CD 10 & TTC after MC (in Dec), 2nd cycle trying since, anyone wanna buddy up?

[Afamilygal]

well, like a loony tune I tested again this morning BFN. of course. I thought the line was coming up when I was watching the dye spread but it never did. Bah.
but my temps were not down like they would be for AF (and that was having slept HORRIBLY and peed at 4 30 then temped at 6, tossing and turning all night.) Im exhausted and I just got up!! lol.

still have some brown spotting (TMI) but its not in my undies its only when I wipe and when I do its a tiny bit and kind of stringy. like the uternal lining or something. but no red blood yet. it normally is red before AF. STAY AWAY WITCH!!!

I havent said anything to DH cause I want to wait til I know either way. Its not fair to put him through this.

any news from Kate? Hope you are well Dear. miss you.

xo

 

[katestar53]

Good evening ladies,

I hope ur both ok? Any news? Just checking in, not much happening here, am 9dpo and not feeling much, am super tired but then I always am during the week Just tested like a big idiot on a IC and it was a BFN, boooooooooo, why do we do this to ourselves!?!

 

[4boys1girl]

Hi Kate, Hi rose!

CD30, and 17DPO ... still waiting on AF!!! I just wish it would start already. havent tested since thursday the 22nd. no symptoms and yesterday I had some tan/lt. brown discharge. So I think AF will be here within the next few days. If not here by Friday, I will test, but not having hopes up. Last cycle AF was a week late!! Go figure, I had such short LP, now they are too long!!!
How are you both? rose, I saw AF got you, I am sorry. Hope you are doing ok and keeping yourself healthy. Kate, it's all you now, waiting for you to test. FX this is your month!
Keep in touch
Kat

 

[4boys1girl]

So ... temp dropped on friday and AF showed her face in full force on Saturday

I am not using FF anymore and I just deleted FF and B&B from my "favorites". I can't keep going back and reading what FF has to say or everyone on B&B, it's just making me crazy. And as I said already, I am not TTc anymore. I won't be preventing anything from happening, but I am not trying either. No more temping, following my cycle, taking clomid, or anything else. I am concentrating on "me" and getting my thyroid condition under control. I will pop on here and there to check on your status, so please be sure to post anything new. I hope you both get your BFPs soon, and I will be looking forward to hearing the great news. good luck girls
love, Kat

 

[Afamilygal]

Hi there. Same with me- will be popping in from time to time to look for any news. am still TTC and have HSG tomorrow, I'm determined to find out what is wrong. "unexplained infertility' is not a good enough answer for me.
Im also scheduling acupuncture soon and may try IUI this month. We'll see. Fingers x'd!

Good luck to you both!!! Good luck with your BFP Kate and to Kat- Im sure this 'you' time will do you a world of good.
xoxo

 

[4boys1girl]

Hi Girls ... just popping in to say "hi". Miss ya! I am finally relaxed and not thinking "TTC" every minute of everyday. I don't even think of it much anymore.

I am very sad to say that my poor beloved dog, SCOOBY, has left us just yesterday. I think I told you how she was struggling with seizures? Anyhow, she got real bad and it was so sad to see her suffer. We are all just so upset, but she is resting calmly now.

I hope you both are doing GREAT! check in once in a while
Luv Kat

 

[katestar53]

Hi Girls ... just popping in to say "hi". Miss ya! I am finally relaxed and not thinking "TTC" every minute of everyday. I don't even think of it much anymore.

I am very sad to say that my poor beloved dog, SCOOBY, has left us just yesterday. I think I told you how she was struggling with seizures? Anyhow, she got real bad and it was so sad to see her suffer. We are all just so upset, but she is resting calmly now.

I hope you both are doing GREAT! check in once in a while
Luv Kat

Hey Kat, am so so so sorry to hear about Scooby, I hope you and the family are ok, am sending you big hugs and kissed

Im gald that your relaxed hun and not thinking about TTC all the time. Im a lot more chilled out about it now, I use to think about it 24 hrs a day and its so not good for the soul.

Hope your ok chick xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[Afamilygal]

aw no! that's so sad. I'm so sorry... hope your kids are taking it ok.

WELL quite a bit of bad news on my end, I have to have SURGERY to correct a uterine septum. FUCK.
not cool. They found it during my HSG (tubes were good, uterus not so much) but weren't sure if it was a septate or bicornuate so I met with a fertility specialist yesterday who diagnosed it as a septum and I'm getting surgery done next month.
Yowsa.

They think that is probably what caused the miscarriage (since there's a good chance the baby implanted on the septum and it wasn't getting the blood/nutrients it needed.)

They also think that may be what is causing the problems TTC.

so... BACK to the scalpel. I'm scared to be having more surgery but I have a REALLY high chance of miscarrying every time if I don't do it...

Can't TTC until after the surgery and we will have to wait somewhere between 4 and 8 weeks. SUCH a bummer, I'm sad about it as I feel defective but I'm REALLY hoping that I can conceive after it is all over. He said the success rate to achieve pregnancy after surgery is 88%. not perfect but its better than the 80% miscarriage rate I have now, right?

anyhoo. Miss you guys. ox

 

[katestar53]

Hey sweetie, so sorry about your bad news but at least there is something that can be done and 88% success rate sounds pretty damn good to me, sending you big hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[4boys1girl]

Hey girls! Rose, when do you have the surgery? 88% success rate IS good. I think everything will be fine once you have the surgery.
Kate, how are you? Keeping yourself busy?
I am loving the NOT trying NOT preventing thing. The only time I really think about it is when we DTD. At that time I have that instinct to lay still or search for a softcup, but I don't. It's nice not to have to pee test for O and temp every day. I think I am Oing around now though, bc of what my body is telling me. And we have DTD a few times so who knows. I do know that I am CD16 today and before clomid I usually Od at this time. We did not use clomid this month, so I hope my progesterone is going to be ok without it.
Anyhow, keep in touch. Have a great Day!
Thanks for the hugs regarding my poor dog, we miss her soo much!
Luv, Kat

 

[Afamilygal]

Thanks, I'm trying to be positive but truthfully I am scared.
I will have it in about 2 to 3 weeks.

 

[Afamilygal]

Hey guys! just wanted to give you a quick update. I had the surgery done last Thursday and it really wasnt as bad as I was anticipating and I am healing nicely. YAY! NOTHING like the cystectomy I had done, it was 1000 times better in every way.
Still surgery but it's all over now!

He found the septum to be bigger than he originally thought and has put in a balloon to retain the shape. He also found (and removed) endometriosis on my right ovary from the cystectomy I had done in 2010 which he thinks was contributing to not ovulating as well as he would like.
He has a plan for us to start TTC in 5-8 weeks, he is very confident that I will get pregnant with his help. I am SO relieved, this has been a freaking nightmare and I am so grateful that they found the problem and have hopefully corrected it. got all my fingers and toes crossed!
I'm still slow and shuffling a bit, it is sore when I get up or down but the incisions are tiny and nearly healed. He is a genius, I know I am in good hands now.

so anyways, that's what is new with me. How about you guys, long time no talk!
xoxo

 

[katestar53]

Hey sweetie, so nice to hear from you

I am so pleased that the surgury went well, it must be such a hugh releif that they found the problem and it has now been fixed I have everything crossed for you hun that you get your BFP soon

I finally found the courage to go to the doctors as it has been 8 months almost since my MC and nothing is happening! I had bloods taken and Ben had to give a semen sample and we get the results on Monday. I am slighly nervous but we have got pregnant before so hopefully the results will be good. Fingers crossed we both get the result we want soon, so many friends and collegues at work are getting pregnant and its driving me mad

It was so good to hear from you hun, really hope you feel better soon

Kat - Hope your doing good sweetie?

Sending you both big kisses and hugs from a rainly old England

Kate xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[Afamilygal]

Best of luck for Monday! I will cross all my fingers and toes for you and Ben! Do let us know what they say, I'm sure it will be fine. You are right that in all probability everything is totally fine. But remember that it took an HSG for me to locate what has been preventing us from conceiving so if they do find something, maybe it is fixable! Best of luck dear Kate!
xxxxxx

 

[weeyaosi]

I started TTC on my last cycle but the witch reared her ugly head so here I am on CD9 and am really going to go all out for it this month!

 

[4boys1girl]

HI girls!

Rose, so great to hear the surgery went well. I believe great things are going to happen in your near future and you will have your little bundle of joy before you know it!

Kate, best wishes for good results on Monday. But as Rose said, if they do find something, it can hopefully be fixed and you, too, will be creating your bundle of joy as well. I am hopeful for both of you

As for me ...nothing I suppose this thyroid has a hold on me. There just doesn't seem to be any other explanation for it. The good thing is that I have finally adjusted to the "not trying" lifestyle. I rarely think of it at all anymore. I am focused on my dieting and my overall health and just getting through like being thankful for what I already have. It's hard to imagine PREVENTING a pregnancy at this point after trying for so long. But last month I promised was the last. Had my cycle on the 2nd and it is complete. So now it is going to be a matter of total prevention when time to DTD. My mind tells me "I can't get pregnant now because it would ruin my sisters wedding plans" but it also tells me "keep trying if its what i want". we havent DTD yet since my cycle stopped, so I really wont know what Ill do unit the time comes (probably tonight). So, I guess there will always be that chance of conceiving, but I really don't ever count on it. I am much more relaxed not thinking about it all the time.
I hope you both conceive soon and I can't wait to read the news when you do. Keep in touch!
love Kat

 

[katestar53]

Hi girlies,

Nice to hear from you Kat and hope you feeling better Rose

Well got my results and everything is fine Ben's SA was above average and my tests came back normal so now we just have to get baby dancing and hope that it happens soon. I am still worried thou but am going to try and chill out about it all!!

Sending u both big hugs

xxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[Afamilygal]

hey thats great news Kate!!! Im very happy to hear that.
I know how hard it is to worry when they tell you everything is fine but it still doesnt happen... I just knew there was something wrong with me, I had this feeling. Ive had it my whole life. I hope I have fixed my issue but who knows, we're all just sort of free falling out here it seems.

but maybe knowing that things are all clear you may be able to relax. Ive had a thought, are you quite sure you are ovulating?
I know you use the cbfm. I do too and it said I ovulated every month (except one) and I really thought I was but my fertility specialist doesnt think I was since the endometriosis was so bad. He believes I wasnt ovulating properly from that side when I thought I was... honestly I find that hard to believe since the monitor kept giving me peaks, but maybe it detects the surge but the endo stopped it from releasing properly...
who knows. Ill have to ask him.

I know the endo is from the cystectomy I had done. apparently any form of abdominal surgery can cause it (scar tissue) if you have the gene/disease. Im still a little fuzzy on the details and will know more after my postop on Thursday. Maybe this is something you should talk to your doctor about?

Turns out Endometriosis is a pretty big factor in infertility for a lot of women and I believe you said you had had surgery at some point right?
not to worry you, but its just a thought. (they can always clear it out, even if it grows back you still have a fertile window)
Endo doesnt always have symptoms but I guess looking back it explains the twinges in my belly and random lower back aches as well as some GI issues...
anyhoo.
It could just be destiny- there are people who believe that things happen in our lives at certain times for a larger purpose. Like maybe you were meant to have this baby later for some reason?
anyhoo. I hope this is your month!!! I wont be trying just yet. on thursday after the post op Ill have a better idea about how we will proceed, but hopefully it is soon!!

Im still recovering but doing better all the time. I had the balloon removed yesterday since it made me go into labor 3 freakin times. (I know how that sounds) but my body was recognizing it as a foreign object and kept trying to expell it so I would have contractions/dilate and everything. It was a NIGHTMARE. holy cow, so much pain and no baby! jeez... I am exhausted from the whole experience but SO grateful to be able to walk around without the danger of going into labor over and over...

and to Kat- maybe NTNP isnt such a bad thing. If for whatever reason it happens, perhaps it is just meant to be. It would be sad to miss your sisters wedding for sure, but at the same time, this is your future and happiness that we are talking about, surely she would understand?? I say you dont stop but you continue as you have been, not stressing about it and enjoying your husband (wink wink) Come what may.

Big hug and kiss to you both
xoxo

 

[Afamilygal]

Kat- It occurs to me to ask you if you have you talked to your RE about endometriosis?
just a thought. seems a little unlikely that all 3 of us have it but my dr was pretty sure I didnt have it and Im stage 3 after only 18 months...

 

[4boys1girl]

Hi girls!

Rose, I don't think I do. I have had many ultrasounds biopsies hsg and never a problem. I never had surgery except for an appendectomy when i was 14yrs old. my periods had always been regular (until m/c). even without the clomid, they are staying pretty regular. who knows! but as far as NTNP, we have DTD 3 times ( that's all!!!) and only prevention was that i got up after and pretty much pushed the stuff out and wiped it away. i suppose a few survivors could have hung on for dear life and stayed put, but it decreases my chances dramatically. It doesn't mean it wont happen though, especially if it is meant to be, like you said rose. With my daughter, we werent trying and he accidentally "let loose"
inside, and i jumped up and washed it out so fast. But there definitly was at least one survivor...she is my daughter! lol, her personality shows it too. So, we will just wait and see. my hubby thinks we were meant to have five, but thinks that we have already accomplished that and that our 5th just didnt make it its a sad thought, but i get it. i wonder, too, if that is true.

well, its always great to hear new news from you both, so continue to write, as will i. Enjoy your holidays too. I am hosting thanksgiving for 33 people...its going to be a busy time! take care.
luv kat