0108]

 

[sarah0108]

How is everyone today? xx

 

[tina_h75]

I have not been able to stomach food since the little meal I had last night so have been sipping on a bottle of slimfast for the past hour. I made the kids their lunch and the thought of eating anything made me feel ill.

 

[sarah0108]

I have had about 200cals today and im feeling poorly.. EUGHH

 

[Groovychick]

 

[Char.due.jan]

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I've not eaten yet today. Everytime something bad happens I just stop eating.

 

[sarah0108]

 

[tina_h75]

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I've not eaten yet today. Everytime something bad happens I just stop eating.

I am exactly the same - my appetite just disappears. I managed to finish my slim fast - a whole 240 calories !! But I have done lots of walking today with the double buggy so really need to eat more. Got to start cooking the kids tea in a bit and I know it will make me feel ill. I don't think its purely a weight loss thing for me as I am drinking alcohol ( just a couple of glasses of wine, not going crazy ) but if I was intentionally cutting calories then I wouldn't be drinking alcohol ?

 

[Char.due.jan]

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I've lost 3lbs

 

[mayb_baby]

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3lb to go

 

[sarah0108]

2 stone to go!!!

 

[jen1604]

You shouldn't see it as 'failing', its a false sense of strength you get from restricting. The really strong thing to do is to resist that temptation and nourish yourself!

I might make a new support thread specifically for those in recovery - would anyone be interested in that?

Yes Lou!! Most definitely

This thread used to be pretty much recovery based,I don't think weight loss in any form was every really encouraged before,which is kind of why I've stepped away from the thread.

A recovery thread would be excellent