I am 31; will be 32 at the end of December. My soon to be husband will be 30 in February. We love each other so much and really want to have a baby! Like many of you, I'm getting jittery and worried about my biological clock. We also would like to have three children, so that gives us even more incentive to start now. For the last few years, finances have been tight/difficult for us so we've waited, but in the last few months things have really fallen into place and now we're in the position to start trying.
I thought it would be so easy! Growing up in sex ed, they make it sound like anything so much as kissing will lead to an unwanted pregnancy. I was always so careful in my past relationships and in this one as well because we were too young or just weren't ready financially. Now that we've totally thrown caution to the wind and can have wild and passionate sex with abandon, there is still that nagging feeling not of "what if I get pregnant?" but rather, "what if I
don't get pregnant?"
Last month was our first month TTC and it was highly enjoyable, both of us so confident it would work! My body played a cruel trick on me, though, and decided to ovulate about a week later than usual. Even so, we had at it just about every day when I had EWCM. In the days after, I had so many symptoms that I was absolutely certain it worked! Lots of odd, bubbly twinges in my womb that I'd never felt before, gassiness, I even thought I'd had implantation bleeding! My period uncharacteristically took forever to show up, and when it did it started off with about 4 days of brown gunk (sorry if TMI), finally becoming the full-blown bloody nightmare it usually is, so I am officially on CD2 now.
It was as if Mother Nature played a cruel trick on me this month, behaving so out of wack when before it was so average and normal.
I am really hoping and praying that this time around, my "O" date comes around at it's normal time and not a week late so that the egg is fresh. I'm also planning to go off all antihistamines and want to encourage things along by drinking lots of water and taking Mucinex around the clock!
Thanks for listening to my story; I am really just venting. I really enjoy reading everyone's stories on here and wish you all the best, ladies in your 30s, as you anxiously await your BFPs. Best wishes and baby dust to each and every one of us.