purple_hope
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Hi ladies,
I feel like I know you all so well now, and yet none of you know me. I have to start by apologizing for lurking in the bushes for months on end on this thread (and B&B really). This is my very first post. I hope I do it right!
I have not posted here because I feel like if I do, it is like I am finally admitting to myself that I have a problem... And obviously I DO have a problem because I have been trying to conceive since June 2010... But I have been really hopeful every month thinking that this is it, so I didn't want to post and join you lovely ladies just to leave minutes later. But here goes: to the new year, new hope, and new friends.
Just a little about me. I am 27 and DH is 40. We got married in June 2010 and I actually got pregnant on our first try on our honeymoon which was incredible. But when we got back from our trip I MCed at 5w. And since then not even a smidgen of a positive. After 1 year of TTC, my DR referred us to a FS. They did tons and tons of tests on me and my DH. DH's SA results are great. My cycles are regular, hormone levels are all great, got a sonohysterography with the saline solution showing that tubes are clear and uterus is fine. Only thing that they found is my uterus is not a perfect triangle shape, the top has a slight overhang but it's so minimal that they cannot even label it anything, not even a septum. In general, septums are controversial where some specialists believe it increases MCs and possible cause of infertility, while other specialist believe it has no bearing at all. Either way, I was told not to worry about it. Therefore, unexplained infertility. My FS has suggested now that my next step is Clomid with IUI. My DH and I are not sure what to do. We so much want it to happen naturally, but I think there's a difference between being hopeful and delusional (not sure which one I am yet).
So we all know that depending on our age, we have a different percent chance of conceiving each month. Apparently despite my age, taking into account how long I have been TTC, my FS says that I am now at 0% each month. Whether this is really true or not, I refuse to believe that and therefore have yet to decide to do Clomid and IUI.
I just want to say that you have no idea how helpful you all have been with your woes, sorrows, joys, and roller coaster of emotions. You have all gotten me through my ups and downs, and I can absolutely relate to all of your emotions. Anyways, enough for now! Hope everyone is doing well.
BTW, Feisty Fidget thank you for starting such a wonderful thread (the best one on B&B for sure!) with the most supportive, understanding, and devoted group of ladies. =)
I feel like I know you all so well now, and yet none of you know me. I have to start by apologizing for lurking in the bushes for months on end on this thread (and B&B really). This is my very first post. I hope I do it right!
I have not posted here because I feel like if I do, it is like I am finally admitting to myself that I have a problem... And obviously I DO have a problem because I have been trying to conceive since June 2010... But I have been really hopeful every month thinking that this is it, so I didn't want to post and join you lovely ladies just to leave minutes later. But here goes: to the new year, new hope, and new friends.
Just a little about me. I am 27 and DH is 40. We got married in June 2010 and I actually got pregnant on our first try on our honeymoon which was incredible. But when we got back from our trip I MCed at 5w. And since then not even a smidgen of a positive. After 1 year of TTC, my DR referred us to a FS. They did tons and tons of tests on me and my DH. DH's SA results are great. My cycles are regular, hormone levels are all great, got a sonohysterography with the saline solution showing that tubes are clear and uterus is fine. Only thing that they found is my uterus is not a perfect triangle shape, the top has a slight overhang but it's so minimal that they cannot even label it anything, not even a septum. In general, septums are controversial where some specialists believe it increases MCs and possible cause of infertility, while other specialist believe it has no bearing at all. Either way, I was told not to worry about it. Therefore, unexplained infertility. My FS has suggested now that my next step is Clomid with IUI. My DH and I are not sure what to do. We so much want it to happen naturally, but I think there's a difference between being hopeful and delusional (not sure which one I am yet).
So we all know that depending on our age, we have a different percent chance of conceiving each month. Apparently despite my age, taking into account how long I have been TTC, my FS says that I am now at 0% each month. Whether this is really true or not, I refuse to believe that and therefore have yet to decide to do Clomid and IUI.
I just want to say that you have no idea how helpful you all have been with your woes, sorrows, joys, and roller coaster of emotions. You have all gotten me through my ups and downs, and I can absolutely relate to all of your emotions. Anyways, enough for now! Hope everyone is doing well.
BTW, Feisty Fidget thank you for starting such a wonderful thread (the best one on B&B for sure!) with the most supportive, understanding, and devoted group of ladies. =)
I refuse to even discuss it with anyone now as get so annoyed with their input. If I am asked a direct question I will give a minimal answer. Hope you get there soon hun 
Hope is starting to twitch and I am having to squash it down with big hob nailed boots! I can handle being amazingly surprised by a positive result but I can't handle having my hopes dashed 
one was a hydrosalpinx the other had lots of scar tissue, and i have been working on my anemia for the past two months. i don't know if having anemia can prevent me from concieving and i don't know what my ferritin levels are because i live on an island and have been trying to get my bloodwork sent tome from the hospital in athens for a few weeks now and still waiting. see, my gynocologist who performed the laparoscopy refused to write me up a prescription for the iron pills claimed i should avoid pills (??) so i have been taking the over the counter kind and have recently began eating red meat in an attempt to raise my iron levels. i feel weak and tired all the time, i am pale and kinda moody lately... idk if that has to do with my anemia. 
) Unfortunately there is a sickness bug going round meaning one of my nurses has called in sick so I am going to have to not only put in a full day tomorrow but it is at a really, really busy practice miles away from home where I will be lucky if I even get a lunch break. Not a happy bunny 
I usually keep this stuff to myself except for talking to you B&B girls, but it looks like I need to go back to being more private again when it comes to TTC related stuff for me...
I got everything crossed for you and I am wishing you good luck and sending a ton of baby dust your way!!! Come on BFP!!!! 
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, I am feeling angry and sad and confused and ........empty. I feel stuck. I was crying this morning after AF arrived and I walked out to great my husband and he could tell that something was wrong so he asked....I didnt know what to tell him....That I felt like I was a failure another month and couldnt get pregant.....or that I wasn't able to give him a baby this cycle. I know he would be mad that I am thinking and feeling this way but at this point I just can't khelp it. I knwo that he would be sad because I am sad, but I just couldnt tell him..SO I said nothing was wrong.
