Hi all! I hope you ladies have had a nice weekend. I really enjoyed unplugging for a couple of days, enjoyed a couple of glasses of wine, chatted (or rather texted) with some good friends and have come into the week feeling refreshed and excited to try again. Sorry for the novel that follows, I've had time to think this weekend and wanted to share my thoughts
It was hard to process not being pregnant this last cycle because I felt so so good about it the whole month. But I've dealt with it and moved on. Last cycle or this one were my ideal times to get pregnant and in a lot of ways, this cycle is better timing. Mainly that baby would be due the end of May right at the end of the school year. It is likely that we will do virtual schooling next semester as well and this way I wouldn't be trying to homeschool and care of a newborn at the same time. My mom will also be out of school so my parents would be able to come up for a couple of weeks to help us transition to having three. AND...I looked up a due date if we fell this cycle- May 23rd. My mom's bday is the 21st, I'm the 22nd. I know you can't predict when baby would be born but I would need an induction for the next one and so might be able to somewhat pick the date! I think it would be so cool to just continue on the May streak lol.
My goal and desire to to remain positive through this whole process as much as I can. Of course there are stressful times or sad times, but overall, I want to just be happy through this. This was a chance for another baby I didn't think i would ever have. I spent 2.5 years trying to convince my husband to have another when he was firmly set against for a long time. Eventually he said yes to adoption and I was over the moon. But every avenue we tried was a road block and it became obvious that adoption wasn't in the cards for us and he was still a hard no to getting pregnant again. My heart grieved over not being able to have this final little baby to make my family feel complete. About a year ago, out of the blue, my husband changed his mind and said yes to trying this year. He saw how much I was hurting and how much I believed this baby was meant to be and said he couldn't ignore that anymore.
I am so grateful to be here trying when I spent years thinking it would never be. I have no clue how long it will take us to get pregnant but I do firmly believe that it will happen and it will happen when it's meant to be.
In any case, thanks for letting me ramble a bit lol
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I'm going to start getting caught up on the thread from the weekend but will take me a bit probably to actually post. I have about 30 minutes now to start replying and then can finish up at lunchtime. Hope everyone is having a great Monday so far!