just couldn't face going on birth control. It made me feel so sad to think we could prevent and take any chance of having a baby away. But I am slowly losing hope. Every month is the same. And I am making myself feel so ill and depressed. 

Congrats Barbie! So tell us about how it went when you told your DH!
OoOo- I can't face the idea of going on BC either. I know it would 'help' get my body straightened back out if it's a hormonal issue but then you just know there's not even a shred of hope. And I also fear that it may cause more harm than good because then not only do I have x amounts of month ON the BC, I'd have x amounts of months to regulate my body coming back off of it.
Ellie- Fingers crossed for you.
AFM- I've been in touch with another doctor and they are willing to code my first appointment as a pregnancy counseling so that my insurance may cover it. I think I might throw my 'annual' visit in with that appointment as well. If I go this route, I may be able to have the HSG done for a better price, since I will be able to make payments on it instead of paying all of it up front. Cd10 right now, we'll BD during fertile time but I didn't take Clomid so I don't have high hopes of pregnancy.
Yup I'm 10dpo today still spotting since 7dpo so not sure what's going on if it could still be implantation or if its just pre AF spotting. I'm not supposed to start until at least Wed. How are you feeling Barbie?