~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[Rin731]

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It's too wet to walk anywhere and it's so cold so I play wii
I'm having grilled chicken and rice tonight then 2 hours of WII

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Good job. It's all about the little steps.

 

[mayb_baby]

 

[Rin731]

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Feeling rly fat today-pants a little tight, and I'm panicking, thinking I'm gaining, and wanna restrict...

 

[Rin731]

? What's up?

 

[annawrigley]

Convinced my scales are lying to me again even though they're meant to be mega accurate

 

[mayb_baby]

Convinced my scales are lying to me again even though they're meant to be mega accurate

I have 2 sets, WII and ones I spent £50 on and i still test both

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1st thing in the morning, after toilet, after i eat, shower, before bed

 

[mayb_baby]

I got my hair cut but I look like I have a chubbier face

 

[sarah0108]

Convinced my scales are lying to me again even though they're meant to be mega accurate

Could trigger?

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I hate my scales they are these body analysing ones as well
the weight doesn't change! i hate it, people say 'oh you've lost weight!' so i check, i haven't , then i get pissed off that they would lie to me?

I'm losing control of everything in my life atm, and i'm trying really really hard to have 3 meals a day inc breakfast, which i have NEVER done, but its not working, i give my meals to the kids, i can't remember the last time i actually finished even a tiny meal. i hate myself because my daughter is going to pick up on it.
This morning i had some breakfast with them, and she was shocked. she said ''mummy?! You got breakfast?!'
The only thing i CAN control is food. I'm ill though, my anaemia is really bad again, when i do eat it hurts my stomach to the point of that it feels so sore, constantly feel sick, getting blackouts and headaches.

I feel so silly, but i keep telling myself to stick to my 3 meals a day and i really am trying!

*sigh* random post but eugh.

 

[sarah0108]

I got my hair cut but I look like I have a chubbier face

Lorna you look gorgeous!

 

[annawrigley]

Mine are body analysing ones too, it says I've lost 6lbs since Nottingham but I don't believe it cos I look the same :/

 

[Rin731]

Freaking out and wanting to restrict.

Tired of being at this weight, but I don't know how to lose other than restricting.

Also pissed off- yesterday was a great day going out with MIL, etc, and now I feel like sh!t.

 

[mayb_baby]

Mine are body analysing ones too, it says I've lost 6lbs since Nottingham but I don't believe it cos I look the same :/

Anna I apparently have lost as of today 5lb and I look and feel the exact same
Mine are heavy duty Weight Watchers Doctor scales and the WII fit

 

[mayb_baby]

Freaking out and wanting to restrict.

Tired of being at this weight, but I don't know how to lose other than restricting.

Also pissed off- yesterday was a great day going out with MIL, etc, and now I feel like sh!t.

I felt like that today I had to go for lunch and my cousin ordered me chicken curry and chips I picked through it and said I wasn't hungry but the guilt of her paying made me eat over half and not knowing the cafes calorie content made me want toe there and then

 

[Shannyxox]

I feel like no matter what I do, I will never lose weight, and as soon as I do, Its back again with in a day

 

[sarah0108]

Mine are body analysing ones too, it says I've lost 6lbs since Nottingham but I don't believe it cos I look the same :/

Anna I apparently have lost as of today 5lb and I look and feel the exact same
Mine are heavy duty Weight Watchers Doctor scales and the WII fit

The weekend after notts mine said i lost 6lbs and a few days later i hadnt

fucking bullshit scales, i have two pairs, one digital and one not and both are different and i hate it. i NEED to know

 

[Rin731]

...luckily I don't have a scale. DH probably wouldn't allow one in the house, knowing how I am.

 

[TupeloHoney]

I haven't kept a scale in the house for years, and I don't plan to change that. I know it'll only make me more obsessive and I punish myself enough, already.

I binged TWICE in the last four days and feel so down on myself. I just got out of respite, after OD'ing on sedatives to avoid eating dinner and due to simply feeling sad. I've had to eat two meals a day in respite, though restricted what I could, which wasn't much. Now I feel like I've lost control over my body and I'm so afraid I'm going to balloon. I just lost another jean size in the last two weeks - I should be feeling great. But I only want to get smaller. I know I should be trying to kick this, but I just don't want to stop.

It's more than just the vanity, though. A part of me is uncertain of what I'll do, without pills or restriction, when I get depressed. I don't know how to cope with my emotions, I truly don't.

 

[mayb_baby]

Control is a huge thing and the thought of none petrifies me too.
try and keep you'r head up.

 

[louandivy]

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Hi girls, just need a little support to help me rationalise things right now. I decided to attempt a healthy diet beginning last week as my shorts ripped when I sat down and it depressed the hell out of me. Do you guys think it is possible to be a recovered/ing anorexic and diet healthily without getting out of control? OH's birthday so we went to an all you can eat buffet and I am feeling wretched about how much I ate, even though I know really that it wasn't very much but I have been controlling what I've been eating quite strongly this week so it made me feel very ashamed of myself.
I find it so easy to diet, but am beginning to think that maybe I'm not eating enough as I'm finding myself very preoccupied by food too. Generally I have been having porridge for breakfast, a cuppa soup with a few breadsticks and carrots for lunch and a small portion of whatever Ivy is eating for dinner, with apples and tea if I need to snack. To me this seems like a reasonable amount but I am already a size 8 so I kind of know that maybe i am taking it a bit far. I just wondered what you girls thought about dieting post-ED and whether it is healthy/safe/possible? Thanks

 

[mayb_baby]

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Hi girls, just need a little support to help me rationalise things right now. I decided to attempt a healthy diet beginning last week as my shorts ripped when I sat down and it depressed the hell out of me. Do you guys think it is possible to be a recovered/ing anorexic and diet healthily without getting out of control? OH's birthday so we went to an all you can eat buffet and I am feeling wretched about how much I ate, even though I know really that it wasn't very much but I have been controlling what I've been eating quite strongly this week so it made me feel very ashamed of myself.
I find it so easy to diet, but am beginning to think that maybe I'm not eating enough as I'm finding myself very preoccupied by food too. Generally I have been having porridge for breakfast, a cuppa soup with a few breadsticks and carrots for lunch and a small portion of whatever Ivy is eating for dinner, with apples and tea if I need to snack. To me this seems like a reasonable amount but I am already a size 8 so I kind of know that maybe i am taking it a bit far. I just wondered what you girls thought about dieting post-ED and whether it is healthy/safe/possible? Thanks

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To be honest I can't help just tell you what I know and what I do. I am on a diet 24/7 my mind never stops with food. I am a uk size 8 and I have coffee for breakfast, lunch and a small portion of OHs dinners. The I pig out in a restaurant/takeaway and hater myself for it!
So I think there is probably no need for you to diet at a size 8 but that won't stop you as I know that apparently a below average clothing size for women in the Uk
But then after having an ED I think there is no 'normal' dieting as with or after an ED I think food becomes a preoccupation in the mind along with weight. If you want to be healthy eat small and often or 1200cals a day (this is diet cals apparently)
I hope you'r feeling better and find a good form of dieting xx